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I quit smoking
porque?

5. to prove that I can
4. I've been wasting too much money on cigs
3. I don't want to fuck up my lungs any more than they are
2. I don't wanna fuck up my teeth
1. my mom asked me if I was smoking and I said no... and I felt bad for lying, so I decided it wouldn't be a lie if I just stopped

:)
going on day two... let's see how it ( Read more... )

my little brother ordered the dvd for my birthday. So last night he's like.. "so, was this your favorite gift? ... is this your favorite dvd? ... is this your favorite shirt ( Read more... )

So, let's see. I've got a heart murmur. What does that mean anyways? The doctor didn't seem to make a big deal out of it. She also wants to x ray and stuff for my breathing problem. Yeah, I've got one of those. I'm thinking, this smoking business is not the best thing I can do.... OH... WELL ( Read more... )

Tomorrows my birthday.
I hate birthdays. I hate holidays. I hate celebrating. I hate a lot of things right now. I'm in a hate mood. That's one of the emotions I like to give into. HATE  :)  to quote the offspring... it's cool to hate. hehe. I haven't smoked in a while. Call me a mooch, but who wants to smoke me out?
Yesterday night was pretty fukin ( Read more... )

man, I'm kinda mad at myself. I've managed to push all my friends away, especially the straight ones... like totally completely away, and I don't even know how I did it... well, kinda. It wasn't on purpose. I dunno, it's weird, being the token fukin gay and all... but nah, they didn't make it awkward, I musta done it myself. I guess... idk. They ( Read more... )

so... Lorena, what's new.
well.... a lot of fun has gone on.
I just finished my uh.. drug alcohol course online..  which meeeens, I can go test for my... PERMIT! YAAAY. It's quite silly really... I have a car, I just can't drive it. Sigh... I feel like I'm never gonna drive. I feel so like... idk, inept, like I can't ever do it. Like I'm gonna kill ( Read more... )

man, I'm a jerk bitch.... so what else is new?
sigh

I have a problem, with people in general. I have a problem opening up, and I have a problem getting attached, or rather not being.... I guess with the concept of it. And also with the concept of fidelity... and I have a lot of issues in general, but I don't think I'll share all them things. I guess ( Read more... )

I told a lot of y'alls that I wouldn't be here this week, but uh, I'm gonna be here this week... haha ( Read more... )