I'm never going to be good enough for you, am I? I'm never going to be your dream girl. You're my dream guy. Everything that I want: smart, handsome, funny, talented, can talk to me for hours, loves me more than life itself, is amazing in every aspect. So, why do I hurt you? And why can't I be good enough for you? Why am I so sure that I'm ( Read more... )

It's really hard to look at myself and think, "wow, I'm a bad person." But, sometimes, in order to change, you need to look at yourself and realize how flawed you really are. I seem to bend the truth, a lot. I guess it's not necessarily "lying" but it's pretty bad. The truth seems easy compared to what I try and avoid saying. I also realized ( Read more... )

I didn't feel like putting that icon thing on my myspace. I thought it was cool. Because I loved the notebook and that's how I feel about my first love. And also, Stewie....Yeah gotta love it.

Trying to fall asleep is torture when you're signed on. Knowing you're online tempts me to just sit here and stare at your screen name, willing it to IM me, but that never works and never will and my eyes slowly close. There's so much i want to say but I'm so afraid to approach you. This "space" is killing me and I hope to God you feel the same. ( Read more... )

Today actually wasn't as bad as I thought it would be ( Read more... )

Yeah. It's my birthday. But it sure doesn't feel like it. I know that this birthday is going to go down as one of the worst. 15 never sounded so sucky. But it's a chance to wish for something that I really want. So happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday dear kristie, happy birthday to me. :-/

Well, my livejournal is making a comeback. I need somewhere to write down all this and feel like people are reading ( Read more... )

I'm sittin' here all by myself ( Read more... )

I just deleted my entire journal. So that means all the entries from July 6 till now are gone, except for the first two. I looked at this journal for the first time in months and realized that I've grown up since I last updated and didn't feel like looking back on the childish person I was. Also, it surfaces memories that I just don't want to ( Read more... )