So i thought i had everything figured out..a couple times. first i decided that i was going to forget all about noah and try this ryan thing. But then i chickened out and got scared that i would lose noah as a friend and get into something that would last. but now im having second thoughts on it all. I think about how I loved being with noah, and ( Read more... )

Things have been going really good. Hangin out with Lindsay a lot, keeping pretty busy with work, which i love by the way. went bowling with some friends from work the other night that was pretty fun. Noah and i are back to being friends and talking, but thats all it is. and we have actually been getting along really well this way. so i dont wanna ( Read more... )

Me and Noah are officially just friends. But I dont know if i really like the idea of being his friend. I dont like the way he treats his friends and since im so used to being treated nicely by him, as a boyfriend, i dont think i would like how he is as a friend. I duno we'll see i guess. I'm glad we got all the confusion done with, he is finaly ( Read more... )

Yesterday was thanksgiving!!! and it was alright. I talked to noah a little bit, and i guess he went on a date with Erica...the friend of his that i have always been kind of jealous of. They went to the movies just the two of them. then hung out the rest of the night, and he said he'd call me when he got home but of course he didnt. Im actually not ( Read more... )

Noah and I are no longer talking. I guess i didnt have to learn from my mistakes. He decided that he was tired of hurting me..so he says, but i think he just doesnt want the obligation of caring. Either way, he decided that it would be easier for us just not to talk. That i was right all along, its impossible for us to just be friends..Usually i ( Read more... )

Well since i wrote that last entry, I have hung out with Noah, and have believed what he had to say..to a certain extent. I was cautious...but i also think theres more of a chance of things turning out for the better. I still care about him too much not to believe in him. I love spending time with him. I feel so comfortable around him. I duno what ( Read more... )

It's funny, ya know the saying "learn from your mistakes" I so strongly believe in that quote, but yet, i never live by it. I have no self control at all. I never learned what daniel was doing with me. I let him fuck me over so many times, and any cahnce that i saw to get close to him, i took, despite the fact that i knew better. And here I am ( Read more... )

At first i was taking the break up between me and noah pretty hard. I don't think i understood that we werent going to be together ever again. and all i wanted to do was see him and talk to him, but i knew that if i did, i would never get over him and i had hoped that it would be the same for him. That maybe if he just saw me again, he may realize ( Read more... )

Its been a while since i updated last. but Noah and i broke up..again..although, this time it seems much more permanent than all the others. It sucks, its 4 and a half months i have dedicated to our relationship, and it seems it was all for nothing. It just seems like i was more comited to it than he was, and i was tired of feeling that he didnt ( Read more... )

Today is Noah's 18th birthday...hes out buying a new phone with his sister right now. but we'll hang out when he gets back. I'm going trick or treating tomorrow night,but i dont think hes coming. its just gonna be me and jenny. But oh well, it should still be fun. I'm almost out of debt. I still owe my sister 20 bucks, but im debating on if i ( Read more... )