i don't know what to do with myself anymore.
i haven't been this depressed in a long time.

there are things i guess i could be happy about, i've been seeing and talking to more peope, but i just don't even want to put myself out there to risk the inevitable disappointment that'll end up happening.
maybe i just shouldn't have expectations

HAHA! i am the luckiest girl right about now.
i feel like i could do just about anything.

ahhhh and Thai food is amazing.

wow high school needs to be over with. NOW. i'm so done with everything about it ( Read more... )

so wow. what the hell. i have not posted a damn thing in this journal since june ( Read more... )

wowwwww june has been an exciting month. prom, people put bombs in lockers, it was 9 months for peter an d i (le <3), plus JUNIOR YEAR IS DONE. THANK GOD. THANK YOU JESUS ( Read more... )

FUCK. I DID SO FUCKING BAD ON SATS. FUCKKKKKKKKKK ( Read more... )

took of from school as a "mental health" day today. i'm going to catch endoftheyear-itis soon, i can feel it. not like the teachers really care much or anything. finals are just going to suck, as they pretty much do every year ( Read more... )

i'm pretty content with life as it is now ( Read more... )

can't wait until this week is over.
i already have so many things i want to do over break, hopefully i'll have time to accomplish everything. i took off work all week, so that'll be amazing. i've been working too much.

i need a break.
i also need to stop feeling bad formyself.

i don't even know what i want anymore.

formal was lots of fun, as fun as i expected it to be. no real downers about the night, besides the fact that i had to go home at the end of it ( Read more... )