No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention."

flu season greeted me this time, and i wish it hadn't.
i have every kind of sick symptom in my body but i'm trying not to let it affect me.

but i'm alive; still breathing, and my heart rate's steady.
i'm taking note that i need to do something big.

new journal, schmournal.