I wanted that bare back so much, because i can't sleep at night ever, i can't sleep right now my eyes aren't even half open and i just lay in bed crying, thinking over and over again in my mind about things that just make me cry more, i wanted to smell the feeling i remember from Love and fall asleep pretending i was where i was a few weeks back ( Read more... )

Ruthy got a text from Dave today, saying good luck, as we both had a english exam today, then Nick text her saying good luck, no one text me? not even Nick! fuck sake, it's the little things that count, that hurt me.. that really make me feel worthless. why text Ruth? and not even say in the text, good luck to me.. Fucking hell.

i know Nick won't answer anything i commented on, when he commented on my last post in my other journal ( Read more... )

"your my hero" -- "your my cat dope" --"your my soul mate" --"your my only true love ( Read more... )

sometimes i just want to have kisses, and a big long cuddle, and climb into someones arms and feel loved, i miss that more than anything, i really do. i wish i still had that now, it doesn't feel the same sitting next to my Mum, or Ruthy.. i feel lonelly, and i want hugs and to cuddle up to someone, i feel so bad sometimes and i want to go away ( Read more... )

i feel as though, i'm going to be alone, when i'm doing my GCSE's, (this week... and alot of weeks after) i'm going to be alone when i move house, when i turn 16, when i have all summer hoildays on my own, when i start college, a few months into college, when i miss my mother and family, (all of them!) when i feel down and lonelly, and when i feel ( Read more... )

well, today i'm not really going to do anything, last night i went to see Jessica and James, at their flat in Hackney ( Read more... )

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welll i'm in London wooo, can't wait for tomorrow! heheheh ( Read more... )