BABIES R'nt US

[abessy]

In less than a month, had things happened differently, I would have given birth to my second child. Unfortunately, my precious baby boy was born almost 5.5 months too early. After losing him, I had mixed feelings about having other children. I was so difficult to deal with - I was so angry; angry at other women who were still pregnant, angry at

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[excess_3]

I know your loss still haunts you. It almost seemed very long ago, I didn't realize now would have been the time, and another baby may dampen that pain. Everything can be talked about....try to talk it over with him.

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this

thanks

[abessy]

It does seem so long ago... I wasn't sure how I would handle the upcoming month, but so far it's been ok... except for the extreme want to have what wasn't meant to be. I feel guilty about wanting another baby when maybe I haven't grieved enough for the one I lost. I think Mike is probably right about waiting a little bit, but part of feels like maybe another baby might help relieve some of the loss... all of this confusion was brought on, I think, by my recent encounter with a newborn... I know that Mike and I need to talk, but it's finding the time to get him to sit and discuss it without interruptins.. I am hoping that we can do that this weekend when Rachael is with her dad.