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The Sun Will Set For You
i've decided to kill myself. i will do it. i am going to down a bottle of vodka and take 2 or 3 painkillers and i will have a painless death. i can't wait. as soon as my friend gets me the pills, i'm done. he doesn't know what i planning to do because if he did he wouldn't give me the painkillers. But anyway, i am dead-set on doing this.
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The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows
haven't posted one in a while so i'll do one now.
there are a lot of things that people don't know about me. the people that i keep the closest especially. i just can't let them know. i'm too afraid of what they might think of me because i have enough low self-esteem as it is and i don't need anyone to kick me when i'm down. i'm too scared of ( Read more... ) -
Upset...
my friday sucked. i just had a fight with my friend, a fight that she started. i think she got jealous of my popular cousin and brother and then she just started doggin on me that i pretend to talk ghetto. i got so mad cus i'm from the Brickz and i talk slang naturally, its not forced. i'm not ghetto or nuthin but i do talk some slang sometimes ( Read more... ) -
i think in decimals and dollars
tedious is the best way to describe school today. nothing big or interesting happened. i had to do service hours today and that was probably more exciting than school. i went to a daycare center to do community service, volunteer work, whatever. i helped kids do their homework and talk to them and stuff. but some of the kids would make fun of ( Read more... ) -
Boges
i bought a pack of cigarettes today. my friend sold it to me. they're camel menthols...i got em for 5 bucks. i swore i was going to quit but oh well. i like smoking...it calms me. anytime i'm pissed off, depressed, or just bored, i smoke a boge. i'm not addicted. i smoke once every five days and thats pretty good. i don't inhale them either ( Read more... ) -
another day in the life
school today was boring as usual. nothing exciting happened and there wasn't any drama which is strange because my high school is known for its overwhelming amount of dramatics.
i smoked today after school with some friends. and i declared that i was going to quit but just seeing them do it made me want to. so i only did one but i gave the rest ( Read more... ) -
From The Depths Of Dreams
i hope everyone had a good morning because i had a great one. maybe its cus i had a great dream.
i dreamed that my favorite rapper, Eminem, came to my house and just chilled there. he signed posters, books, caps, and magazines that i had of him. it was really cool and inspiring. it made me realize something. i believe that i can do whatever i ( Read more... ) -
sometimes, new jersey
ight i'm mad...i can't do my driver's ed homework cus i forgot my driver's manual and now it seems like every little thing is starting to piss me off. i'm a little frustrated, but i know i can just get the homework from someone else.
today nothing really exciting happened. my friend came over and we chilled for a bit and whatever. i kind of feel ( Read more... ) -
Longview
i feel weird today. i don't know why but i just do. i'm not happy or depressed, just...stoic. i didn't wake up alone this morning again. my mom and brother are here but my mom left so i'm stuck with a maniac : [
i have no idea what today holds for me, but i'm gonna go read a book then work on the stories i'm writing then do my homework then ( Read more... ) -
how bout them Jets
eh, the jets just lost to the giants. i'm upset. we should have won that game. we were doing good in the first half (trailing the giants by 10 points) but then...idk we fucked up. chad pennington threw 3 interceptions. at that point i was just like "fuck it." i really hate it when we lose, it gets me down. oh well, i'll get over it and maybe ( Read more... )