[Memories] "I'll Kill You"

[aadroma]

Recently I was getting into a discussion on Bear411 about stupid things we've done in our past. I admit, in my younger days I'd made some incredibly stupid decisions. Pull up a chair and let me tell you about one

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[andrew_jp_reyes]

Yes.

[jawnbc]

Stoopid? I think you were ballsy. But I look back at where I trolled 4 cock when I was 19 and think "didn't I know I could get killed?"

Now if you were still doing this sort of thing....I'll still think you were ballsy.

[paladincub21]

i'm sorry but what are you guilty about? You saw a guy who you thought was hot. you told him so. he propositioned you, you decided to do it, and then he freaked out, and you walked away. That seems like a just fine type of encounter. Clear, honest, up front - you didn't force him into anything.

I'd just remind him - lots of straight guys don't let other guys blow them. Why did you?

There is very little to be ashamed of here. But that's my opinion, obviously.

When i see you next, we'll dig deep into things we should be ashamed of - let's not beat ourselves up over things like this.

[aadroma]

I feel stupid for having gone down there and telling him anything, for going ahead and slobbing his knob at his WORK, for managing to bust him out, and THEN for looking his number up in the phone book (which borders on being stalker-esque!).

[paladincub21]

i can understand you see the line as fuzzy, but it's been years and you haven't done anything; its not something you are following.

At the time, all you were doing was stating your interest and following through on his reply.

[paladincub21]

a snippet of me at 19.

at outback steakhouse out in lincolnwood

him: you know it's dangerous to meet people on the internet.
me: maybe so, but i met you that way so it can't be all bad.
him: there are bad people out there. i could kill you.
me: well, are you going to kill me?
him: i might
me: then why haven't you done it already? you had me in your car already.
him: well i'm a good guy. plus, i'd get in trouble at work.
me: what do you do for work.
him: i'm a police officer. violent crime.
me: oh.

[dr_tectonic]

As others have said, you didn't do anything spectacularly dumb. A little risky and foolish, sure, but not atypical for a 19-year-old.

And the thing to remember is that Ron was angry because he was scared because he DID do something quite dumb (fooling around on the job) and almost got in big trouble for it. And angry-afraid people tend to say dumb shit like "I'll kill you" when they really mean "Oh god PLEASE don't get me in trouble!"

Interesting story. One request: could you use cut-tags when posting NSFW text, please? Thanks!

ditto on the cut request

[sneaky_piecrust]

i prefer to read that kind of material after my wife has gone to bed . . .

our computers are in the same room. we sleep separately.

19 year olds do lots of foolish things . . .

Re: ditto on the cut request

[aadroma]

I apologize; I normally DO cut these things too ...

Re: ditto on the cut request

[sneaky_piecrust]

Apology accepted. You *do* normally cut erotic stories and images which is *much* appreciated.

[greatbearmd]

Not stupid, it's just part of the explorations of life one does at that age. :)