Do I ever cross your mind in the sunshine?

[_pookiexbear]

I need to talk. The problem is that I don't know who to talk to. Instead I suppose I will talk into this box, and hopefully for the first time in like 5 years I won't just delete what I wrote afterwards

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[meinarse]

Where are you going to live in New York? Does the university have a place for you to stay, or do you have a place lined up already? How long is the contract/research position?

I don't like it when people move on, I get excited for them, but I am also resistant to their change. I want to move on from people, not have people move on from me. It seems... sad and makes me feel very small.

[_pookiexbear]

I think that I am having the exact same feeling.

I am not certain of where I will live yet. I don't start until August 31st, though I have to go down there in 2 weeks for training. Hopefully while I am there I can look for some places to live. Most people only seem to give 30 days notice to move out, so it's pretty difficult to find a place this far in advance. I'm a little concerned, New York is expensive.

My contract is for a year, with the possibility to extend for another year (well, really it is open ended, but it is assumed that I will be moving on to grad school in the next year or so). With every passing day I consider taking the extra time a little more. I mean, I may as well already be a grad student for all of the research I have done. The problem is that I don't know exactly what I want, nor do I really feel like going through with all of the preparations for it...

[silverwolfmoon]

OMG LFO.

this post vaguely reminds of the film closer...and specifically of natalie portman's line - 'i'm not the one who is left, i'm the one who does the leaving'...it's worth thinking about the sense of agency that results with change and how messy negotiating it can be.

sadly, people grow, and grow apart. sometimes it's worth reconnecting. sometimes it's worth letting them go.