i'm fucking sick and tired of my parents. they fucking force food down my throat. i refused to eat just before, and they fucking told me that if i didn't eat, i wouldn't be allowed to go out. and i don't want to sit on my ass at home, so i ate like 2 peices of fucking hamburger and then i get screamed at because "that's not enough." fuck you fuck ( Read more... )

i have finally decided to just let go of pretty much everything right now. i am going to live my life, i'm not going to regret anything that has happened in the past year, and i'm not going to look back upon it. the memories will always be in my heart, and so will he. but i just want him to be happy, so as long as he's okay, then so am i. we'll ( Read more... )

i feel so fucking sick. i feel weak to the max, my stomach is killing me from the cramps mostly, i have this huge headache that won't go away. i always have a headache, no matter what, & i don't know why. like i can't recall the last time my head WASN'T hurting. i can barely speak, like my throat is so bad. i'm so depressed right now i can't even ( Read more... )

so things have been weird lately. like everytime i eat.. even if it's just something little, i feel completely sick to my stomach & end up throwing it up. i can't help it. & my throat has been KILLING me. like i can barely speak. it must be because of the whole puking thing, because i've just been like sick randomly. but what's pissing me off, is ( Read more... )

wow. i'm so god damn tired. this weekend has just gotten me completely drained. like today in school, i could barely stand. i feel fucking delerious. it really sucks. & today i was going to go to the damn gym & maybe run a few miles, but my entire body is sore. all i want to do is lay down & sleep for hours. & i don't even want to eat. i hate food ( Read more... )

so i broke up with my boyfriend a couple of days ago. it really isn't all that bad. yeah, of course i cried for like the first two days, but i haven't since. this weekend has been really good. he didn't go to school on friday, so i didn't see him or speak to him that entire day. it's hard to explain though, like we've always been close. so we still ( Read more... )

i just really fucking hate myself. my fast is still going well, but yet i'm still fat. i always fucking feel fat. i hate not being able to get food off of my mind. i sware to god it's all i think about 24/7. why am i like this? why couldn't god give me the perfect body? why can't i be pretty like everybody else in the fucking world? i just don't ( Read more... )

hey everyone ♥

my fast is going pretty well.
i'm really really happy about that.
i think i'm going to the gym tomorrow,
i really need to lose more.
summer is coming. =x

i partied on friday.
i didn't eat all day, so i got drunk fast.
it was a really sick night.
but i had the worst hangover on saturday.
it sucked, but whatev.

( pictures of course )

hey loves ( Read more... )

okay so i got my period. everything's fine, i think. but yeah, everything hasn't been too great for me lately. i hate my friends. my boyfriend is a shady asshole. my life just pisses me off. it's just bad. i'm not gonna go into detail, but whatever. no one cares so just fuck everyone.

but anyway, good news is that my eating habits have been pretty ( Read more... )