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[cahoooooooots]

[the feed opens with a mutter, but one of somebody who knows what she's doing.]

Serves me right for trying to think about stuff to take my mind off my back.

[she knows damn well that what she's about to say is going to sound crazy. but it's on her mind, and she wants validation. or to hear the sound of her own voice. either way.]If you take away

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[and_another_war]

You're... kinda right. I mean, sorry if I wasn't supposed to respond to this, but... it applies to me, definitely.

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[cahoooooooots]

Huh?

Oh. Why the hell wouldn't you be "supposed" to say anything? It's a public post, isn't it?

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[and_another_war]

Yeah, but sometimes people post stuff public they don't mean to, y'know?

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[cahoooooooots]

Stupid people, maybe. [she laughs weakly.] Everything I do is on purpose. If I want to talk to a network full of people that's going to think I'm crazy for saying what I just said, I can do that.

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[memorizethefire]

Hafta agree with you there. As much as we hate them, hell, it's a chance we never would've gotten anywhere else.

[voice]

[cahoooooooots]

Doesn't mean we still can't raise some hell while we're here.

[voice]

[memorizethefire]

Exactly. Even if they give us a chance, they still make it pretty damn awful while they're at it.

[voice]

[cahoooooooots]

Payback's a bitch, and even after everything they've done for me, I'm still the hugest bitch I know.

[featheryasshole]

That's kind of taking away a lot of parts. You know, like death and torture and fucking lobotomies.

I've got some good things from coming here, too, but it's still not worth it.

[cahoooooooots]

Yeah, but you came here with way more than I ever had, Strider.

[featheryasshole]

I wouldn't really agree, but whatever. Not interested in arguing about just how much my life sucks.

[cahoooooooots]

Then we won't argue about it. But I'll still think your life has always been better off than mine was.

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[chainsawsylph]

Yes, you would've.

[audio]

[cahoooooooots]

No, Kanaya, I would have had you pining miserably over me all the time but never actually saying anything, and you would have had me not knowing anything was even wrong and trying to ride Tavros' bulge to Quadrant Clusterfuck City. And eventually you would've gotten tired of it and left. Or I would've done something to make it worse and worse until we killed each other.

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[chainsawsylph]

...I'm good at keeping track of what's wrong with me on my own. You didn't need to worry about it anyways. Maybe I should have said something. I don't think I ever could have killed you, though.

I'm glad you've met some friends here.

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[cahoooooooots]

Hey, don't sell yourself short. I met you here, too. I mean, like, really met you. Got to know you way better than I ever did. It isn't the same you as you, but... I think maybe now I'm in a good enough place or something where we can, like, start over.

And that means giving a crap about my moirail. Even when she's doing dumb stuff like pretending nothing's wrong.

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[sufferheir]

DON'T FUCKING SAY SHIT LIKE THAT.

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[cahoooooooots]

Why?
8ecause I'm right?

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[sufferheir]

NO BECAUSE YOU'RE WRONG
YOU'RE DEAD FUCKING WRONG AND FUCK YOU!
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT.

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[cahoooooooots]

Just so I'm clear.
What part of this are you pissed off a8out?