breaking away from the expectation

[knew_no_fear]

I shouldn't be here. It's the thought that keeps entering into my mind when I walk through the doors of Wolfram & Hart. I should be in Rome with Dawn, where she's happily going to school and loving the attention the Italian boys are throwing all over her. I should be soaking up the attention of a very handsome very possibly evil guy that goes by

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[got_the_spark]

Why was I still in this place? Right, because I couldn’t just go after the slayer and hell buggin’ Angel was priceless. Just the look on his face every time I said something and he knew I was right. ‘sides now we knew who the true champion was, sure I didn’t believe much in that prophecy crap but if it was true I would’ve been the one to fulfill. Sure this time the cup just had some Mountain Dew in it but what if the next time it is the real deal. I sure as hell know whenever Angel looks at me now he thinks of that and starts to doubt he’s the one. Make’s perfect sense too, sure he has a soul and all and has been fighting the good fight but he didn’t ask for his soul. He was cursed with it, and every time he goes back to being without it he doesn’t want it back. Now me on the other hand asked for my soul, and even if I lost it I would just go to how I was right before I got it. Still be all with the good and such just wouldn’t have any guilt up in me. As much as I’ve gotten over it there are still times that guilt hits me

[knew_no_fear]

I glance up into familiar blue eyes and my breath catches in my throat. Spike? Spike standing in front of me, Harmony saying his name like she can see him too and this isn't some freakish hallucination. Spike alive, alive, obviously for a while now if Harmony isn't utterly surprised by this development like I am. Standing here slack jawed

[got_the_spark]

Yea, of course she was surprised. Don’t blame the girl, it's not everyday you tell someone you love them to help ease their passing and figure you'll never see them again and then all of a sudden they are here and...OUCH. I went flying back into some lady as I felt her fist meet up with my fast

[destructo_gal]

I didn't say anything, he could read my emotions too well and I wanted to hit him again for it. Asking why I hit him, like he didn't know. I may not be the smartest monkey in the barrell but I'm not an idiot. He'd been around, long enough to have gotten my number, hell Angel had my number. For that matter Angel had someone who checked up on me. I knew this, but Spike still didn't tell me.

He shrugged Harmony off and that gave me some sense of satisfaction. I wasn't jealous persay just confused to say the least. In more ways than one. It's not like I couldn't feel Angel somewhere in the this building. I wasn't prepared for this, not Spike. Anything but Spike.

He was a ghost? And then here? And Angel didn't tell me either. God, the men in my life really need a good ass kicking; I'll volunteer for the job, I'm sure Xander would love to sell tickets.

So he got a package and poof, all solid? I crossed my arms over my chest waiting for the rest of this convient explination. I raised my brow and waited.

"I had something from you that