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[__pixie_girl__]

im so glad its friday. i cant wait for this weekend its gonna be so much fun. i really dont want to have to quit my job but i have to...dont feel like explaining. well my morning started off kinda bad. i missed laurens call and she needed me. i feel really bad i didnt hear my phone ring. i miss her so much...she comes home in exactly a week!!! i

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[ryanrivera0219]

how did it make you think of marcus? did you by chance....think of me? no probably not. but thats ok. well sounds like everything over there is eventful. im glad that you are having a blast with search! well, talk to you later.

[__pixie_girl__]

it made me think of marcus bc we were talkin about our families and times when we have needed our families there for us. so thats how i thought of him...no i didnt im sorry....but ill be sure to next time!! lol. we need to hang out so give me a call some time.

[cherry_girl03]

Im sry that you can not think of anything to get me.. and im sry that we had a fight today.. i cant stand us being away bc all we do is fight bc we miss each othere and thats the only thing to do.. Im sry if i make you feel like you cant talk to me about brian.. its kinda like when you liked ryan.. its just going to take some getting use to .. i love ya and im always here for you no matter what and again im sry

Love and miss
Lauren

Ill be home in like 5 days!!

[__pixie_girl__]

no its not the only reason we fight its bc of bryan. and no lauren it not kinda like the whole ryan thing...you actaully had feelings for ryan....so its similiar but still very different...i just dont understand y you just cant be happy for me. i couldnt say this the other nigt bc i didnt want to cry...you are the one who put me through one of the worst times in my life with allowing me to date kris...you sit here and tell me that its my life and you have to let me make my own descions and choices but u set me up with kris knowing he would hurt me....how is that letting me live my life with me making the choices and mistakes...how is it your place to decide when i should go through or experience something....and how could you as my best friend knowingly set me up to get hurt....i would never do that to you...EVER!!...all of that was bc of you...so i cant see why you wont let me be happy after it was you who partially caused all that pain!!!!! im

[__pixie_girl__]

not sure what else to say...all of that has been going through my head. i just done understand thats all...i cried so much last night to justin and bryan and all i could say is i dont understand why doesnt she want me to be happy? and no lauren its not that i dont feel like i can turn to talk to you about bryan its i know i cant turn to you talk about him bc all it will do is cause a fight and you dont know how much its kills me. you say im not myself but lauren im more of myself around him than i have been around ne guy in a long time....and no lauren i dont act my usual self around him when you are near but that is bc i have feelings for him...im my complete self around ronnie and other guys like that bc im not attracted to them so i dont care what they think of me. so please dont tell me what i am and what im not around him. im sorry if all of this is sudden or harsh but its so much eaiser for me to type this bc it gives me more time to think and explain myself w/o you or myself commenting every 5 seconds to whatever it is that one