As promised my lovelies!
Title: Patient Forgiveness
Author: myforgottenpain
Rating: R for content
Pairing: Vam all the way!
Summary: When Bam and Ville finally are given a chance to be together, will they be able to make the life they always wanted?
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything connected to HIM, Ville Valo, or Bam Margera. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends. I, however, could not pass up a great idea for a fan fiction!
Warnings: Angsty in the beginning, but it will get better! I swear!
Authors Notes: I'm still pulling this story together, so hopefully it will work well with me posting it before its done. I've only rewritten this story like... eight times...
Ryan ran as hard as he could through the hospital. His heart was racing in his chest, crying without even realizing that his cheeks were stained with tears. The report had been so vague and was now fuzzy in his frantic mind. All he could think was that something had happened to Katri and she was now in the hosital. He prayed to whatever deity was out there, that she and the baby would be alright.
He was finally stopped by a doctor, that got him to calm down long enoug,h to tell him what was happening.
"I'm looking for my fiance Katriina Valo... she's pregnant with our child... she was due in just a few weeks." Ryan managed to get out on the second try.
"Alright... you stay here and I'll go and check to see if we have a patient here..."
"She's here! Please! I need to be there with her."
"Just calm down alright... we'll have you together just as soon as we can."
Ryan nodded, relucantly stopping his frantic search through the hospital. He instead started pacing the hallway, waiting to hear word back on his family.
By then he was joined by Bam, Ville, April and Phil. They were comforting him as best as they could, considering the circumstances.
The doctor finally came back, addressing Ryan.
"Well doctor?"
"She's here..."
****
Ryan breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Katri sitting on the side of the bed. "Katri!" He cried, running over to her, wrapping his arms around her to hug her tightly. "What happened... look at your face! Are you alright?"
Katri was just as overjoyed to see Ryan there, she quickly reached out for him wanting to keep him close, even when he was asking her all those questions. "I'm fine."
"What happened?"
"My ex.... the one I told you about, that gave me trouble right before I left Finland to come back here?"
Ryan nodded, "The one who cut your hair and destoryed your things?"
Katri nodded, "Timo... he found me here in America... and wanted to punish me for what he thought I did to him."
Ryan frowned, "Where is he? I'll kill the mother fucker for laying a hand on you."
Katri shook her head, "He's in police custody... this time I am going to file charges... even if it doesn't do a lot of good since he is not a United States citizen."
"But you are... and our baby is... that has to mean something?" Ryan asked.
Katri shrugged, "We'll see what happens."
"Is the baby alright?" Ryan asked, running his hands along the sides of her stomach.
Katri nodded, "Thank God."
"I still don't understand what happened."
"I walk by that skate park that Bam helped build every day before and after work. I usually stop to watch them for a little bit. Well some of them noticed Timo following me and kept an eye on me as I got into the parking lot."
Ryan's eyes and mouth went wide. "Are you saying?"
Katri nodded her head. "They came to my resuce when they saw Timo attack me... if they hadn't cared enough to check on me..." She trailed off, looking down as tears ran along her cheeks.
"I don't even want to think of what might have happened." Ryan whispered, pulling her as close as he could.
There was a knock before Bam slowly peeked his head in, smiling at her nervously, "Can we come in?"
"Of course." Katri said.
Bam hurried over to the bed, carrying a large boquet of flowers with a balloon attached to them. "Are you alright?"
"I'll live." Katri said.
"Thank goodness." Bam and Ville said.
"She's on bed rest for the remainder of her pregnancy.... but there was no damage done to her or the baby." The doctor later told them.
"Aside from my pride." Katri put in.
"I don't even know where to begin to tell you both how sorry I am." Bam said.
"Why are you sorry? If it wasn't for your skate park project..." Katri trailed off, still not wanting to finish that sentence.
Ryan quickly started comforting her. "She's right Bam... if anything we should be thanking you."
"But this whole mess is because of what Missy did." Bam said, looking like he was about to cry himself.
"You can't be sure of that love." Ville put in, rubbing Bam's back.
"Bam listen to me..." Katri said, reaching out to take Bam's hand. "Timo has been stalking me since we broke up nearly sixteen years ago. He doesn't need an excuse to torment me. He would have found me and come after me without seeing that video."
"That's assuming he even saw it." Ryan added.
Bam shook his head. "Then why do I still feel like shit?"
"Because you are a good man Bam..." Ville said as he wrapped his arms around the younger man.
"Believe me... no one here thinks you were the cause of any of this." Ryan said.
Bam brushed some tears away and nodded. "If you guys are sure..."
"We are."
****
"Alright you two... we need to be really quiet alright?" Bam asked, holding Esa's hand as they walked down the hallway.
"Why?" Esa asked, looking up at his father.
"Because babies don't like loud noises." Bam answered.
"Ohhh..."
"So you have to be quiet." Bam said as they reached Katri's new room.
Esa looked behind himself to Ville and Niklas, holding his finger to his lips like Bam had just done. "Shhh... be quiet."
Niklas looked up at Ville. "Shhh papa... be quiet."
Ville smiled at the little boy and nodded, "Gottcha."
They all walked into the room, Bam was immeidately hugged by Ryan, who was still crying. "Congratualtions Ry... and happy birthday" Bam said, letting him go so Ville could hug him.
"Thank you." Ryan said to both of them, quickly motioning them over to look at the baby. "It's a girl." He said as he carefully scooped the baby out of the hospital style crib, craddling her in his arms as he showed her off.
"Awww...she's beautiful." Bam said as he looked at the sleeping baby.
"She looks just like Katri." Ville commented, touching her cheek gently.
"I thought so too... though Katri doesn't believe me.... or at least she didn't before she passed out." Ryan said, smiling at his sleeping fiancee for a moment. "Her name is Elina."
"Awww what a beautiful name." Bam said, quickly leaning down to scoop Niklas up so he could look at the baby too. "Isn't she beautiful?"
Niklas nodded, "Pretty."
Katri opened her eyes and smiled when she noticed Esa staring at her. "Hi."
"Shhhh... baby needs quiet." Esa told her as he moved closer to the bed.
Katri chuckled, "I'll remember that."
"I'm sorry Katri..." Ville said, moving Esa away from her.
"It's alright." She sat up as best as she could, before reaching out to hug her brother. "What do you think of her?"
"Beautiful, just like her mother." Ville said, scooping Esa up, moving out of the way so Ryan could hand Katri the baby.
"I love you." Ryan said.
"I love you too." Katri said, adjusting a few pillows. "I had to get up anyways, she'll need to be fed soon." Katri said as she glanced at the clock.
"Breast feeding?" Ville asked as he put Esa down, who crawled across the bed and closer to Katri and the baby.
Katri nodded, "We decided it would be the best option."
"I tried to get Ville to breast feed the boys, but he just wasn't interested in it." Bam said with a slight shake of his head, that made everyone laugh.
"Baby..." Esa said as he gently touched Elina on her cheek.
"Be careful with her." Bam said.
"He's fine..." Katri said, moving a little so the twins could look at her.
Niklas was soon next to Esa, they were both watching the sleeping infant with a real sense of wonderment. "She's little."
"She is little." Katri said. "Her name is Elina."
"Why?" Niklas asked.
"Because we thought it was pretty." Katri explained.
"You use to be that little too." Bam said as he ran his hand over Esa's head.
"No way!" Esa said, which made the other people in the room laugh.
"Yes way... smaller actually. You and your brother was just little, itty, bitty, things when we brought you home." Bam said, scooping Esa up so he could kissing him and tickle him, making him laugh.
"Really papa?" Niklas asked as he looked to Ville.
"Yup..." Ville said as he scooped Niklas up. "Not so long ago, you were just little babies."
"I big boy!" Niklas said, holding his hands up.
Ville smiled at him, before hugging him, resting his cheek on his son's head. "That you are..."
"God... it doesn't feel like it was that long ago... but it is. In six months they'll be three." Bam said in a mild surprise for a moment.
"Don't remind me." Ville said, looking to Niklas. "Stop growing."
Niklas laughed, "No!"
Ville chuckled, "It was worth a shot."
They were soon joined by another familiar face, when Luka appeared in the doorway. "Katri!" My sister told me the good news." He said as she came in, kissing her on the cheek. "Congratulations." He looked to Ryan and extended his hand, "No hard feelings? I'm very happy for both of you."
"Thank you." Ryan said as he shook Luka's hand.
"I heard you found someone in your own life." Katri said.
Luka nodded, "I did... a wonderful woman, and speaking of wonderful women... who is this?"
"Our daughter Elina." Katri said.
Luka smiled, "Lovely."
"And you never really got a chance to meet them... but those are the twins I was carrying the last time we talked." Katri said as she indicated to Esa and Niklas.
"So many beautiful children.... you both must be very happy." Luka said to Bam and Ville.
"We are." Bam said, smiling at Ville. "They have brought so much love into our lives."
Luka nodded, "As do all children when given the chance."
"Is something wrong?" Katri asked.
"It's just... I see all these children in the orphanage where Elin works... and they all have these horrible stories. It just breaks my heart..."
Bam looked to Ville, whos eyes were shinning with a bit of saddness. He reached out and took Ville's hand in his own and gave it a gentle squeeze. When the other man looked at him, he offered him a small smile and whispered "I love you."
Ville offered Bam a small smile, "I love you too." He looked to Luka for a moment and then added, "Bam and I have been weighing the possibilities of adopting a child."
"You are? That's wonderful." Luka said with real sincerity.
"You don't mind that they will be living in a house with no mother present?" Bam asked, since that had been the source of their only real conflict.
Luka thought for a moment. "While I still do not fully agree with how you wish to live your life, one need only look at your children to see how well they are taken care of. I have heard from both Katri as well as my little sister, how well you take care of them. If there is a chance that you would share that with another child, that is struggling through so much pain and misery... then who am I to say its a bad thing?"
Ville nodded, patting Luka on the back. "I always knew you were a good man."
"I have to respect that." Bam said.
Katri smiled, "I'm so glad that you guys have been able to find some common ground."
Bam chuckled, "Yeah kids do that to you." He said, rubbing Niklas on the head, causing the little boy to laugh.
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Author: myforgottenpain
Rating: R for content
Pairing: Vam all the way!
Summary: When Bam and Ville finally are given a chance to be together, will they be able to make the life they always wanted?
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything connected to HIM, Ville Valo, or Bam Margera. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends. I, however, could not pass up a great idea for a fan fiction!
Warnings: Angsty in the beginning, but it will get better! I swear!
Authors Notes: I'm still pulling this story together, so hopefully it will work well with me posting it before its done. I've only rewritten this story like... eight times...
Ryan ran as hard as he could through the hospital. His heart was racing in his chest, crying without even realizing that his cheeks were stained with tears. The report had been so vague and was now fuzzy in his frantic mind. All he could think was that something had happened to Katri and she was now in the hosital. He prayed to whatever deity was out there, that she and the baby would be alright.
He was finally stopped by a doctor, that got him to calm down long enoug,h to tell him what was happening.
"I'm looking for my fiance Katriina Valo... she's pregnant with our child... she was due in just a few weeks." Ryan managed to get out on the second try.
"Alright... you stay here and I'll go and check to see if we have a patient here..."
"She's here! Please! I need to be there with her."
"Just calm down alright... we'll have you together just as soon as we can."
Ryan nodded, relucantly stopping his frantic search through the hospital. He instead started pacing the hallway, waiting to hear word back on his family.
By then he was joined by Bam, Ville, April and Phil. They were comforting him as best as they could, considering the circumstances.
The doctor finally came back, addressing Ryan.
"Well doctor?"
"She's here..."
****
Ryan breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Katri sitting on the side of the bed. "Katri!" He cried, running over to her, wrapping his arms around her to hug her tightly. "What happened... look at your face! Are you alright?"
Katri was just as overjoyed to see Ryan there, she quickly reached out for him wanting to keep him close, even when he was asking her all those questions. "I'm fine."
"What happened?"
"My ex.... the one I told you about, that gave me trouble right before I left Finland to come back here?"
Ryan nodded, "The one who cut your hair and destoryed your things?"
Katri nodded, "Timo... he found me here in America... and wanted to punish me for what he thought I did to him."
Ryan frowned, "Where is he? I'll kill the mother fucker for laying a hand on you."
Katri shook her head, "He's in police custody... this time I am going to file charges... even if it doesn't do a lot of good since he is not a United States citizen."
"But you are... and our baby is... that has to mean something?" Ryan asked.
Katri shrugged, "We'll see what happens."
"Is the baby alright?" Ryan asked, running his hands along the sides of her stomach.
Katri nodded, "Thank God."
"I still don't understand what happened."
"I walk by that skate park that Bam helped build every day before and after work. I usually stop to watch them for a little bit. Well some of them noticed Timo following me and kept an eye on me as I got into the parking lot."
Ryan's eyes and mouth went wide. "Are you saying?"
Katri nodded her head. "They came to my resuce when they saw Timo attack me... if they hadn't cared enough to check on me..." She trailed off, looking down as tears ran along her cheeks.
"I don't even want to think of what might have happened." Ryan whispered, pulling her as close as he could.
There was a knock before Bam slowly peeked his head in, smiling at her nervously, "Can we come in?"
"Of course." Katri said.
Bam hurried over to the bed, carrying a large boquet of flowers with a balloon attached to them. "Are you alright?"
"I'll live." Katri said.
"Thank goodness." Bam and Ville said.
"She's on bed rest for the remainder of her pregnancy.... but there was no damage done to her or the baby." The doctor later told them.
"Aside from my pride." Katri put in.
"I don't even know where to begin to tell you both how sorry I am." Bam said.
"Why are you sorry? If it wasn't for your skate park project..." Katri trailed off, still not wanting to finish that sentence.
Ryan quickly started comforting her. "She's right Bam... if anything we should be thanking you."
"But this whole mess is because of what Missy did." Bam said, looking like he was about to cry himself.
"You can't be sure of that love." Ville put in, rubbing Bam's back.
"Bam listen to me..." Katri said, reaching out to take Bam's hand. "Timo has been stalking me since we broke up nearly sixteen years ago. He doesn't need an excuse to torment me. He would have found me and come after me without seeing that video."
"That's assuming he even saw it." Ryan added.
Bam shook his head. "Then why do I still feel like shit?"
"Because you are a good man Bam..." Ville said as he wrapped his arms around the younger man.
"Believe me... no one here thinks you were the cause of any of this." Ryan said.
Bam brushed some tears away and nodded. "If you guys are sure..."
"We are."
****
"Alright you two... we need to be really quiet alright?" Bam asked, holding Esa's hand as they walked down the hallway.
"Why?" Esa asked, looking up at his father.
"Because babies don't like loud noises." Bam answered.
"Ohhh..."
"So you have to be quiet." Bam said as they reached Katri's new room.
Esa looked behind himself to Ville and Niklas, holding his finger to his lips like Bam had just done. "Shhh... be quiet."
Niklas looked up at Ville. "Shhh papa... be quiet."
Ville smiled at the little boy and nodded, "Gottcha."
They all walked into the room, Bam was immeidately hugged by Ryan, who was still crying. "Congratualtions Ry... and happy birthday" Bam said, letting him go so Ville could hug him.
"Thank you." Ryan said to both of them, quickly motioning them over to look at the baby. "It's a girl." He said as he carefully scooped the baby out of the hospital style crib, craddling her in his arms as he showed her off.
"Awww...she's beautiful." Bam said as he looked at the sleeping baby.
"She looks just like Katri." Ville commented, touching her cheek gently.
"I thought so too... though Katri doesn't believe me.... or at least she didn't before she passed out." Ryan said, smiling at his sleeping fiancee for a moment. "Her name is Elina."
"Awww what a beautiful name." Bam said, quickly leaning down to scoop Niklas up so he could look at the baby too. "Isn't she beautiful?"
Niklas nodded, "Pretty."
Katri opened her eyes and smiled when she noticed Esa staring at her. "Hi."
"Shhhh... baby needs quiet." Esa told her as he moved closer to the bed.
Katri chuckled, "I'll remember that."
"I'm sorry Katri..." Ville said, moving Esa away from her.
"It's alright." She sat up as best as she could, before reaching out to hug her brother. "What do you think of her?"
"Beautiful, just like her mother." Ville said, scooping Esa up, moving out of the way so Ryan could hand Katri the baby.
"I love you." Ryan said.
"I love you too." Katri said, adjusting a few pillows. "I had to get up anyways, she'll need to be fed soon." Katri said as she glanced at the clock.
"Breast feeding?" Ville asked as he put Esa down, who crawled across the bed and closer to Katri and the baby.
Katri nodded, "We decided it would be the best option."
"I tried to get Ville to breast feed the boys, but he just wasn't interested in it." Bam said with a slight shake of his head, that made everyone laugh.
"Baby..." Esa said as he gently touched Elina on her cheek.
"Be careful with her." Bam said.
"He's fine..." Katri said, moving a little so the twins could look at her.
Niklas was soon next to Esa, they were both watching the sleeping infant with a real sense of wonderment. "She's little."
"She is little." Katri said. "Her name is Elina."
"Why?" Niklas asked.
"Because we thought it was pretty." Katri explained.
"You use to be that little too." Bam said as he ran his hand over Esa's head.
"No way!" Esa said, which made the other people in the room laugh.
"Yes way... smaller actually. You and your brother was just little, itty, bitty, things when we brought you home." Bam said, scooping Esa up so he could kissing him and tickle him, making him laugh.
"Really papa?" Niklas asked as he looked to Ville.
"Yup..." Ville said as he scooped Niklas up. "Not so long ago, you were just little babies."
"I big boy!" Niklas said, holding his hands up.
Ville smiled at him, before hugging him, resting his cheek on his son's head. "That you are..."
"God... it doesn't feel like it was that long ago... but it is. In six months they'll be three." Bam said in a mild surprise for a moment.
"Don't remind me." Ville said, looking to Niklas. "Stop growing."
Niklas laughed, "No!"
Ville chuckled, "It was worth a shot."
They were soon joined by another familiar face, when Luka appeared in the doorway. "Katri!" My sister told me the good news." He said as she came in, kissing her on the cheek. "Congratulations." He looked to Ryan and extended his hand, "No hard feelings? I'm very happy for both of you."
"Thank you." Ryan said as he shook Luka's hand.
"I heard you found someone in your own life." Katri said.
Luka nodded, "I did... a wonderful woman, and speaking of wonderful women... who is this?"
"Our daughter Elina." Katri said.
Luka smiled, "Lovely."
"And you never really got a chance to meet them... but those are the twins I was carrying the last time we talked." Katri said as she indicated to Esa and Niklas.
"So many beautiful children.... you both must be very happy." Luka said to Bam and Ville.
"We are." Bam said, smiling at Ville. "They have brought so much love into our lives."
Luka nodded, "As do all children when given the chance."
"Is something wrong?" Katri asked.
"It's just... I see all these children in the orphanage where Elin works... and they all have these horrible stories. It just breaks my heart..."
Bam looked to Ville, whos eyes were shinning with a bit of saddness. He reached out and took Ville's hand in his own and gave it a gentle squeeze. When the other man looked at him, he offered him a small smile and whispered "I love you."
Ville offered Bam a small smile, "I love you too." He looked to Luka for a moment and then added, "Bam and I have been weighing the possibilities of adopting a child."
"You are? That's wonderful." Luka said with real sincerity.
"You don't mind that they will be living in a house with no mother present?" Bam asked, since that had been the source of their only real conflict.
Luka thought for a moment. "While I still do not fully agree with how you wish to live your life, one need only look at your children to see how well they are taken care of. I have heard from both Katri as well as my little sister, how well you take care of them. If there is a chance that you would share that with another child, that is struggling through so much pain and misery... then who am I to say its a bad thing?"
Ville nodded, patting Luka on the back. "I always knew you were a good man."
"I have to respect that." Bam said.
Katri smiled, "I'm so glad that you guys have been able to find some common ground."
Bam chuckled, "Yeah kids do that to you." He said, rubbing Niklas on the head, causing the little boy to laugh.
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