Wow. I find it amazing that I havent posted here in about 2 years. I only ever really update my MySpace anymore, as that seems to be where most people I know have migrated to. It's sad. I sat here and read a ton of my old entries last night. I'm still kinda nuts, just not so much. And yes, I'm all lonely/etc still. But that's mainly because PEOPLE ( Read more... )

Fuck these shades of gray that you expect me to see and adhere to. Fuck these shades of gray that you believe define you. Fuck these shades of gray that you think will save you. I only see black and white. I only see wrong and right. I see your lies. I see your truths. But I dont know if I love or hate you.

THERE IS NO SHADES OF GRAY.

Jesus. I am totally shitfaced tonight. I think I'm trying to kill myslef.

So fun going out with a haappy couple to nights in a row. Lucky.

UIM lone again.

great.

I never realized how much I really do hate life... or how much I hate myself.

Drinking and driving is fun, but didnt get me what I want.

Which is to be done.

With this life.

Last night was my first concert ever (first trip to NYC too ( Read more... )

... and then I realize how little I've really changed.

I've been abandoned and am therefore incredibly bored. Thought it might be nice to let some of you know that I, like Great Caesar's Ghost, still live. I had initially planned on making a nice big "Ferris Certified Mostly Quality Uber Large Rampaging Randomized Rant Post" about various political, ideological, sociological and other-random-eological ( Read more... )

God damn I'm bored.

Been spending most of my time looking at WRXs. I want a new car so bad. I haven't driven my car in about two months. Blah.

Maybe a real update or something soon, when I'm not feeling lazy.

Still alive. For now.

Fuck, forgot to mention ( Read more... )