i took my morning walk, took my evening walk, i ate something, thought about something, i wrote, napped, dreamed something too . and with all that something, i still have nothing because so much of somethings has always and will always be you.

merry christmas.

you still cross my mind at least once during the day, every day.

so my mom got a phone call yesterday from LA, and my aunt has been in the hospital for two months, and she has a few weeks left to live because she's dying from cancer ( Read more... )

you're just a memory.

i really hate getting attached. i'm so sorry.

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I have no desire to write in here anymore.

I keep trying to start an entry up but I just can't.  

except for you, David. If you don't want to read it (this is concerning all of you, then don't. It's best you don't ( Read more... )

i'm still really shaken up right now. So earlier i was on the phone with Darius and we were kind of bickering because of how i've been feeling lately just... i dunno. he wants a lot from me, but i don't know if i can give him that. anyway, so we were arguing on the phone, and he was driving, and he was mid sentence when all of a sudden i heard an ( Read more... )

i am fucking losing my mind.