I notice that I am starting to have this issue with being dedicated to something like writing no longer do I work as a photographer... this does not mean that I have stopped or limited myself from taking pictures. I have become the model now posing just ever so slightly wishing that the picture turns out to some sort of liking. my music style has ( Read more... )

totally didn't think that people used this site anymore... wow, I was wrong... it has been forever since my last entry alot has changed. alot of friends faded into the distance and alot has entered my life and impacted me more then ever. I know over those last few years i wrote about sadness sure it still exists as an everyday sort of being but ( Read more... )

I havent been feeling well at all I am thinking about just dissapearing for a while. life hasent been going well for me and my family so I have lacked my speech to others. I know this is probably bad for me. I have been getting the urge to self injure, but I am trying to stay strong. having been working on this article for my journalism class about ( Read more... )

wow, it dident hit me till now that I have been living the life of a person I hate. myself. I got told today by this girl that I complain about my life, that I am a lier... and so on. both of those are true on very diffrent angles. I dont lie about my past (meaning before I moved to chicago) I do lie to people about random things that I dont know ( Read more... )

I dont know what to feel what to think anymore. I know I am in love, I know who I am in love with. but we fight constantly but we have those good days? I know I want him I know he wants me. I blow things out of proportion. he doesnt know what to say at the right time. sometimes I think he doesnt get me. but he makes my world go round he makes my ( Read more... )

Problems spawned from my only hatred. as silence sets upon us. we weep for forgiveness, when we deny the fact that we are not asking forgiveness from others. more so in the way things work we try to ask for forgiveness from ourselves. shedding light upon our putred souls would unleash the past. muses find no relavence and disappear as quickly as ( Read more... )

the nude color of flesh can easily turn into red when something so metallic is dragged across it's surface. then that one beautiful creation becomes a canvas filled with chaos, distruction, emotion. stories are told within the skin but it's left muted until later release. the sacrity of my safe haven will fall beneath my feet. my protected ground ( Read more... )

Tattered bits of feathers from ripped up wings as a angel descends from heaven. unsure of the chaos on earth. the angels face all a glow looking like a porcalin doll with a small figure. yet, when fallen from heaven no lights broke out in glee the world was still dark and unforgiving. the voice but a whisper as it spoke to you. an itching telling ( Read more... )

so yet agian I was still taking those stupid quizes and I found another one. I like this not only cause I adore animi but the fact that I love everything about animi and that this test puts me into a character... that is not only pretty but is dressed so cute. I wish I was an amimi character... poo.


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Lately I have been doing nothing. I am trying to set things right for my future but family members like to throw me into a loop and try figuring out my life for me I dont like that... also recently I just took this test and here are my results. I found them kind of ironic but I adore the picture so have at it.


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