i seriously sound like an annoying little brat, don't i? of course this isn't intended, but sadly - this is literally, the only place i have to let out my feelings without serious thoughts of what people think of me. i hate myself right now, i really don't know my purpose of existance. don't worry, i'd never commit suicide or anything because i'm ( Read more... )

i needed some time away from school badly. it never struck me how amazing i am at fooling myself. for example, when i first came into my new school, i hated the people there because everyone already knew each other since they were 3 years old. i just thought i was there for academics and sports and i have no good memories of the first 2 weeks. i ( Read more... )

real quick entry: i hate my life right now, i just want to go back to my public high school with all my friends again. i wish i never quit piano, i wish i never worried so much about what people thought of me. i hate thinking that i have to meet someone's expectations, why can't people just leave me alone ( Read more... )

Until recently I've been dealing with life fairly well .. it was tolerable to me, and in return I did the one thing I tried so hard to do this entire summer - look forward to something this coming school year. But then came a sudden surge of memories from last year after someone who I thought had forgotten me wrote me an email. I can't believe that ( Read more... )

So I've decided to update this again. xD I know that my updating habits are quite spontaneous, but now that my parents are so closely monitoring my summer schedule, it's hard to find time to even turn on my laptop. Speaking of laptops, I'm getting a new Apple MacBook next month! :D About time I get a new one since I'm entering high school~ I've ( Read more... )

I've been meaning to update this for quite some time now, only I kept on thinking that my entries were totally pointless .. not that this one isn't or anything, but this is my journal, and I'm not forcing anyone to read it or anything. Sooo, on that note, I'll tell you all about what's been going on with my life ;D ( Read more... )

I can't believe it's already the 29th of December .. once again, I really wasted my time doing NOTHING. *sighs* This always seems to happen to me .. -__-; But I didn't really have much of a goal that I wanted to accomplish. I just wanted to get in touch with some of my online friends more, but seeing as most of them log on when I can't be online - ( Read more... )

Well I'm updating again! I should really be studying for a social studies test I have on Monday and finishing up some textbook questions for science, but I think I'll have enough time tomorrow to do it. XD At least I'm not majorly procrastinating anymore! :O It's scary for me to even admit it, but I seem to have "free time" on Sundays .. yay ( Read more... )

Stolen from nanatse <3

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I admit it - I've had some time to get online and do non-school related things, but I just didn't think that complaining about all this stress at school would be of any importance since a lot of people seem to be going through some stressful times lately. But I am very sorry for not updating! My parents are constantly stalking me these days, making ( Read more... )