ive never had a best friend or a group of friends in my life that lasted. it seems like everyone has that one group of friends that they all hangout with or that one person who they have been friends with for years. for some reason i cant have that. i turn into a huge asshole and ruin it or we drift apart or i open my mouth and say shit i shouldnt ( Read more... )

blah blah blah. same pictures. same problems. same shitty people.

i hope i never turn into a lifeless piece of shit. im actually going to go somewhere instead of saying i am, i dont want to be in the same place i am right now 5 years from now. i will not be in the same place.

i always make journals then say im going to post in them. i never do and i realized why. i dont care about other peoples problems so why would anyone care about mine? i dont care about how amazing your life is so why would anyone care about how amazing mine is ( Read more... )

i smoked salvia on saturday. i thought the world was ending. i wanted pete to experience everything i saw. im happy with everything in my life. its a lot better when all of you arent in it.

i grew up. thats why i date people who are 4 years younger than me.

its funny to see people change right before yor eyes. i hate most of the people that i wanted to get closer to this time last year. o well, ive always known the people that i care about and those are the ones i surround myself with. probation is done in a few days i hope. jesse kasenow is a bitch. that is all.

things suck lately. whats new. i fucked up and now my life is completly terrible. i dont know what to do anymore and this is terrible. i hope mark punches me in the head really hard when we box tonight. i want a bloody nose.

blah blah blah typical livejournal post. ive been fucking up with class and im now a week behind in architecture and if i dont pass my next math test on tuesday i will more than likely fail the class. the funny thing about it is everyone always talks about how they want to prove people wrong. everyone believes i can do this but im not applying ( Read more... )

pete tattoo'd my hand. nothing special just and exclamation point but we had a good laugh doing it and it'll go away in a little while. hanging out with him was fun and we had good talks. ones i havent had in years. it made me ask why i ever stop voicing my feelings as much as i did when i was a little punk.

the restlessness seems to finally be going away. maybe tomorrow i'll actually be able to eat a real meal. ive been running off nothing the past 2 days and yet i havent felt worn out yet which really scares me, i think i might be fucking up my body. tomorrow i just want to eat a good meal, get a good nights rest and start putting all this behind us.