jim is filming me right now. hes making a dvd for his parents of all of his friends because they never know who he is talking about when he regales them of our crazy adventures. he's creating the intro right now. he wants it to be cheesy tv show style, like Full House, where there is music and each person is doing their own thing and suddenly ( Read more... )

this song inspired me into writing tonight. perhaps i will actually post this time. perhaps not, depends on how far i go ( Read more... )

im staring at a loss for the right words. more accurately, im feeling the inability to let it all out. inhibitions, rationality and that little voice that seems to think she knows it all, keep me shut up. that's probably the right thing to do. some days it's not there, more often then not it's not there but when it hits...it knocks me down. i ( Read more... )

i am in love. his name is matt kolb. oh matt, my heart throbs for you. please, if you love me too, check yes. if you dont then fuck you bitch the deal is off!

there has to be a change im sure
today was just a day fading into another
and that cant be what a life is for

its like all my energy has cooled. the molecules have slowed down and are trying to speed up. i feel them running into each other but they have nowhere to go. confined within my balloon of a body, the only sign of disorder is my vacant stare and trembling fingers. my thoughts are running through cement and my tongue is as heavy as lead. i see you ( Read more... )

im sitting in the living room of my new favorite house on 15th and hilyard. its full of life, random messes and girls bickering over chores. i however am seated in front of the tv, on only for the comfort of sound. they are starting to realize that the discussion over who cleans what has bored me and ive wandered away, sober from wine and drunk ( Read more... )

after a much needed indulgence in nature, i feel refreshed, too full, and slightly burned. i reached the 3rd of my many life time goals yesterday; bathing in a waterfall. and oh did that water fall...hard, cold and fast. it reminded me that im alive; spiking my senses and leaving me breathless until i had to suck in oxygen and scream. it was like ( Read more... )

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i have had the most awesome self-realization! some nights my brain just works so much more clearly than other nights.

wow.