i wish i could read minds.
i would love to know what is going on in his head.
i don't think he understands, that everytime i see that he is online or come across an comment he has left..
my stomach turns inside out.
what a fucked up mess ive made.

i just want to make things right.

fuckshitnotherfucker.

Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.

I'd break in two over you
I'd break ( Read more... )

millie died...
i just want to be with one person right now.

P.s.
cuddleing with muse aka stivie aka fury freaking cat and watching the sun rise is amazing.

so yeah it's 6:49am. sweet.....
i tried to sleep but it didn't work out becouse my mind is a battlefield right now.
i really fucking hope i see him tomrrow. that would be fucking fantastic.
if not then i am going to see if i can get a ride to go visit Tory. it's been forever senes i have seen her.
and mabey she can talk to me about my crazy fucked up ( Read more... )

so its 7:45am and im still awake...i guess this means im going to school and passing out there from being bored as fuck and not learning a godamn thing cus they suck at teaching ( Read more... )

Right so umm.... *screams*

i'm going to do something kind of crazy.
i don't think anyone is ready for this one. if im still even worth his time. i'm really hopeing i am.
he is deff. worth mine. he is the only person i want to see right now. well and karp and tory and jessica of course. plus like alot of other people. ha i make no senes and i dont give a fuck.
he hurt me the ( Read more... )

1. List twenty things you wish you could say to people but can't. You can't list the same people repeatidly.

2. Don't say who they are.

3. Never discuss it again.
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1.i have known you senes 2nd grade ( Read more... )

Life is pretty tastful right now.
and i havnt even touched this thing in forever.
i'm having fun. so much fun with life right now.
yeah i wish alot of things were better and diffrent. but oh well.
as long as i dont lose the amazing friends i have right now i think i can deal.

my mind is going insane right now. im happy yet sad.
i wish i could of stayd at ( Read more... )