I don't know how to explain it. I feel emotionally just drained. I'm not even 6 months into this whole tumour process and I feel just done with it all. Honestly I know it's terrible to say and I know I can't say this to any of my support team but fuck if I fell asleep and that was it I would be okay with that. I'm just so tired of everything.

Every night before I go to sleep I really wish to wake up in my old life. My pre tumour life. I miss that life. I miss it very much. I hate that I will never have that life again

I know I'm supposed to have my positive pants on. I am really trying. I know I should be super pleased with what my neuroligist said about me possibly having decades. The thing is, that's decades living with a giant tumour who may decide to get bigger and take more of me away. I am not okay with that. I don't like this watch and wait bullshit. It ( Read more... )

I know I'm supposed to be positive but that's not exactly the easiest thing to do. I saw a new Neurologist today and he thinks things are significantly worse then any of my other doctors think. He tried to get me in to see a new Neurosurgeon today but he wouldn't take me on because technically I have a neurosurgeon. I just feel my neurosurgeon ( Read more... )

It's been a damn long time since I've updated this. I don't think anyone is actually reads these anymore. I know I haven't in a very long time ( Read more... )

My future husband

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he may not know me yet and he might just be married but that doesnt matter

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hahahahaha i friggin love Scrubs!!