Я как раз недавно стала думать что I can achieve anything - наверное сказались 5 лет living American dream и life coaches getting into my head. А вот оно оказывается как;-(
You can definitely achieve anything - while you want it, and while you have energy for it.
Then eventually energy drops, but responsibilities and needs of those who depend on you only continue to grow. And you start dropping not only things that can be dropped, but also things that should not be. And then somehow need to find peace with it.
It's not about professional at all. Professionally it's completely fine - please go and achieve everything you want :)
What about trying to do it, fake it till you make it? Not books about meditation, but meditation; or just strolling or exercising the first thing in the morning before others bite into your day? And things you enjoy, how about scheduling them first? I might be on a different process from you, because I live more and more with the outlook of limited lifespan. And for health of it, I am cutting my estimates these days. Like I want to live, knowing I have ten year left. And then, all going well, I will expand that time horizon. All these achievements, they have so little value when you know to count how many days you left to live.
I am trying to do both meditation and books about meditation, because it's got to be done right to achieve maximum result, right? :)
But seriously, what you say all makes perfect sense (and I am happy to hear an advice or a comparison too). I am not there yet to countdown my life, but I am actively counting down the kids time - I have 6 years till they all go to college. Not that I'll be done then, I know it'll take at least another 10 years until they start supporting themselves, but at least I'll get some weekends back to myself :)
I really do not know what I am whining about. I have nothing to complain, it's all good. Just midlife crisis, I guess.
Most likely there is just nothing for yourself in this schedule.
Nothing which could prove you that you are really good at something you really like, something you can do way better than others, something to be proud of every day, a reason to feel good about yourself every day.
Feeling good about ourselves is what gives us a purpose in our lives. If there is nothing like this in store for us the life loses it's sense and we lose the reason to live our life in full.
Achiving maximum is a trap unless it's something you really enjoy doing, not for a sake of max.
Meditation is good and gives you a break and a different prespective. Doing something you really enjoy and feel good about is really healing and reqarding.
это очень серьезный такой загон. anything can be achieved - это конечно, но "а оно тебе надо?" Даже не так - ты, конечно, можешь чего угодно добиться, и чего угодно достичь, вопрос в том, а ты вот этого самого действительно хочешь? Тебе оно самой-то правда нужно? Или оно тебя привлекает просто тем, что вот оно есть, и еще не достигнуто, а в детстве учили, что это непорядок?
Но чаще это не о том что мне надо, а о том что надо другим, и что я должна. Не в смысле что они мне говорят "вот ты должна", а в том, что, например, в обязанности хорошей матери (и хорошей дочери, и хороших всех прочих) очень много всего входит. И если чего-то из этого не сделать, то нет возможности сказать (или даже подумать) "не смогла". Потому что если "anything can be done", то нет такого варианта "не смогла". Есть только вариант "не стала делать, хотя понимала насколько это важно". Guilt.
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Then eventually energy drops, but responsibilities and needs of those who depend on you only continue to grow. And you start dropping not only things that can be dropped, but also things that should not be. And then somehow need to find peace with it.
It's not about professional at all. Professionally it's completely fine - please go and achieve everything you want :)
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What about trying to do it, fake it till you make it? Not books about meditation, but meditation; or just strolling or exercising the first thing in the morning before others bite into your day? And things you enjoy, how about scheduling them first? I might be on a different process from you, because I live more and more with the outlook of limited lifespan. And for health of it, I am cutting my estimates these days. Like I want to live, knowing I have ten year left. And then, all going well, I will expand that time horizon. All these achievements, they have so little value when you know to count how many days you left to live.
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ps apologies in advance if it looks like advice or comparison! all i meant to say, it it’s an outlook from a different window
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But seriously, what you say all makes perfect sense (and I am happy to hear an advice or a comparison too). I am not there yet to countdown my life, but I am actively counting down the kids time - I have 6 years till they all go to college. Not that I'll be done then, I know it'll take at least another 10 years until they start supporting themselves, but at least I'll get some weekends back to myself :)
I really do not know what I am whining about. I have nothing to complain, it's all good. Just midlife crisis, I guess.
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Nothing which could prove you that you are really good at something you really like, something you can do way better than others, something to be proud of every day, a reason to feel good about yourself every day.
Feeling good about ourselves is what gives us a purpose in our lives. If there is nothing like this in store for us the life loses it's sense and we lose the reason to live our life in full.
Achiving maximum is a trap unless it's something you really enjoy doing, not for a sake of max.
Meditation is good and gives you a break and a different prespective. Doing something you really enjoy and feel good about is really healing and reqarding.
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Но чаще это не о том что мне надо, а о том что надо другим, и что я должна. Не в смысле что они мне говорят "вот ты должна", а в том, что, например, в обязанности хорошей матери (и хорошей дочери, и хороших всех прочих) очень много всего входит. И если чего-то из этого не сделать, то нет возможности сказать (или даже подумать) "не смогла". Потому что если "anything can be done", то нет такого варианта "не смогла". Есть только вариант "не стала делать, хотя понимала насколько это важно". Guilt.
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