I was at RAINN.ORG looking through their articles. So much of it reminds me of being with P. The articles on Dating and Domestic Violence, Battered Woman Syndrom, Rape, Partner Rape, and the one that really stuck out at me is
Complex PTSD. I've never heard of it before, but read the article, and it describes a lot of my symptoms.
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I copied and pasted the article here )