General Confusion

[shadowkat3]

After seeing the video/dance laceandtea posted and thinking about this weekend, this is what floated to the surface to be typed up here.....

For whoever's been following, I was AWOL this past weekend from the computer because two important things in my life happened
1) andrea and roxie (my step sister who's amazing and loving and great and my step

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my guesses

[snuck]

why was i so afraid of her? Because she acted in a way you weren't expecting, and because she acted in the same way as other people who have hurt you

[briar_witch]

Actually, what Alex did to Steve may in fact have been necessary. As far as I'm concerned, what she did was self-defense. Some people just don't understand anything less subtle than brute force. Of course, it would be a lot better if you two could get out of there entirely. I certainly don't think her protecting herself and you in that manner makes her as bad as your abusers. She's not being being abusive, and she's only acting to protect you both, unlike your abusers who hurt others just becuase they can, even though they have no reason to and don't have to defend themselves.

You froze hon, and there's no shame in that. It's an automatic response, and you can't help it. You didn't do anything wrong.

She cares about you, and I'm guessing she can't stand to see someone be abused like she has been, that's why.

Steve is just scary. I was angered by what you've described of his behaviour before, but what you've just described really, really disturbs me. Please consider telling someone like your art teacher or anyone else who

[whirlwitch]

My main thought is: You need to get out of there. Now.

((((HUGS))))

[pushed_too_far]

*safe hugs*

In my opinion what alex did was self defense but i guess only you can know if that makes her as bad as him because only you saw the darkness in her eyes.

Feeling sorry for steve is normal i guess, i do it with my abusers, anyone that has hurt me. I am always making excuses, seeing things from their point of view, sometimes at my own expense. It just shows you are human and a good person and never let anyone take your ability to feel away because even though being numb takes the hurt away, trust me, you are not alive. And, when you are just existing you fail to see the point to life because you aren't feeling a thing.

I am so so sorry this is happening to you right now, i wish there were something i could do. Please seek help you need to get out of there. I know how scary it must be though so more *safe hugs*

Take care

[ladyofthelog]

Hey Kat,

I've been reading your posts and I'm really worried for you. Just so you know, you can always call the people at the Texas State Youth Hotline:
http://www.dfps.state.tx.us/Youth_Hotline/youth.asp

I have a close friend lives in Austin who works at getting people like you and your friend into safe homes. If you'd ever like to talk to her, please let me know.

*big hugs*

[briar_witch]

I totally second this. I know you're reluctant to tell someone, Kat honey, but please, please really consider doing this. I am so scared for you right now, and scared for Alex and your brother too. Steve will only escalate things, they'll get worse, not better.

I'll repeat what I said before--no matter what happens, we'll be right here for you.

[ladyofthelog]

Same here.

If you tell us where you are in Texas, I can suggest some local resources, also.