hm, I don't even know where to begin or what to say. I have so much on my mind, and I am so overwhelmed but I don't know how to get it out. I can't even cry. Whats wrong with me? I used to love to just cry cause it somehow made everything seem better. All my tears dried up. I hate December, the magic of it just doesn't exist anymore. Everyone is so ( Read more... )

Okay so i got my new sexxxxxxxxxxy furniture today:-D yay! and then after that bobby and ruth came to my house and then we met kids at Peking, and then we tried to get into kyles play and couldnt get in so we came back to my house. Boy was that fun. Bobby and I were taking out our old furniture peices that were left to the dumpster, and he got the ( Read more... )

My Turkey Break wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Thursday we had thanksgiving here and Ruth and her older brother came, cause her parents were working on thanksgiving. So we hung out and watched White Chicks and stuff. Then Friday I just chilled at home, watched some movies, Ruth stopped by for a little bit again to drop an ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in here in awhile. I think I am avoiding whats going on with my life and whats going on with me. It feels like a movie, like I am watching myself and my life and I have no control over whats going on. Although nothing is really going on that is too significant ( Read more... )

UHm, chicken cow lizard. I dont know. uhh. bob is your uncle. thats uh thats uh very british. what? i uuuuuh im trying to figure this out its very FUCK what the FUCK ahhhhhhhh. im getting mad. cause its not working. this fucking thing. im trying to burn a cd and the whole thing is not wokring whatsoever. its driving me nuts. why do you sound so ( Read more... )

So I feel like a complete asshole. I told my mom that I hated it here and why I hated it here. But I also told her that I understand why we moved here and that I am not angry at her. I know my mom did it because she wants things to be better for her and for us. That is all she has ever wanted for us. And since we have been down here she has been so ( Read more... )

So i went to the homecomming dance last night. It just sucked. I think its cause I don't know that many people and fun stuff like that but I am just having a hard time getting used to this school. It is like I keep trying to make things better down here, but nothing is seeming to work. I am just really down and out I guess. But I have no choice but ( Read more... )

Returned from jersey today, ended up staying a week. My dad will be okay, thank god. I was really scared the first night i saw him, but hes getting better. It was pretty sad that i was preparing him for all the procedures he had to go through cause i already went through them. But anyways i feel like poopy, i miss nj and im tired.

So today i called my dad and he was completely out of it and he cried and told me he missed me and wants to come see me soon, but that won't be happening and it broke my heart. And then later on my sister called him and he told her that he had a stroke and i completely lost it. So tomorrow we are going to nj to see him...it wasnt the way that i ( Read more... )

haven't updated my life in awhile cause it is completely and utterly BORING. Okay so school still sucks, managed to make a few people who i talk to. No really promising guys yet, although there is this one guy whos absolutly gorgeous and i want to make sweet love to him haha but hes younger than me which is a turn off but hes so fricken hot. Oh ( Read more... )