Oh sweetie!! It's awful reading about how much pain you're in!! When I get like that the people I ask for help tell me to stop and breathe. Don't react, but respond. I am the most irrational person I know. And I know it seems ridiculous and impractical, but seriously. Just stop yourself and breathe! I wish I could be more help!
Well I decided to just wait until Thursday to talk to him again. Give him time to hopefully cool off- almost a week. I'm just gonna ask if he wants to talk and just try not to make too many excuses and hopefully he'll understand somehow. If he can't forgive me he's a jerk because he's hurt me so much in the past few months. And he's pretty fucked up himself.
I hope im doing the right thing there. Waiting and then talking to him. Thursday isn't too long away..and 5 days is a long time to continue to be sooo mad and weirded out...unless I really pissed him off.
He told me to leave him alone for good. I guess I didn't breathe and relax. I just wouldn't leave it alone. I wanted him to understand, to let me talk...just for 5 minutes...but he didn't want to listen.
My "apparent obsession" really made him not want to be around me...thats what he said.
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I hope im doing the right thing there. Waiting and then talking to him. Thursday isn't too long away..and 5 days is a long time to continue to be sooo mad and weirded out...unless I really pissed him off.
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My "apparent obsession" really made him not want to be around me...thats what he said.
I was so stupid.
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What are you going to do now? I know you must feel desperate but I dont know that there's much you can do.
I personally don't think it's possible to heal if the hurt is in your face all the time.
Seriously, staring at the screen for the last half hour when I should be working. I just don't know what to say to you.
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