i am in low spirits ( Read more... )

everything and one is a fucking sham. the rascal flatts? womanizers! my perfect boyfriend? a sham!
my great guy friends? after sex! wtf people. even my best best guy friend.... not so good as i thought. fuck all you guys.

I am really bummed out. If it wasn't for Gena I probably wouldn't be alive. I won't elaborate but I am now alone. Its on him at this point. I refuse to wait around for something that might be nothing. I've never been more sad.. or in love as I am right now. At least I am keeping busy. I wish so hard he would realize what he had and lost, and like ( Read more... )

i had an awesome past few days. I did the coolest thing ive ever done. I drove to riverside with mike. It was one hell of a drive... 7hrs. It was pitch black and thick fog, and i had no glasses. after that we crashed (after getting approached by a cop that dug my texas sticker), at sheenas dorm. Dorms are literally hell on earth. I hated it.then ( Read more... )

today was easily one of the worst days in my life so far. im exhausted and hurting in every way possible.

RIP grandma.. a truly kind lady

strange things happen to me. My grandmas funeral is on saturday. My dad is really going through a lot right now. Then sunday night mike and i leave for LA. its exciting, to plan something and follow through with it ( Read more... )

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im moving tomorrow at 7 am! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

im so happy as of lately. My boyfriend and I are doing good, I have an excellent support group in the way of friends, I have long hair! (thanks to sheena), I've made progress on my book, and Im creating a calendar with the first shoot taking place this morning. it went great!
ps- i love my best friend mike jones!

society sucks. A girl has so many pressures. She must be thin (36-24-36), she must have big boobs, tanned skin, clear skin, white teeth, long hair, theres so many things. Its tough, to get all these things right.