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Title: The Weakness In Me
Author: myforgottenpain
Pairing: Vam, Bam/Missy, Ville/Jonna
Rating: PG-17 for adult situations
Summary: Bam and Ville find themselves in a situation, where their relationship appears all but doomed to failure... can they find a way to make their "love" last? And more importantly... should it?
Disclaimer: I don't own anything connected to Ville Valo, or Bam Margera. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends.
Authors Notes: So, I've decided to try and post two stories at once. Tomorrow... more from my yummy man love story... for now, I hope you enjoy this! This is a mini story... 12 chapters not counting the prologue and epilogue.
This is it kiddies... I'm heading home for summer vacation. This maybe my last post for a few days, depends on how quickly I get the net on at home, so enjoy. Good luck and lots of love to my Willa! I'll miss you and all my friends on the board! I hope to be back super soon! ~Vammie Huggles~
OMG... two more chapters and the epilogue! Finally you will get to see why they finally broke up, and if their love will find a way through this!
"He can't mean it Missy..." Bam whispered, standing in their bedroom facing the one wall. "He can't really mean it."
"Maybe..." Missy said, creeping closer to Bam. "Maybe it’s for the better." She touched his hand, chewing on her lip anxiously. "Maybe it’s time to move on from that part of your life?"
"I don't want to let him go Missy." Bam whispered. "I lo..."
"Do you? Do you really love him?” Missy asked, drawing in a breath. "Or do you love a dream you use to have?"
Bam couldn't take his eyes from the wall, remembering what had been there at one time. "I... I don't know Missy. I don't know any more."
****
"I thought I told you I was done with you?" Jenn asked, leaning out of the door, looking Bam up and down. "I found a real man, remember? Your services are no longer required." She grinned as Bam pushed his way into the room.
"You've neglected to tell me something Jenn... something really important."
"Oh-what would that be?" Jenn asked, feigning concern.
"This!" He exclaimed, showing her the test results from the clinic. "That you had syphilis!"
"Oh didn't you get my letter?" She asked, turning to look over her letter holder. "Oh look... silly me. I was going to send that out to you, must have slipped my mind. You can have it anyways, think of it as a parting gift." She smiled, poking him in the chest with the letter.
"You knew! You knew all the time!" Bam yelled.
"Well... not the whole time obviously Bam, my ex boyfriend gave it to me." Jenn replied casually.
"And you neglected to tell me....?" Bam waited for her to fill in the blanks.
"It’s so hard to find the right Hallmark greeting card to tell someone you gave them a VD." Jenn said, shrugging her shoulders. "What’s the matter Bammie? Did you fuck me and then give it to you precious little Ville? Did he find out that once again, you were fucking around behind his back?" Jenn asked, laughing at the anger in Bam's face. "Look at you! Getting all bent out of shape. He should be proud of you Bam. You waited a whole month before running off on him this time!"
"Shut up Jenn!" Bam yelled, clenched fists at his sides.
"Or you'll do what exactly Bam? Run home? Tell your mommy that I was mean to you?" Jenn sighed, not wanting to completely sink to his level. "You have your answer, now go away Bam. Tell your friends what you have to tell them. Tell the media what you need to tell them to make it better for you. I don't care. I know already that I will be the villain. After all, you’re Bam fucking Margera. You wouldn't do anything wrong! Your fans know you, love you, and respect you. You would never hurt someone as badly as you hurt Ville Valo."
Bam turned and started for the door, to angry to respond to her.
"How much longer are you going to hurt him Bam?" Jenn asked, casually strolling to the doorway. Her words made him stop, and for a moment, she stared at his back. "He'll never stop going back to you. You know that, it’s why you are so free to do whatever the fuck you want to do. You know he can't let you go... not until his love for you kills him..."
****
"He forgave me that time..." Bam whispered, looking to Missy finally. "He has to forgive me this time too.... doesn’t he?"
Missy sighed and wrapped her arms around Bam. "I love you Bam. I will always love you. I'll love you enough for both of us."
"But what if that’s not enough?" Bam mumbled, looking down while leaning back against Missy. The door opened and shut downstairs and Bam instantly recognized the voice that called for him. Pulling away from Missy so hard that she staggered forward, he raced downstairs. "Ape!"
"Bam!" His mother was waiting at the bottom of the stairs, greeting her son in the same way she had since he was old enough to walk. "So tell me all about it!" April said, grinning broadly.
Upstairs Missy swore softly and came running down stairs, trying to signal for April to be quiet, but Bam was in the way.
"Tell you about what?" Bam asked, hugging Phil.
"Don't be bashful Bam... we want to hear everything." Phil said, taking April's jacket so he could hang it up.
"What?" Bam asked looking between his parents as Missy tried to pull him away.
"About the..." April started, looking to Missy finally.
"About the what?" Bam asked, looking to Missy. She froze in her spot, looking like she might cry. "What are they talking about Missy?"
"B.... we need to talk...." Missy said softly.
"About what?" Bam asked, pulling his arm away from Missy.
Missy tried to smile, pulling on the sleeve of her shirt. "About... about... our baby."
****
Bam closed the door and looked at Missy. “A baby? When were you going to tell me?”
“Soon of course Bam… I just found out recently. Aren’t you excited?” Missy asked, wringing her hands.
Shrugging his shoulders, Bam flopped down on the bed, head hung like a child being forced to except something that didn’t want too. “I suppose so… I mean… do I really have a choice?”
“It’s going to be wonderful! I promise you, you’ll be a great father.” Missy reassured him, sitting next to him. “Want to feel my belly?”
Unable to resist smiling Bam slide hand under Missy’s shirt and touched her belly. “I thought you were getting fatter.”
Missy giggled, kissing Bam on the cheek before leaning her head on his shoulder. “I love you Bam.” Her hand moved over his, closing her eyes in contentment.
“I’m not changing diapers.” Bam stated in return.
“Of course not… why would I make you do something like that?” Missy asked, running her hand through Bam’s hair.
Pleased with Missy’s response, Bam was feeling a bit more positive about the situation. His concern about Ville drifted into the back of his mind as he pictured himself teaching a miniature version of himself the proper way to get what you wanted from everyone around him.
Lying alone in his room, Ville gazed at the window. He was thinking about his life. More than ever he knew what he had been doing to Jonna was wrong. She did not deserve to be treated like this, anymore than Missy deserved to be used by Bam. Yet, the thought of being alone scared him. He had hoped that alcohol would numb the pain. He had hoped that being with Jonna would give him an excuse to stay away from Bam. Yet it was all in vain.
No matter what he did to himself, or the ones around him, he would never escape Bam Margera. He was hopelessly devoted to him, in a way that could only end in misery.
Even now, Ville whispered to himself, I love you more than life itself. He had neglected the cold in his body, letting it fester and mutate into a plague on his own soul; in the hopes he would end his own suffering.
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3480051.html
http://vammyluv.livejournal.com/5958.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3505082.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3507739.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3516646.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3521246.html
Author: myforgottenpain
Pairing: Vam, Bam/Missy, Ville/Jonna
Rating: PG-17 for adult situations
Summary: Bam and Ville find themselves in a situation, where their relationship appears all but doomed to failure... can they find a way to make their "love" last? And more importantly... should it?
Disclaimer: I don't own anything connected to Ville Valo, or Bam Margera. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends.
Authors Notes: So, I've decided to try and post two stories at once. Tomorrow... more from my yummy man love story... for now, I hope you enjoy this! This is a mini story... 12 chapters not counting the prologue and epilogue.
This is it kiddies... I'm heading home for summer vacation. This maybe my last post for a few days, depends on how quickly I get the net on at home, so enjoy. Good luck and lots of love to my Willa! I'll miss you and all my friends on the board! I hope to be back super soon! ~Vammie Huggles~
OMG... two more chapters and the epilogue! Finally you will get to see why they finally broke up, and if their love will find a way through this!
"He can't mean it Missy..." Bam whispered, standing in their bedroom facing the one wall. "He can't really mean it."
"Maybe..." Missy said, creeping closer to Bam. "Maybe it’s for the better." She touched his hand, chewing on her lip anxiously. "Maybe it’s time to move on from that part of your life?"
"I don't want to let him go Missy." Bam whispered. "I lo..."
"Do you? Do you really love him?” Missy asked, drawing in a breath. "Or do you love a dream you use to have?"
Bam couldn't take his eyes from the wall, remembering what had been there at one time. "I... I don't know Missy. I don't know any more."
****
"I thought I told you I was done with you?" Jenn asked, leaning out of the door, looking Bam up and down. "I found a real man, remember? Your services are no longer required." She grinned as Bam pushed his way into the room.
"You've neglected to tell me something Jenn... something really important."
"Oh-what would that be?" Jenn asked, feigning concern.
"This!" He exclaimed, showing her the test results from the clinic. "That you had syphilis!"
"Oh didn't you get my letter?" She asked, turning to look over her letter holder. "Oh look... silly me. I was going to send that out to you, must have slipped my mind. You can have it anyways, think of it as a parting gift." She smiled, poking him in the chest with the letter.
"You knew! You knew all the time!" Bam yelled.
"Well... not the whole time obviously Bam, my ex boyfriend gave it to me." Jenn replied casually.
"And you neglected to tell me....?" Bam waited for her to fill in the blanks.
"It’s so hard to find the right Hallmark greeting card to tell someone you gave them a VD." Jenn said, shrugging her shoulders. "What’s the matter Bammie? Did you fuck me and then give it to you precious little Ville? Did he find out that once again, you were fucking around behind his back?" Jenn asked, laughing at the anger in Bam's face. "Look at you! Getting all bent out of shape. He should be proud of you Bam. You waited a whole month before running off on him this time!"
"Shut up Jenn!" Bam yelled, clenched fists at his sides.
"Or you'll do what exactly Bam? Run home? Tell your mommy that I was mean to you?" Jenn sighed, not wanting to completely sink to his level. "You have your answer, now go away Bam. Tell your friends what you have to tell them. Tell the media what you need to tell them to make it better for you. I don't care. I know already that I will be the villain. After all, you’re Bam fucking Margera. You wouldn't do anything wrong! Your fans know you, love you, and respect you. You would never hurt someone as badly as you hurt Ville Valo."
Bam turned and started for the door, to angry to respond to her.
"How much longer are you going to hurt him Bam?" Jenn asked, casually strolling to the doorway. Her words made him stop, and for a moment, she stared at his back. "He'll never stop going back to you. You know that, it’s why you are so free to do whatever the fuck you want to do. You know he can't let you go... not until his love for you kills him..."
****
"He forgave me that time..." Bam whispered, looking to Missy finally. "He has to forgive me this time too.... doesn’t he?"
Missy sighed and wrapped her arms around Bam. "I love you Bam. I will always love you. I'll love you enough for both of us."
"But what if that’s not enough?" Bam mumbled, looking down while leaning back against Missy. The door opened and shut downstairs and Bam instantly recognized the voice that called for him. Pulling away from Missy so hard that she staggered forward, he raced downstairs. "Ape!"
"Bam!" His mother was waiting at the bottom of the stairs, greeting her son in the same way she had since he was old enough to walk. "So tell me all about it!" April said, grinning broadly.
Upstairs Missy swore softly and came running down stairs, trying to signal for April to be quiet, but Bam was in the way.
"Tell you about what?" Bam asked, hugging Phil.
"Don't be bashful Bam... we want to hear everything." Phil said, taking April's jacket so he could hang it up.
"What?" Bam asked looking between his parents as Missy tried to pull him away.
"About the..." April started, looking to Missy finally.
"About the what?" Bam asked, looking to Missy. She froze in her spot, looking like she might cry. "What are they talking about Missy?"
"B.... we need to talk...." Missy said softly.
"About what?" Bam asked, pulling his arm away from Missy.
Missy tried to smile, pulling on the sleeve of her shirt. "About... about... our baby."
****
Bam closed the door and looked at Missy. “A baby? When were you going to tell me?”
“Soon of course Bam… I just found out recently. Aren’t you excited?” Missy asked, wringing her hands.
Shrugging his shoulders, Bam flopped down on the bed, head hung like a child being forced to except something that didn’t want too. “I suppose so… I mean… do I really have a choice?”
“It’s going to be wonderful! I promise you, you’ll be a great father.” Missy reassured him, sitting next to him. “Want to feel my belly?”
Unable to resist smiling Bam slide hand under Missy’s shirt and touched her belly. “I thought you were getting fatter.”
Missy giggled, kissing Bam on the cheek before leaning her head on his shoulder. “I love you Bam.” Her hand moved over his, closing her eyes in contentment.
“I’m not changing diapers.” Bam stated in return.
“Of course not… why would I make you do something like that?” Missy asked, running her hand through Bam’s hair.
Pleased with Missy’s response, Bam was feeling a bit more positive about the situation. His concern about Ville drifted into the back of his mind as he pictured himself teaching a miniature version of himself the proper way to get what you wanted from everyone around him.
Lying alone in his room, Ville gazed at the window. He was thinking about his life. More than ever he knew what he had been doing to Jonna was wrong. She did not deserve to be treated like this, anymore than Missy deserved to be used by Bam. Yet, the thought of being alone scared him. He had hoped that alcohol would numb the pain. He had hoped that being with Jonna would give him an excuse to stay away from Bam. Yet it was all in vain.
No matter what he did to himself, or the ones around him, he would never escape Bam Margera. He was hopelessly devoted to him, in a way that could only end in misery.
Even now, Ville whispered to himself, I love you more than life itself. He had neglected the cold in his body, letting it fester and mutate into a plague on his own soul; in the hopes he would end his own suffering.
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3480051.html
http://vammyluv.livejournal.com/5958.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3505082.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3507739.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3516646.html
http://community.livejournal.com/__vam/3521246.html