The Memory Will Never Die - part4
Title: The Memory Will Never Die
Authors: Sk8ter_vam_girl and Amaroqwolf_Inc
Synopsis: Even the loss of something can’t change how one feels for the other.
Rating: Pg-13 to NC-17
A/N: This is a Joint fic, I’ll update as we edit. LoL. Read and enjoy.
Part 3
Part 2
Part 1
Part 4
~A few months later~
"Ville," Linde said walking over to the singer. "Yo, Earth to Ville" He waved a hand in front of Ville's face. "Anyone home?"
Without speaking a word, Ville only moved his eyes too look over at the blonde; showing that he was at least listening.
"You see this?" Linde said holding up a magazine.
"What about it?" Ville asked, finally deciding to speak to the blonde. He made it obvious that he was not really interested.
Linde sighed and flipped through the pages. "This," He said holding the article in front of his friend. On the page was several pictures of Bam and around it an article. The words at the top of the page read. Gone but not forgotten.
Linde blinked. "So you didn't read this article," He sighed. "I guess Bam had some accident at this event a few months ago," He shrugged. "He's not dead or anything...just..." He shrugged. "They didn't explain it very well in the article." He blinked. "Just though you should know."
Ville took the magazine with his hands and slowly stared at the pictures that it held. Not once since the day Bam left had Ville talked to the guys about what had happened between the two of them. This had been the first time he had seen the skater and it was through a magazine. He sighed softly. "What should I do?" he questioned softly, not realizing that he had asked it aloud instead of in his head like he thought.
Linde blinked. "Dude he was your friend and all," He shrugged slowly. "I mean what happened between you to is between you to," He paused. "But, maybe he needs you."
Ville looked up at Linde carefully. "If he needed me, he would have never left me." he mumbled letting the magazine drop to the floor as he found himself climbing to his feet. Once on his feet, he left the room the were within.
Linde sighed and followed him. "What do you mean?" he asked
"You won't understand." Ville mumbled, eyes focused on the hallway he was now walking down.
"Try me," Linde said. "Or do you not trust me?"
"It has nothing to do about trusting you. It's about me giving that bastard my heart, and he decided to walk all over it." Ville answered through gritted teeth.
Linde blinked and grabbed Ville's shoulder turning him to face him. "Do tell?"
Ville sighed in defeat. He then shrugged Linde's hands before leaning against one of the walls in the hallway. "That night when Bam came to see us perform. Yeah, well things happened." Ville explained as he crossed his arms over his chest.
"Things as in you both realized how much you both liked each other and decided to finally do something about it?" He asked with a slight grin
"That obvious?" Ville asked gently.
"Very," Linde said. "Look, they did some Interview with His family about a week ago, Ape's not doing good." He sighed. "I talked to Jess and he and Kelly there breaking up cause of whatever's wrong with Bam." He sighed.
"You're joking? Why?" Ville questioned, realizing that life wasn't hard on just him, but on Bam as well.
"Why are they breaking up? Why isn't Ape doing good?" He paused. "Bam was and is the center of that world over there. He's the life there, and with him...well gone for lack of a better word, things fall apart Ville."
Ville instantly knew what he had to do. "Will you cover for me if I go?"
Linde nodded. "Of course," He said with a light smile.
Without another Ville left down the hallway. He had gone back to his room. While he was packing things he might need, he was on the phone at the same time booking a flight. Once his things were together, he was on his way to America.
**The airport in Pennsylvania was crowded, and not many people had time to notice a foreign man at all.
This was one of the places he hated being at. The airport. So as quickly as he could, he gathered his belongs and exited to airport. Once he was outside, he was able to get a taxi. As he climbed into the car, he told the drive the address of where he needed to go. In all honesty, he was nervous as hell. It had been a while since he had last since this man, and what had caused the distance between the two wasn't pretty.
Phil was out in the yard on the riding mower when the taxi pulled up. He didn't notice them at all he just rode slowly up and down the hill
Ville felt his stomach knot as the taxi pulled up the driveway. Paying and thanking the driver, he grabbed his things before climbing out of the cab. Even though his stomach was in knots, a small smile played on his lips as he noticed Phil on the riding lawnmower.
Phil turned the mower around and started back up the hill when he noticed Ville. The mower slowed to a stop and the engine died. "Hello,"
"Good afternoon, sir." Ville replied with a gentle smile on his lips.
"How have you been Ville?" He asked. "Haven’t seen you for awhile."
Ville brought a free hand up to the back of his head and softly scratched at it. "I've been good. I had finished touring and now we gathering ideas on a new album, sir."
Phil nodded. "So, you here to see Bam?" he asked finally.,
"Yeah, I had just heard about the incident but other then that I'm clueless." Ville answered truthfully as he remembered not reading the magazine.
Phil nodded. "It wasn't pretty," He sighed softly looking almost lost. He sighed again and looked up at Ville. "It was a weird freak accident, he was doing one of his stunts and somehow he went to fast or to far, he went over the back...of the ramp."
Ville felt himself wince at the thought. "So is he inside?" he asked softly.
Phil nodded. "Yeah, he's inside...April won't let him go outside with out someone with him. I think its driving him crazy," He rubbed his neck. "I think I mean...I don't really know."
"Thanks." he spoke before he headed in the direction of the front door. Once reaching the door, he slowly opened it before stepping inside.
The house was dimly lit the sound of soft music playing from somewhere with in could be heard.
Upon hearing the music, he knew if he followed it he'd find the person he was looking for
The music led him slowly into the back room near the sliding glass doors. Sitting in a arm chair slouched down was Bam he looked bored out of his mind and was staring blankly at the wall
Seeing the brunette made him come to a stop. He was actually nervous. Taking a deep breath, he set his things on the ground. "Hey." he said softly.
The blue eyes were dull slowly flickered back into the present and looked at Ville. He stared at him, the eyes were here and now but the face remained slack and empty.
Ville was at a loss for words. He didn't know what to says to him. "How...how are you doing?" he asked carefully.
"He's having a good day," Someone said from behind him.
"Huh?" he questioned aloud as he turned around to face to person that the voice was coming from.
Jess stood there looking worn out, his blue eyes red from either liquor or lack of sleep. "I said, he's having a good day." He said slowly leaning in the doorframe. "Didn't expect to see you here." He shook his head. "His friends abandoned him right after the accident."
Ville couldn't believe Jess's words. Glancing over at Bam for a quick second, he looked back over at Jess. "Didn't except myself to come either." he mumbled softly. "Why would they leave him?" he questioned softly. "Aren't friends suppose to always be there for you?"
"Can't be here for someone who isn't here," Jess said softly he moved into the room and stood in front of Bam. "He's completely off his rocker now!" He said a hint of anger in his tone. "He fucks up his life and fucks everybody else around him as well."
Ville honestly didn't know what to say to that one. He felt bad that this had affected everyone besides Bam. "I'm sure that's not true."
Jess shrugged. "Ask him yourself," He said shoving his toe against Bam's foot. "He'll just ignore you if he doesn’t like what you saying," He paused. "Isn't that right bam!"
Bam's eyes flicked to Jess's face then went back to staring at the wall
Ville instantly felt anger rush through him at the way Jess was treating his own brother. "Could you let us be alone for a minute or two?" he questioned, holding his anger back.
Jess looked up slowly then shrugged. "whatever," He said and walked out.
Bam's eyes followed his brother silently then went to Ville's face questioningly.
Ville waited until Jess was out of the room before heading over towards Bam. Once he reached the younger man, he knelt down next to him and rested his chin on the armrest of the chair. "I've missed you." he spoke gently, hoping Bam wouldn't ignore him; considering what had happened last time they saw one another.
Bam's eyes stayed on Ville for several minutes then he huffed softly and blinked rapidly as if trying not to cry. He shifted into a more upright position and grunted softly then sat back his left hand which was in a brace of sorts began flittering around on the table for the remote to the radio.
Ville frowned slightly. "Please, love. Don't push me away." he begged softly.
Bam looked at him again and sighed softly finally managing to turn off the radio. He looked around the room and back at Ville, indeed there were tears in his eyes and they spilled over the unpainted rims of his eyes.
Ville carefully raised a hand to Bam's cheek and wiped away the tears that were falling freely. "Bam, I promised to never leave you." Ville started, reciting the promise he made when they had made love. "Please don't be the one to leave me."
Bam snuggled into the light touch gently he blinked and studied Ville again. He smiled softly but still not a word passed his lips
Ville didn't know what else to say. But when Bam smiled softly at him, he knew he had to say what his heart was telling him. "I love you." he whispered.
Bam smiled brighter and nodded more he leaned against Ville sighing contentedly.
Ville knew he wasn't going to get a word out of Bam, so he was going to get something else out of him. Leaning forward, Ville closed the gap before gently placing his lips over Bam's.
Bam took a deep breath then a soft sigh escaped him he gently kissed Ville back, his hand came up and he wrapped it in Ville's shirt
Feeling Bam's hand wrap itself within his shirt, he felt his body relax. He had slowly succeeded in regaining Bam's love back, something he had been needed since the skater left him that day. Being gentle on his actions, Ville deepen the kiss to be more passionate.
Bam squeaked and yanked back his hand still tangled in Ville's shirt he stared at Ville his brow furrowed his eyes dancing in confusion.
Ville slowly matched Bam's look of confusion as he tried to figure out what went wrong.
"Oh Ville," April said as she bustled in the room. "I didn't hear Bam's music, he gets in trouble if I don't keep an eye on him."
Bam blinked looking up at April but he didn't seem to recognize his mother. Bam looked back to Ville blinking slowly he looked at Ape silently then and blinked.
"Do you need anything Bam?" She asked coming over and trying to get him to sit up straighter. She seemed to be trying to keep a falsely cheerful look on her face as she fussed over her son. When she turned on the music again though he seemed to go blank and went back to watching the wall. She glanced at Ville. "If you want to talk I have some tea in the kitchen," She said heading for the door.
Ville, still slightly confused, watched Ape leave the room before bringing his gaze back to Bam. "Bam." he whispered softly. After a few seconds, he climbed into a standing position and slowly made his way to the kitchen. He really wanted to know what was going on if he couldn't get it out of Bam.
April looked up and smiled softly. "Hi, its good to see you." She said softly. "Tea?" She asked lifting the tea pit
"Please." he answered gently as he took a seat at the island. "I know, it has been awhile. How have you been...honestly?" he questioned as he studied her carefully.
She looked up at him smiling lightly then shook her head. "Not good Ville," She said pouring him a cup. "Its so...different now," She said.
"What exactly happened to him?" he asked as he stared at his cup.
She took a deep breath and slowly sat down wrapping her hands around the tea cup she looked up. "He was doing a shoot, you know skating for Element. He wanted to try some fancy trick, he was going to ride the small fence at the top of the ramp. You know the one that keeps them from going over," She paused and took a sip
"And?" That was the only word he could get out, not really wanting to think of the answer to it.
"Well, he started up, did three laps on the halfpipe was being really confident and such, he went up he made it onto the fence," She paused her hands shaking. "And then, well the fence gave out. He went down first hit the ground shoulder first lucky he didn't land on his head," She stopped. "Then came his skateboard and the fence." She shook her head. "One..one piece of the fence, it...struck him...."
Ville was to shocked for words, but he slowly reached out his hand and placed it over hers in a confident, comforting way.
She looked up and sighed smiling lightly. "The doctor's say he's fine...no brain damage, I guess what they describe it as is..like Amnesia...but..." She shook her head. "He can get so Violent, last week he broke his wrist jumping out the window upstairs," She shook her head. "And he...Oh Ville he doesn’t even know me."
"Ape, I'm so sorry this had to happen." Ville whispered as he removed his hand from hers. He then climbed out of his seat and stepped around the island. Before she could say or do another thing, he pulled her gently from her seat before wrapping his arms around her fragile body.
She blinked and hugged him back sobbing softly. "I don't know what to do, I really don't.'
"Just be patient with him, Ape. Eventually he'll come around." Ville replied softly as he rested his chin on top of her head.
She nodded slowly wiping her eyes. "Sorry, I shouldn't be burdening you with this."
Ville shook his head in slight protest. "It's not a burden, Ape. This is one of the reason why I'm here." he replied gently.
"Oh," She smiled. "Bam said you guys weren't friends anymore," She said. "I thought it was true...you know because you never called or anything anymore, and he got rid of all his him stuff."
Ville felt his mouth drop open, but quickly caught himself and closed it. So this was how Bam really felt about him, and here he was trying to fix things. "We had a disagreement. I thought that maybe I could fix things, but maybe it might be a bad idea now." he spoke softly as a sigh escaped his lips as well, while his eyes quickly found the tile floor interesting.
"No!" She said grabbing his arm. "He was so unhappy!" She said. "He just moped around all the time," She paused. "He was so unhappy with out you, I caught him one day, you know right before the Shoot, and he was in the car and your song came on the radio and he was just smiling. He needs you Ville!" She said. "Please don' go, he still has all the stuff, I had it put in storage...I couldn’t let him throw it away."
Not only did Bam might need him, Ville secretly needed him just as much. He then slumped his shoulders in defeat. "I'll stay, but with his state, I might now be able to do much."
"You being here will be a big help," She said smiling brightly. "Thank so much."
Honestly, Ville couldn't see how much of a help he could be when he couldn't even get a word out of Bam. Sure he got a kiss, but something happened and he had backed away. Turning his attention back to his cup of tea, he took the cup in his hand. "Thanks for the tea, Ape." he smiled before making his way out of the kitchen with his tea.
"Your welcome.." She smiled. "I'll make Dinner now," She said with a nod.
He made his way back to the living room. Seeing Bam still in his chair, he stepped around it and took a seat on the couch. Two could play the game of not talking to anyone.
Bam blinked and looked at him silently blinking slowly he furrowed his brow and shifted pulling himself into an upright position. He smiled at Ville waiting to see what the other man would do.
The only moving Ville did was when he brought his cup to his mouth to sip his tea. His gaze was still on Bam, but he did nothing more.
Bam furrowed his brow and grabbed up the remote to the Player in the corner. He studied the buttons for a minute then pushed one the song which had been light an classical changed to the opening notes of Wings of a butterfly. He smirked at Ville as if to say. "I know who you are,"
Ville heard the all too familiar tones of the song Bam put on. A smile crawled onto his lips, but he was going to wait till Bam decided to say the first word between the two of them. He did not want to feel like he was talking to a wall again, even though he knew Bam was listening to him.
Bam narrowed his eyes and studied him silently his lips moved slowly along with the words stumbling over them at points he seemed to be getting frustrated now. He grumbled softly and started fiddling with the brace on his wrist
Ville sighed softly as he shifted in his spot on the couch. "You do not have to say anything at this moment in time. Just being in the same room as you is good enough for me right now." he spoke carefully as he watched Bam fiddle with the brace.
Bam looked up his hand stilled on the brace he licked his lips his eyes rolling upwards slowly then fluttered back to study Ville again. "I can talk," He groused
"I know that. Remember, I know you better then you think." Ville replied as he sipped his tea again. "I just won't force you to talk when you don't want too." he added with a shrug of his shoulders as he set the cup on the table next to him.
Bam sighed. "They think, I can't" He continued his voice rough from disuse.
"Only because you are making them think that way." Ville explained softly, hoping not to upset the brunette.
Bam blinked. "They, don't g--g--give me...a ch--ch--hcance!" He forced out grimacing.
"Bam, don't force yourself to talk right now. You'll strain your vocal cords. Stick with simple, little phrases, love." Ville suggested kindly. He would know a few things about vocal cords, considering that he was a singer and have had a few vocal accidents of his own.
Bam nodded and sighed. "Who are they?" he asked simply.
"Who are who?" Ville questioned, slightly confused on what Bam meant.
"Them," He said waving his hand towards the kitchen.
"They are your family and friends, love." Ville answered while hiding his sadness. Ape was right, Bam had no clue. "Yet, you do remember me?" he asked, needing to know how much Bam remembered of him.
Bam nodded. "Family," He said slowly then looked at Ville. "Yeah, you sing." He paused. "And kissed me a lot,"
"Nothing before that?" Ville sighed as he ran a hand through his hair.
Bam nodded slowly. "Yes,"
"We were close once." Ville answered softly, not really sure of what else to say.
Bam nodded again. "Very close," He paused. "You were inside once,"
Ville instantly felt himself blush at Bam's words. "Yeah." he whispered.
Bam nodded slowly again. "We.." He shifted furrowing his brow. "We...had..." He reached up rubbing his head suddenly his hand shot down and grabbed the remote and chucked it at the floor
"Bam, are you alright?" Ville questioned quickly as he rushed to his side.
Bam shook his head hard Sniffing hard. "Head hurts,"
He knelt next to the chair as he watched him. "Want me to get you anything for it?" Ville asked kindly as he ran his fingers through Bam's curls.
Bam shivered and shrugged leaning into the gentle touch he closed his eyes.
"Just relax and I'll go get you something for your head." Ville suggested as he slowly removed his hand from Bam's curls.
Bam whimpered and reached up clinging to Ville's hand. "Don't go."
Ville quickly stopped once he felt Bam's hand on his own. "Are you sure?" Ville was confused. He did not know what to do. Last time he had seen this man, Bam wanted nothing to do with him and now he was in a weak state and begging for him to stay. This could really fuck up one's mind when they did not know how to react.
"I'm sorry," He said looking at him. "I didn't mean it, I really didn't."
"Mean what, love?" he asked kneeling back to so he could look up into Bam's blue eyes.
Bam looked at him he seemed to be struggling to hold onto something. "Telling you all those bad things, they weren't true! I love you! And I'm sor--so---sorry!" He stammered out.
Ville was literally taken back by Bam's words. Throughout everything he had said, those three words struck him the hardest. He wanted so badly to say them back in return, but it was still a tender subject to him. "Oh, Bam." he finally whispered out as he leaned forward more and carefully wrapped his arms around the younger man.
Bam huddled against him shivering softly. He sighed closing his eyes. "I’m s --s--s--s" He groaned gripping his head hard.
Ville began to slowly catch onto the fact that Bam's head only hurt when he was trying to make himself remember. "Shh. Bam's it's fine. Don't think about it right now. It's only hurting you." Ville whispered, still not letting go of him.
Bam sniffed hard and snuggled against Ville shaking slightly.
Ville remained silent, only continuing to hold onto him. "Everything will be okay." he found himself whispering.
Bam nodded slowly calming down. "I like your new songs," He whispered
Ville smiled a Bam's words as he pulled back slightly to look up at him again. "Thank you. That means a lot coming for you."
Bam nodded slowly smiling lightly rubbing his forehead slightly he looked around then looked at Ville. "I fell,"
"Pretty hard I heard." Ville spoke as he removed himself from Bam and just continued to knelt next to him.
He nodded slowly. "I keep falling," He mumbled
"Keep falling? What do you mean by that, love?" he asked, trying to understand what Bam had meant by his words.
Bam shrugged and looked down. "I don't know,"
"It's alright, love." Ville replied as he patted Bam's knee gently.
He smiled. "You love me?"
"Always." Ville smiled softly, but caringly.
He smiled nodding. "You going to stay for awhile?"
He nodded his head. "Only if you will allow it."
He nodded. "Yeah, I do,"
"Then I will." Ville replied as a yawn escaped his lips. His long flight was now starting to wear on him.
Bam blinked. "Your tired.
"A long flight." Ville replied as he ran a hand through his hair, pushing it out of his face.
Bam reached out and gently ran his finger's through Ville's hair. "Hungry?"
Ville closed his eyes at Bam's touch. "Slightly, yes."
He continued running his fingers through his hair and smiled softly. "Loves the funeral of hearts, and known for its cruelty," He whispered softly
Ville smiled slightly when Bam recited those words from one of his songs, but those words also held way to many meanings behind them as well. "I know." he whispered.
April came into the room and gasped softly. "Oh,"
Bam turned and jerked away from Ville quickly seemingly shutting down.
Ville mentally sighed but turned his attention towards Bam's mother. "Hey, Ape." he spoke, showing her that he was paying attention to her.
"He was...touching you!" She said softly. "He was talking!" She said..."what did he say?" She said coming closer. "Bammie!"
"Ape." Ville spoke gently as he climbed back onto his feet. He then meet her halfway. "That it easy, please." he begged softly.
She looked at him tears in her eyes. "Was he talking?" She whispered
"Let's talk about this in the kitchen, please." he suggested softly, giving her a pleading look.
She looked at him then nodded allowing herself to be led into the kitchen looking back at her son who seemingly had retreated within himself.
Reaching the entrance way that separated the living room from the rest of the house, he looked over his shoulder at the brunette one last time before leaving the room altogether. Finally he stepped into the kitchen, right after April. "Yes Ape, I got him to say a few things. But only a few things." Ville finally said, stretching the truth. He hated lying to this woman, but he didn't want her to crowd herself all over Bam. She'd just have to take it slow like he had.
"What did he say?" She said blinking.
Ville began to think for a second or two. "He asked who you guys were, then that his head hurt. That's all." he answered, his gaze focused on something other then April herself. He hated lying, but he really did not want to start on explaining the conversation he and Bam were having about that one night months ago.
April nodded and sighed. "So, he doesn’t know who I am yet?" She said shaking her head and sighed and looked down. "Well, Dinner's ready I'll go tell Phil," She said drying her hands on a towel. "Could you tell Jess?"
He nodded his head. "Sure." he answered with a half smile before heading in the direction of Jess's room.
"Thanks Ville," She said and headed outside.
Jess was in his room talking on the phone. "I know, the doctor wants me here don't ask me he's a fucking brain-dead idiot now! Why mom and Dad don't just commit him," He sighed. "I gotta go I'll call you tonight."
Ville found himself in front of Jess's door and slowly raised his hand to knock on it.
"Bye," Jess said hanging up. "Come in," he called
At hearing Jess's voice, he turned the door knob and stepped into the room. "Ape said to call you down for dinner." Ville spoke as he looked across the room at him.
Jess nodded. "Oh goody, another mindless dinner," He said grumpily getting to his feet.
Ville opened his mouth to say something in return but stopped himself. He was getting sick of everyone's moods within this house. He turned on his heels and followed Jess back to the kitchen.
April was in the living room trying to get Bam to his feet. "Jess Ville can you help me?" She said pleadingly.
"Here, you guys go to the kitchen. Let me help out with him." Ville suggested as he stepped closer to April.
April smiled at him and hugged him. "Thanks Ville your sweetheart," She said. "Jess go set the table." She said.
Jess grumbled something and vanished into the dining room, April to the kitchen
With a shake of his head, he stepped closer to the chair and looked down at the brunette. "Will you move for me at least?" he questioned carefully.
Bam looked up and nodded slowly pulling himself to his feet he stood there looking at Ville. "Happy?"
"Only if you're happy." he stated softly as he looked over at him.
Bam looked thoughtful. "You sit by me, He pinches me when he sits by me."
"Sure. I'll sit by you." Ville smiled lightly as he and Bam started their way towards the kitchen.
"Thanks," He said softly leaning against him lightly
Most of dinner had gone by pretty quietly. Either no one knew what to say or how to say it. Ville had mostly picked at his food, sure he was hungry but he was more tired then anything. Remaining silent, he continued to pick at his food; eating pieces of it here and there.
"So.." April said. "What have you been up to Ville?" She asked.
"Who cares," Jess growled. "We all know its his fault Bam cracked his skull!"
Ville let his fork drop to his plate as he looked over at Jess. "How the hell is this my fault?" he growled as he glared at the man.
"Jess!" April hissed.
"Oh come on! Bam goes off to Finland spends three days there comes back so pissed off he's ripping damn Poster's off the wall for days," He paused. "And then he's still pissed when he goes to the damn shoot and he tries something that EVERYONE told him not to do and fucks himself over,"
"You know what Jess, I'm not doing this." Ville started as he pushed on the table and scooted his chair backwards. "I'm going to the guest room to get some sleep." he added while at the same time climbing to his feet. He then turned towards April. "Dinner was great Ape." he added before anyone else could say something in return to his actions.
Bam suddenly reached over and punched Jess hard. "Asshole," He grumbled and got to his feet.
Ville was already halfway towards the guest room when he remembered that his things were still in the living room. Mentally cursing himself, he turned on his heels to head back towards the living room.
Jess glared at his brother and was about to go for him when Bam turned on his heel and hurried after Ville.
Reaching the living room, he found where he set his things and reached for them. He was still mumbling to himself when he turned back around.
Bam is standing there looking at him. "I don't blame you," He said softly. "I shouldn't of gone into it pissed off,"
Ville was truly shocked to see Bam standing before him. "You may not blame me, but I do blame myself." he spoke with a sigh at his own words.
"But you didn't tell me to do that...stunt," He supplied softly.
"But you were pissed off because of me." Ville stated softly as he looked away from him.
"I wasn't pissed off because of you," He said slowly.
"Please Bam. I really don't want to discuss this." Ville replied softly, trying to hide his sadness.
"Why?" He asked softly
"Because, right now all I want to do is lay down on a nice comfy bed." Ville answered, getting to the point that he was tired.
Bam blinked then nodded. "Okay, will go to sleep," He smiled softly
Without a word, Ville walked pass Bam in the direction of the guestroom. He only got a few feet when he stopped himself. "Join me?" he questioned as he turned his body slightly to look back at the brunette.
Bam smiled brilliantly and nodded. "Yes," He said hurrying to Ville. He reached down and took a bag from him. "Okay,"
Ville smiled as Bam took one of his bags. He then finally headed towards the bedroom. "Mine or yours?"
Bam shrugged. "I like yours better," He said.
"Alright." Finally the guest bedroom came into view and Ville quickly stepped inside the room. He waited till Bam was within the room before closing it. Setting the bags he had been holding on the floor, he stepped next to the bed and turned on the little lamp, giving the room a small amount of light.
Around the room was all the HIM memorabilia that bam had collected over the year's the few poster's that had survived his anger filled Rampage were tacked to the walls. The jukebox with all the HIM CD’s in it was against the wall as well. The huge metal Heartagram that had hung in the dining room was there as well. Bam smiled softly. "I remember this stuff,"
"Do you now?" Ville questioned as he looked around the room.
Bam nodded. "Mom saved it from me," He said softly he walked over to a poster. "I Used to..." He blushed bright red. "Nothing,"
Ville listened to Bam talk away about the things within the room. As he did so, he also took a seat on the edge of the bed. "Tell me please." he begged slightly.
Bam looked up still blushing. "I used to Jack off to this poster," He mumbled softly
"I feel honored." Ville replied with a smirk.
Bam blushed again sighing softly. "That’s good right?"
"Of course." Ville smiled as he kicked off his shoes. "Come. Lay on the bed." he suggested as he crawled backwards over towards the pillows, then laid his head on them.
Bam smiled and went to the bed and crawled in slowly curling up against Ville sighing softly. "Yer warm,"
Ville wrapped an arm around Bam's body, gently pulling him closer. "Gives you a better reason to cuddle against me." he smirked softly, followed by a yawn.
Bam giggled softly and snuggled closer. "Yep," he said smiling softy his eyelids fluttering sleepily.
"Sleep now." Ville whispered out as he felt sleep start to overwhelm his body as well.
Bam nodded and with a word yawned and his eyelids drifted shut his eyelashes brushing against Ville's arm as he fell asleep.
Ville soon followed suit, a slight smile upon his lips as he did so.
** Morning came, to find Bam had rolled about quite a bit in his blissful sleep, He was now sprawled half on Ville, his face pressed into Ville's neck. The sweatpants he'd been wearing were shoved down low, and his shirt was up under his armpits. He looked extremely comfortable none the less.
Ville groaned softly as he felt the sunlight shine down on his face. Refusing to wake up, he attempted to roll over instead but stopped when he found out that he couldn't move. Slowly opening his eyes, he was met with a bunch of brown curls. Brown curls? Ville was at a loss for a few seconds before he remembered falling asleep with Bam in his arms.
Bam mumbled something nonsense in his sleep and wiggled about groaning softly he nuzzled further into Ville's neck.
Ville enjoyed Bam cuddling against him, but he quickly frowned as he remembered what had happened last time he woke up with Bam in his arms.
Bam snorted in his sleep and wiggled again giggling softly.
Ville's frown was replaced with a smile as he continued to watch Bam sleep. As he watched the younger man, he finally noticed the state he was within. His smile turned into a smirk as he carefully removed Bam from his body. He then hovered over Bam's body before leaning down and placing gentle kisses on any exposing skin.
Bam groaned softly at the light kisses his eyes fluttered open and he moaned softly arching under the light kissed from Ville. He shivered and sighed softly. "Emmm, Willa," He whimpered.
Ville stopped at the sound of his nickname being used. He then looked up at him. "What did you call me?" he questioned softly, hoping he hadn't be hearing things.
Bam blinked and looked at him. "Willa?"
So he did remember more. He then leaned forward until their lips were only a few inches apart. "Can I have you?"
Bam looked up at him breathing heavily he nodded. "yes," He said softly.
At hearing Bam's answer, he slowly closed the gap between the two of them until their lips became one.
Bam groaned softly wrapping his arms around Ville holding his close. Clinging to him like a drowning man
Ville ran his tongue across Bam's lower lip, wanting more out of the kiss, while moaning deeply at the same time.
Bam opened his mouth pushing his tongue foreword asking for more begging for more he wrapped a leg around Ville's hip and slid a hand down Ville's back gripping the singer's ass and pulling him closer he arched up against him whimpering softly.
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Like? Love? Hate? More to come when we edit the rest that we have. This is a finished fic, so more updates hopefully soon! *HUGS* Until next time!
~Nikki
EDIT: I edited the previous chapter links, so they should work now *smiles*
Authors: Sk8ter_vam_girl and Amaroqwolf_Inc
Synopsis: Even the loss of something can’t change how one feels for the other.
Rating: Pg-13 to NC-17
A/N: This is a Joint fic, I’ll update as we edit. LoL. Read and enjoy.
Part 3
Part 2
Part 1
Part 4
~A few months later~
"Ville," Linde said walking over to the singer. "Yo, Earth to Ville" He waved a hand in front of Ville's face. "Anyone home?"
Without speaking a word, Ville only moved his eyes too look over at the blonde; showing that he was at least listening.
"You see this?" Linde said holding up a magazine.
"What about it?" Ville asked, finally deciding to speak to the blonde. He made it obvious that he was not really interested.
Linde sighed and flipped through the pages. "This," He said holding the article in front of his friend. On the page was several pictures of Bam and around it an article. The words at the top of the page read. Gone but not forgotten.
Linde blinked. "So you didn't read this article," He sighed. "I guess Bam had some accident at this event a few months ago," He shrugged. "He's not dead or anything...just..." He shrugged. "They didn't explain it very well in the article." He blinked. "Just though you should know."
Ville took the magazine with his hands and slowly stared at the pictures that it held. Not once since the day Bam left had Ville talked to the guys about what had happened between the two of them. This had been the first time he had seen the skater and it was through a magazine. He sighed softly. "What should I do?" he questioned softly, not realizing that he had asked it aloud instead of in his head like he thought.
Linde blinked. "Dude he was your friend and all," He shrugged slowly. "I mean what happened between you to is between you to," He paused. "But, maybe he needs you."
Ville looked up at Linde carefully. "If he needed me, he would have never left me." he mumbled letting the magazine drop to the floor as he found himself climbing to his feet. Once on his feet, he left the room the were within.
Linde sighed and followed him. "What do you mean?" he asked
"You won't understand." Ville mumbled, eyes focused on the hallway he was now walking down.
"Try me," Linde said. "Or do you not trust me?"
"It has nothing to do about trusting you. It's about me giving that bastard my heart, and he decided to walk all over it." Ville answered through gritted teeth.
Linde blinked and grabbed Ville's shoulder turning him to face him. "Do tell?"
Ville sighed in defeat. He then shrugged Linde's hands before leaning against one of the walls in the hallway. "That night when Bam came to see us perform. Yeah, well things happened." Ville explained as he crossed his arms over his chest.
"Things as in you both realized how much you both liked each other and decided to finally do something about it?" He asked with a slight grin
"That obvious?" Ville asked gently.
"Very," Linde said. "Look, they did some Interview with His family about a week ago, Ape's not doing good." He sighed. "I talked to Jess and he and Kelly there breaking up cause of whatever's wrong with Bam." He sighed.
"You're joking? Why?" Ville questioned, realizing that life wasn't hard on just him, but on Bam as well.
"Why are they breaking up? Why isn't Ape doing good?" He paused. "Bam was and is the center of that world over there. He's the life there, and with him...well gone for lack of a better word, things fall apart Ville."
Ville instantly knew what he had to do. "Will you cover for me if I go?"
Linde nodded. "Of course," He said with a light smile.
Without another Ville left down the hallway. He had gone back to his room. While he was packing things he might need, he was on the phone at the same time booking a flight. Once his things were together, he was on his way to America.
**The airport in Pennsylvania was crowded, and not many people had time to notice a foreign man at all.
This was one of the places he hated being at. The airport. So as quickly as he could, he gathered his belongs and exited to airport. Once he was outside, he was able to get a taxi. As he climbed into the car, he told the drive the address of where he needed to go. In all honesty, he was nervous as hell. It had been a while since he had last since this man, and what had caused the distance between the two wasn't pretty.
Phil was out in the yard on the riding mower when the taxi pulled up. He didn't notice them at all he just rode slowly up and down the hill
Ville felt his stomach knot as the taxi pulled up the driveway. Paying and thanking the driver, he grabbed his things before climbing out of the cab. Even though his stomach was in knots, a small smile played on his lips as he noticed Phil on the riding lawnmower.
Phil turned the mower around and started back up the hill when he noticed Ville. The mower slowed to a stop and the engine died. "Hello,"
"Good afternoon, sir." Ville replied with a gentle smile on his lips.
"How have you been Ville?" He asked. "Haven’t seen you for awhile."
Ville brought a free hand up to the back of his head and softly scratched at it. "I've been good. I had finished touring and now we gathering ideas on a new album, sir."
Phil nodded. "So, you here to see Bam?" he asked finally.,
"Yeah, I had just heard about the incident but other then that I'm clueless." Ville answered truthfully as he remembered not reading the magazine.
Phil nodded. "It wasn't pretty," He sighed softly looking almost lost. He sighed again and looked up at Ville. "It was a weird freak accident, he was doing one of his stunts and somehow he went to fast or to far, he went over the back...of the ramp."
Ville felt himself wince at the thought. "So is he inside?" he asked softly.
Phil nodded. "Yeah, he's inside...April won't let him go outside with out someone with him. I think its driving him crazy," He rubbed his neck. "I think I mean...I don't really know."
"Thanks." he spoke before he headed in the direction of the front door. Once reaching the door, he slowly opened it before stepping inside.
The house was dimly lit the sound of soft music playing from somewhere with in could be heard.
Upon hearing the music, he knew if he followed it he'd find the person he was looking for
The music led him slowly into the back room near the sliding glass doors. Sitting in a arm chair slouched down was Bam he looked bored out of his mind and was staring blankly at the wall
Seeing the brunette made him come to a stop. He was actually nervous. Taking a deep breath, he set his things on the ground. "Hey." he said softly.
The blue eyes were dull slowly flickered back into the present and looked at Ville. He stared at him, the eyes were here and now but the face remained slack and empty.
Ville was at a loss for words. He didn't know what to says to him. "How...how are you doing?" he asked carefully.
"He's having a good day," Someone said from behind him.
"Huh?" he questioned aloud as he turned around to face to person that the voice was coming from.
Jess stood there looking worn out, his blue eyes red from either liquor or lack of sleep. "I said, he's having a good day." He said slowly leaning in the doorframe. "Didn't expect to see you here." He shook his head. "His friends abandoned him right after the accident."
Ville couldn't believe Jess's words. Glancing over at Bam for a quick second, he looked back over at Jess. "Didn't except myself to come either." he mumbled softly. "Why would they leave him?" he questioned softly. "Aren't friends suppose to always be there for you?"
"Can't be here for someone who isn't here," Jess said softly he moved into the room and stood in front of Bam. "He's completely off his rocker now!" He said a hint of anger in his tone. "He fucks up his life and fucks everybody else around him as well."
Ville honestly didn't know what to say to that one. He felt bad that this had affected everyone besides Bam. "I'm sure that's not true."
Jess shrugged. "Ask him yourself," He said shoving his toe against Bam's foot. "He'll just ignore you if he doesn’t like what you saying," He paused. "Isn't that right bam!"
Bam's eyes flicked to Jess's face then went back to staring at the wall
Ville instantly felt anger rush through him at the way Jess was treating his own brother. "Could you let us be alone for a minute or two?" he questioned, holding his anger back.
Jess looked up slowly then shrugged. "whatever," He said and walked out.
Bam's eyes followed his brother silently then went to Ville's face questioningly.
Ville waited until Jess was out of the room before heading over towards Bam. Once he reached the younger man, he knelt down next to him and rested his chin on the armrest of the chair. "I've missed you." he spoke gently, hoping Bam wouldn't ignore him; considering what had happened last time they saw one another.
Bam's eyes stayed on Ville for several minutes then he huffed softly and blinked rapidly as if trying not to cry. He shifted into a more upright position and grunted softly then sat back his left hand which was in a brace of sorts began flittering around on the table for the remote to the radio.
Ville frowned slightly. "Please, love. Don't push me away." he begged softly.
Bam looked at him again and sighed softly finally managing to turn off the radio. He looked around the room and back at Ville, indeed there were tears in his eyes and they spilled over the unpainted rims of his eyes.
Ville carefully raised a hand to Bam's cheek and wiped away the tears that were falling freely. "Bam, I promised to never leave you." Ville started, reciting the promise he made when they had made love. "Please don't be the one to leave me."
Bam snuggled into the light touch gently he blinked and studied Ville again. He smiled softly but still not a word passed his lips
Ville didn't know what else to say. But when Bam smiled softly at him, he knew he had to say what his heart was telling him. "I love you." he whispered.
Bam smiled brighter and nodded more he leaned against Ville sighing contentedly.
Ville knew he wasn't going to get a word out of Bam, so he was going to get something else out of him. Leaning forward, Ville closed the gap before gently placing his lips over Bam's.
Bam took a deep breath then a soft sigh escaped him he gently kissed Ville back, his hand came up and he wrapped it in Ville's shirt
Feeling Bam's hand wrap itself within his shirt, he felt his body relax. He had slowly succeeded in regaining Bam's love back, something he had been needed since the skater left him that day. Being gentle on his actions, Ville deepen the kiss to be more passionate.
Bam squeaked and yanked back his hand still tangled in Ville's shirt he stared at Ville his brow furrowed his eyes dancing in confusion.
Ville slowly matched Bam's look of confusion as he tried to figure out what went wrong.
"Oh Ville," April said as she bustled in the room. "I didn't hear Bam's music, he gets in trouble if I don't keep an eye on him."
Bam blinked looking up at April but he didn't seem to recognize his mother. Bam looked back to Ville blinking slowly he looked at Ape silently then and blinked.
"Do you need anything Bam?" She asked coming over and trying to get him to sit up straighter. She seemed to be trying to keep a falsely cheerful look on her face as she fussed over her son. When she turned on the music again though he seemed to go blank and went back to watching the wall. She glanced at Ville. "If you want to talk I have some tea in the kitchen," She said heading for the door.
Ville, still slightly confused, watched Ape leave the room before bringing his gaze back to Bam. "Bam." he whispered softly. After a few seconds, he climbed into a standing position and slowly made his way to the kitchen. He really wanted to know what was going on if he couldn't get it out of Bam.
April looked up and smiled softly. "Hi, its good to see you." She said softly. "Tea?" She asked lifting the tea pit
"Please." he answered gently as he took a seat at the island. "I know, it has been awhile. How have you been...honestly?" he questioned as he studied her carefully.
She looked up at him smiling lightly then shook her head. "Not good Ville," She said pouring him a cup. "Its so...different now," She said.
"What exactly happened to him?" he asked as he stared at his cup.
She took a deep breath and slowly sat down wrapping her hands around the tea cup she looked up. "He was doing a shoot, you know skating for Element. He wanted to try some fancy trick, he was going to ride the small fence at the top of the ramp. You know the one that keeps them from going over," She paused and took a sip
"And?" That was the only word he could get out, not really wanting to think of the answer to it.
"Well, he started up, did three laps on the halfpipe was being really confident and such, he went up he made it onto the fence," She paused her hands shaking. "And then, well the fence gave out. He went down first hit the ground shoulder first lucky he didn't land on his head," She stopped. "Then came his skateboard and the fence." She shook her head. "One..one piece of the fence, it...struck him...."
Ville was to shocked for words, but he slowly reached out his hand and placed it over hers in a confident, comforting way.
She looked up and sighed smiling lightly. "The doctor's say he's fine...no brain damage, I guess what they describe it as is..like Amnesia...but..." She shook her head. "He can get so Violent, last week he broke his wrist jumping out the window upstairs," She shook her head. "And he...Oh Ville he doesn’t even know me."
"Ape, I'm so sorry this had to happen." Ville whispered as he removed his hand from hers. He then climbed out of his seat and stepped around the island. Before she could say or do another thing, he pulled her gently from her seat before wrapping his arms around her fragile body.
She blinked and hugged him back sobbing softly. "I don't know what to do, I really don't.'
"Just be patient with him, Ape. Eventually he'll come around." Ville replied softly as he rested his chin on top of her head.
She nodded slowly wiping her eyes. "Sorry, I shouldn't be burdening you with this."
Ville shook his head in slight protest. "It's not a burden, Ape. This is one of the reason why I'm here." he replied gently.
"Oh," She smiled. "Bam said you guys weren't friends anymore," She said. "I thought it was true...you know because you never called or anything anymore, and he got rid of all his him stuff."
Ville felt his mouth drop open, but quickly caught himself and closed it. So this was how Bam really felt about him, and here he was trying to fix things. "We had a disagreement. I thought that maybe I could fix things, but maybe it might be a bad idea now." he spoke softly as a sigh escaped his lips as well, while his eyes quickly found the tile floor interesting.
"No!" She said grabbing his arm. "He was so unhappy!" She said. "He just moped around all the time," She paused. "He was so unhappy with out you, I caught him one day, you know right before the Shoot, and he was in the car and your song came on the radio and he was just smiling. He needs you Ville!" She said. "Please don' go, he still has all the stuff, I had it put in storage...I couldn’t let him throw it away."
Not only did Bam might need him, Ville secretly needed him just as much. He then slumped his shoulders in defeat. "I'll stay, but with his state, I might now be able to do much."
"You being here will be a big help," She said smiling brightly. "Thank so much."
Honestly, Ville couldn't see how much of a help he could be when he couldn't even get a word out of Bam. Sure he got a kiss, but something happened and he had backed away. Turning his attention back to his cup of tea, he took the cup in his hand. "Thanks for the tea, Ape." he smiled before making his way out of the kitchen with his tea.
"Your welcome.." She smiled. "I'll make Dinner now," She said with a nod.
He made his way back to the living room. Seeing Bam still in his chair, he stepped around it and took a seat on the couch. Two could play the game of not talking to anyone.
Bam blinked and looked at him silently blinking slowly he furrowed his brow and shifted pulling himself into an upright position. He smiled at Ville waiting to see what the other man would do.
The only moving Ville did was when he brought his cup to his mouth to sip his tea. His gaze was still on Bam, but he did nothing more.
Bam furrowed his brow and grabbed up the remote to the Player in the corner. He studied the buttons for a minute then pushed one the song which had been light an classical changed to the opening notes of Wings of a butterfly. He smirked at Ville as if to say. "I know who you are,"
Ville heard the all too familiar tones of the song Bam put on. A smile crawled onto his lips, but he was going to wait till Bam decided to say the first word between the two of them. He did not want to feel like he was talking to a wall again, even though he knew Bam was listening to him.
Bam narrowed his eyes and studied him silently his lips moved slowly along with the words stumbling over them at points he seemed to be getting frustrated now. He grumbled softly and started fiddling with the brace on his wrist
Ville sighed softly as he shifted in his spot on the couch. "You do not have to say anything at this moment in time. Just being in the same room as you is good enough for me right now." he spoke carefully as he watched Bam fiddle with the brace.
Bam looked up his hand stilled on the brace he licked his lips his eyes rolling upwards slowly then fluttered back to study Ville again. "I can talk," He groused
"I know that. Remember, I know you better then you think." Ville replied as he sipped his tea again. "I just won't force you to talk when you don't want too." he added with a shrug of his shoulders as he set the cup on the table next to him.
Bam sighed. "They think, I can't" He continued his voice rough from disuse.
"Only because you are making them think that way." Ville explained softly, hoping not to upset the brunette.
Bam blinked. "They, don't g--g--give me...a ch--ch--hcance!" He forced out grimacing.
"Bam, don't force yourself to talk right now. You'll strain your vocal cords. Stick with simple, little phrases, love." Ville suggested kindly. He would know a few things about vocal cords, considering that he was a singer and have had a few vocal accidents of his own.
Bam nodded and sighed. "Who are they?" he asked simply.
"Who are who?" Ville questioned, slightly confused on what Bam meant.
"Them," He said waving his hand towards the kitchen.
"They are your family and friends, love." Ville answered while hiding his sadness. Ape was right, Bam had no clue. "Yet, you do remember me?" he asked, needing to know how much Bam remembered of him.
Bam nodded. "Family," He said slowly then looked at Ville. "Yeah, you sing." He paused. "And kissed me a lot,"
"Nothing before that?" Ville sighed as he ran a hand through his hair.
Bam nodded slowly. "Yes,"
"We were close once." Ville answered softly, not really sure of what else to say.
Bam nodded again. "Very close," He paused. "You were inside once,"
Ville instantly felt himself blush at Bam's words. "Yeah." he whispered.
Bam nodded slowly again. "We.." He shifted furrowing his brow. "We...had..." He reached up rubbing his head suddenly his hand shot down and grabbed the remote and chucked it at the floor
"Bam, are you alright?" Ville questioned quickly as he rushed to his side.
Bam shook his head hard Sniffing hard. "Head hurts,"
He knelt next to the chair as he watched him. "Want me to get you anything for it?" Ville asked kindly as he ran his fingers through Bam's curls.
Bam shivered and shrugged leaning into the gentle touch he closed his eyes.
"Just relax and I'll go get you something for your head." Ville suggested as he slowly removed his hand from Bam's curls.
Bam whimpered and reached up clinging to Ville's hand. "Don't go."
Ville quickly stopped once he felt Bam's hand on his own. "Are you sure?" Ville was confused. He did not know what to do. Last time he had seen this man, Bam wanted nothing to do with him and now he was in a weak state and begging for him to stay. This could really fuck up one's mind when they did not know how to react.
"I'm sorry," He said looking at him. "I didn't mean it, I really didn't."
"Mean what, love?" he asked kneeling back to so he could look up into Bam's blue eyes.
Bam looked at him he seemed to be struggling to hold onto something. "Telling you all those bad things, they weren't true! I love you! And I'm sor--so---sorry!" He stammered out.
Ville was literally taken back by Bam's words. Throughout everything he had said, those three words struck him the hardest. He wanted so badly to say them back in return, but it was still a tender subject to him. "Oh, Bam." he finally whispered out as he leaned forward more and carefully wrapped his arms around the younger man.
Bam huddled against him shivering softly. He sighed closing his eyes. "I’m s --s--s--s" He groaned gripping his head hard.
Ville began to slowly catch onto the fact that Bam's head only hurt when he was trying to make himself remember. "Shh. Bam's it's fine. Don't think about it right now. It's only hurting you." Ville whispered, still not letting go of him.
Bam sniffed hard and snuggled against Ville shaking slightly.
Ville remained silent, only continuing to hold onto him. "Everything will be okay." he found himself whispering.
Bam nodded slowly calming down. "I like your new songs," He whispered
Ville smiled a Bam's words as he pulled back slightly to look up at him again. "Thank you. That means a lot coming for you."
Bam nodded slowly smiling lightly rubbing his forehead slightly he looked around then looked at Ville. "I fell,"
"Pretty hard I heard." Ville spoke as he removed himself from Bam and just continued to knelt next to him.
He nodded slowly. "I keep falling," He mumbled
"Keep falling? What do you mean by that, love?" he asked, trying to understand what Bam had meant by his words.
Bam shrugged and looked down. "I don't know,"
"It's alright, love." Ville replied as he patted Bam's knee gently.
He smiled. "You love me?"
"Always." Ville smiled softly, but caringly.
He smiled nodding. "You going to stay for awhile?"
He nodded his head. "Only if you will allow it."
He nodded. "Yeah, I do,"
"Then I will." Ville replied as a yawn escaped his lips. His long flight was now starting to wear on him.
Bam blinked. "Your tired.
"A long flight." Ville replied as he ran a hand through his hair, pushing it out of his face.
Bam reached out and gently ran his finger's through Ville's hair. "Hungry?"
Ville closed his eyes at Bam's touch. "Slightly, yes."
He continued running his fingers through his hair and smiled softly. "Loves the funeral of hearts, and known for its cruelty," He whispered softly
Ville smiled slightly when Bam recited those words from one of his songs, but those words also held way to many meanings behind them as well. "I know." he whispered.
April came into the room and gasped softly. "Oh,"
Bam turned and jerked away from Ville quickly seemingly shutting down.
Ville mentally sighed but turned his attention towards Bam's mother. "Hey, Ape." he spoke, showing her that he was paying attention to her.
"He was...touching you!" She said softly. "He was talking!" She said..."what did he say?" She said coming closer. "Bammie!"
"Ape." Ville spoke gently as he climbed back onto his feet. He then meet her halfway. "That it easy, please." he begged softly.
She looked at him tears in her eyes. "Was he talking?" She whispered
"Let's talk about this in the kitchen, please." he suggested softly, giving her a pleading look.
She looked at him then nodded allowing herself to be led into the kitchen looking back at her son who seemingly had retreated within himself.
Reaching the entrance way that separated the living room from the rest of the house, he looked over his shoulder at the brunette one last time before leaving the room altogether. Finally he stepped into the kitchen, right after April. "Yes Ape, I got him to say a few things. But only a few things." Ville finally said, stretching the truth. He hated lying to this woman, but he didn't want her to crowd herself all over Bam. She'd just have to take it slow like he had.
"What did he say?" She said blinking.
Ville began to think for a second or two. "He asked who you guys were, then that his head hurt. That's all." he answered, his gaze focused on something other then April herself. He hated lying, but he really did not want to start on explaining the conversation he and Bam were having about that one night months ago.
April nodded and sighed. "So, he doesn’t know who I am yet?" She said shaking her head and sighed and looked down. "Well, Dinner's ready I'll go tell Phil," She said drying her hands on a towel. "Could you tell Jess?"
He nodded his head. "Sure." he answered with a half smile before heading in the direction of Jess's room.
"Thanks Ville," She said and headed outside.
Jess was in his room talking on the phone. "I know, the doctor wants me here don't ask me he's a fucking brain-dead idiot now! Why mom and Dad don't just commit him," He sighed. "I gotta go I'll call you tonight."
Ville found himself in front of Jess's door and slowly raised his hand to knock on it.
"Bye," Jess said hanging up. "Come in," he called
At hearing Jess's voice, he turned the door knob and stepped into the room. "Ape said to call you down for dinner." Ville spoke as he looked across the room at him.
Jess nodded. "Oh goody, another mindless dinner," He said grumpily getting to his feet.
Ville opened his mouth to say something in return but stopped himself. He was getting sick of everyone's moods within this house. He turned on his heels and followed Jess back to the kitchen.
April was in the living room trying to get Bam to his feet. "Jess Ville can you help me?" She said pleadingly.
"Here, you guys go to the kitchen. Let me help out with him." Ville suggested as he stepped closer to April.
April smiled at him and hugged him. "Thanks Ville your sweetheart," She said. "Jess go set the table." She said.
Jess grumbled something and vanished into the dining room, April to the kitchen
With a shake of his head, he stepped closer to the chair and looked down at the brunette. "Will you move for me at least?" he questioned carefully.
Bam looked up and nodded slowly pulling himself to his feet he stood there looking at Ville. "Happy?"
"Only if you're happy." he stated softly as he looked over at him.
Bam looked thoughtful. "You sit by me, He pinches me when he sits by me."
"Sure. I'll sit by you." Ville smiled lightly as he and Bam started their way towards the kitchen.
"Thanks," He said softly leaning against him lightly
Most of dinner had gone by pretty quietly. Either no one knew what to say or how to say it. Ville had mostly picked at his food, sure he was hungry but he was more tired then anything. Remaining silent, he continued to pick at his food; eating pieces of it here and there.
"So.." April said. "What have you been up to Ville?" She asked.
"Who cares," Jess growled. "We all know its his fault Bam cracked his skull!"
Ville let his fork drop to his plate as he looked over at Jess. "How the hell is this my fault?" he growled as he glared at the man.
"Jess!" April hissed.
"Oh come on! Bam goes off to Finland spends three days there comes back so pissed off he's ripping damn Poster's off the wall for days," He paused. "And then he's still pissed when he goes to the damn shoot and he tries something that EVERYONE told him not to do and fucks himself over,"
"You know what Jess, I'm not doing this." Ville started as he pushed on the table and scooted his chair backwards. "I'm going to the guest room to get some sleep." he added while at the same time climbing to his feet. He then turned towards April. "Dinner was great Ape." he added before anyone else could say something in return to his actions.
Bam suddenly reached over and punched Jess hard. "Asshole," He grumbled and got to his feet.
Ville was already halfway towards the guest room when he remembered that his things were still in the living room. Mentally cursing himself, he turned on his heels to head back towards the living room.
Jess glared at his brother and was about to go for him when Bam turned on his heel and hurried after Ville.
Reaching the living room, he found where he set his things and reached for them. He was still mumbling to himself when he turned back around.
Bam is standing there looking at him. "I don't blame you," He said softly. "I shouldn't of gone into it pissed off,"
Ville was truly shocked to see Bam standing before him. "You may not blame me, but I do blame myself." he spoke with a sigh at his own words.
"But you didn't tell me to do that...stunt," He supplied softly.
"But you were pissed off because of me." Ville stated softly as he looked away from him.
"I wasn't pissed off because of you," He said slowly.
"Please Bam. I really don't want to discuss this." Ville replied softly, trying to hide his sadness.
"Why?" He asked softly
"Because, right now all I want to do is lay down on a nice comfy bed." Ville answered, getting to the point that he was tired.
Bam blinked then nodded. "Okay, will go to sleep," He smiled softly
Without a word, Ville walked pass Bam in the direction of the guestroom. He only got a few feet when he stopped himself. "Join me?" he questioned as he turned his body slightly to look back at the brunette.
Bam smiled brilliantly and nodded. "Yes," He said hurrying to Ville. He reached down and took a bag from him. "Okay,"
Ville smiled as Bam took one of his bags. He then finally headed towards the bedroom. "Mine or yours?"
Bam shrugged. "I like yours better," He said.
"Alright." Finally the guest bedroom came into view and Ville quickly stepped inside the room. He waited till Bam was within the room before closing it. Setting the bags he had been holding on the floor, he stepped next to the bed and turned on the little lamp, giving the room a small amount of light.
Around the room was all the HIM memorabilia that bam had collected over the year's the few poster's that had survived his anger filled Rampage were tacked to the walls. The jukebox with all the HIM CD’s in it was against the wall as well. The huge metal Heartagram that had hung in the dining room was there as well. Bam smiled softly. "I remember this stuff,"
"Do you now?" Ville questioned as he looked around the room.
Bam nodded. "Mom saved it from me," He said softly he walked over to a poster. "I Used to..." He blushed bright red. "Nothing,"
Ville listened to Bam talk away about the things within the room. As he did so, he also took a seat on the edge of the bed. "Tell me please." he begged slightly.
Bam looked up still blushing. "I used to Jack off to this poster," He mumbled softly
"I feel honored." Ville replied with a smirk.
Bam blushed again sighing softly. "That’s good right?"
"Of course." Ville smiled as he kicked off his shoes. "Come. Lay on the bed." he suggested as he crawled backwards over towards the pillows, then laid his head on them.
Bam smiled and went to the bed and crawled in slowly curling up against Ville sighing softly. "Yer warm,"
Ville wrapped an arm around Bam's body, gently pulling him closer. "Gives you a better reason to cuddle against me." he smirked softly, followed by a yawn.
Bam giggled softly and snuggled closer. "Yep," he said smiling softy his eyelids fluttering sleepily.
"Sleep now." Ville whispered out as he felt sleep start to overwhelm his body as well.
Bam nodded and with a word yawned and his eyelids drifted shut his eyelashes brushing against Ville's arm as he fell asleep.
Ville soon followed suit, a slight smile upon his lips as he did so.
** Morning came, to find Bam had rolled about quite a bit in his blissful sleep, He was now sprawled half on Ville, his face pressed into Ville's neck. The sweatpants he'd been wearing were shoved down low, and his shirt was up under his armpits. He looked extremely comfortable none the less.
Ville groaned softly as he felt the sunlight shine down on his face. Refusing to wake up, he attempted to roll over instead but stopped when he found out that he couldn't move. Slowly opening his eyes, he was met with a bunch of brown curls. Brown curls? Ville was at a loss for a few seconds before he remembered falling asleep with Bam in his arms.
Bam mumbled something nonsense in his sleep and wiggled about groaning softly he nuzzled further into Ville's neck.
Ville enjoyed Bam cuddling against him, but he quickly frowned as he remembered what had happened last time he woke up with Bam in his arms.
Bam snorted in his sleep and wiggled again giggling softly.
Ville's frown was replaced with a smile as he continued to watch Bam sleep. As he watched the younger man, he finally noticed the state he was within. His smile turned into a smirk as he carefully removed Bam from his body. He then hovered over Bam's body before leaning down and placing gentle kisses on any exposing skin.
Bam groaned softly at the light kisses his eyes fluttered open and he moaned softly arching under the light kissed from Ville. He shivered and sighed softly. "Emmm, Willa," He whimpered.
Ville stopped at the sound of his nickname being used. He then looked up at him. "What did you call me?" he questioned softly, hoping he hadn't be hearing things.
Bam blinked and looked at him. "Willa?"
So he did remember more. He then leaned forward until their lips were only a few inches apart. "Can I have you?"
Bam looked up at him breathing heavily he nodded. "yes," He said softly.
At hearing Bam's answer, he slowly closed the gap between the two of them until their lips became one.
Bam groaned softly wrapping his arms around Ville holding his close. Clinging to him like a drowning man
Ville ran his tongue across Bam's lower lip, wanting more out of the kiss, while moaning deeply at the same time.
Bam opened his mouth pushing his tongue foreword asking for more begging for more he wrapped a leg around Ville's hip and slid a hand down Ville's back gripping the singer's ass and pulling him closer he arched up against him whimpering softly.
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~Nikki
EDIT: I edited the previous chapter links, so they should work now *smiles*