Last night was interesting. Today was interesting-er.

I hate that I can't help but think about it all the time. I hate that the nice, pretty, sweet, charming, quiet girls always win. Not girls me. I have to get that through my head. I won't win. Stop thinking about it.

Note to self: Get giant teddy bear.

I feel like such a retard when I start to get crushes or anything like that. (Don't you hate how everyone says "love" when they really mean "infatuation"?) Because then I have to push all those irritating thoughts into the back of my mind and distance myself from that person. It's such a pain in the fucking ass. Sometimes I really do wish I didn't ( Read more... )

Ugh! He's coming back! Too soon! Just fucking shoot me!

D:

I'm really not ready to go back to school and be all stressed out yet. I didn't even really get much of a summer. But the good news is that Paige comes in a few days (Hi Paige! <3) and we can be liek omfglolz<3. And stuff. Andand we can have another Honky Tonk Day. And I know that'll make me feel better about my whole situation. AND there are a ( Read more... )

I had a really shitty day yesterday. But now that it's today instead of yesterday, it's hard to remember all the horrible feelings I had ( Read more... )

Ah, the first entry of my new EmoJournal...

You know that feeling you get that's just off? There's no obvious reason for you to feel anything strange, different, or depressing but you just do. I think most people get that kind of feeling periodically. It can't really be avoided. It feels like I can't function. I'm on the verge of tears all the ( Read more... )