dramatic, i know, but it's true;

i just feel empty.

im confused.

THE SECOND I THINK IM ONTO SOMETHING THE DOUBTS TAKE OVER MY MIND

i am still awake. i took a sleeping pill at 3 that was supposed to last for 8 hours. 2 hours later, here i am.

my ears are ringing and i can't sleep.

i've just been thinking about next year and its possibilities that aren't possible except by miracle.

i'm looking for a band to sing for. i'm really desperate. it's sad.
i just want to show people what i can do, and have an excuse to act like an idiot in front of people.

i don't really want to go

so why am i going?

i'm not.

haha

( i made these! )

excuse me while i throw up.

uugghhh

this is terrible. don't look at these. i'm crazy. i'm vain. whatever. spit on me.

( who's seen jezebel? )

grand. just grand.

if you love me, why am i not allowed to be happy?

shit.