i just spent a long time reading my livejournal from eighth grade. i used to be so much cooler.

no one's into livejournal anymore, and that's cool i guess. it's just that time again. i've been so miserable since i sprained my ankle. no one tells you how painful it is to walk on crutches. i wake up every night with my ankle wrap burning holes in my foot and i get so mad. today my (former) tennis teacher complemented my shoe, i ate a lot of ( Read more... )

this guy from my high school was shot and i cried about it all night last night. then i saw pictures of his girlfriend at the vigil held for him and i cried some more. i guess i was just remembering how i went to his house once and he had a blanket on his wall with the poker-playing dogs on it. and how i saw him hug his girlfriend at soda springs ( Read more... )

i really need to get out more.

chris and i just celebrated our two year anniversary. we drank champagne and we smooched and we swam at a fancy hotel in denver. i feel really glad that i have him and that we're still together. there are certain things that fade out after two years, but he feels like home to me. i don't like to think about whether or not we will stay together in ( Read more... )

i wasn't accepted to reed college and i didn't receive enough financial aid for psu. i'm trying to work on that last thing. i have some options. even so, moving to portland is going to be difficult and i don't know if i can pull it off ( Read more... )

haikus about daniel ( Read more... )

in my class we were talking about the barbie that works at mcdonald's and it made me uneasy so i had a dream that night that i worked at mcdonald's. it's just strange to be me sometimes, i always wanted to be this person that was quiet and didn't need attention but i think i'll always be loud and i will always give too much of myself, that has ( Read more... )

i finished my first semester of college. it's strange to grow up. it's strange to have your own apartment and pay your own bills and live with your boyfriend and do stuff like go to college and buy your own broom and your own trashcans. it's strange to not really go to parties and get drunk anymore and spend all your time doing homework. it's ( Read more... )

"pretend for a moment that you grew up in a deeply racist society...one which advantages accrue disproportionately to members of one race...and that this race has a long and disturbing (when noticed) yet often underinvestigated history of exploiting other races. pretend that the rich...are entitled to the benefits their wealth brings to them, even ( Read more... )