I HAVE A NEW JOURNAL. IM ME IF YOU NEED TO FIND IT. OR I'VE ALREADY ADDED YOU.

PS. GET YOUR OWN LIFE.

Hey. I haven't been online all week. And I had told myself I never wanted to be online again.

Friends only.

I just don't know if I'll ever be satisfied with myself. It's been a month, and I honestly think I've tried as hard as I can. I'm not even sure how I'm supposed to react to things most of the time. The medication won't tell me what to say, stop me from being embarrassed or, hell, make me pretty. It's hard trying to accept that things won't be ( Read more... )

GUESS WHAT!

Today I found out I'm failing a majority of my classes. Hahahahaha.

I dunno what I'm going to do later. I feel really vain and self-absorbed right now, for whatever reason, but I'm pretty sure it's not a good one.

Out of school today because I had to see a different doctor about my medication and crap. He was Indian and attractive and smelled like weird spices. I think I love him. He said it would take another four to eight weeks before my social anxiety gets better, which... is uh... good ( Read more... )

I had my first post-hospital therapy meeting today, which was tedious because my new therapist asked the same 293748029 questions they asked me every five hours at the hospital. And she wants to put me back in group. There was a lot of questions about my dad, and I didn't know how I was supposed to respond to any of her questions. I don't know, it' ( Read more... )

Today was the worst I've had in awhile. And sometimes I wonder if I really am past redemption.

( Regardless, I decided to attack Jimmy with a stick I found in the yard. )

Sorry my updates have been infrequent as of late... play practice has preoccupied me. But I get to see Gorkon Friday, which will be AWESOME.

( You see what kind of shennadigans me and Jen get into? )

HEY NEVERMIND.