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Suoraan sanottuna vituttaa rypeä jossain itsesäälissä ja ( Read more... )

I´m making myself believe a lie. plenty of them.
I don´t know what should I say or do, my head is a mess.
Lately I´ve been feeling something between agony and amusement.

I don´t know how to talk anymore and it pisses me off very bad. I´d really like to talk to someone, but everytime I´m around someone I just put on that same mask I´ve been wearing for ( Read more... )

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Few days gone by since I updated again. My girlfriend was visiting my place for five days, she had a wintervacation and we haven´t seen eachother in a while (like in a month gh--) We had a good time. We spent time at my place, just chilling and watching movies and we also went for a movie movie (cinema lol) to see this "Tangled" animation film. It ( Read more... )

❝i absolutely love hate this feeling.❞
Could someone please make time to stop moving. I don´t want it to go on... Not now.
I just want to stay here for a while, just like this. Thank you.

I feel like my head´s on suffle-mode and it randomly picks up my mood. First I feel warm and cosy while watching my animes and next thing is that I find my self deep in agony, wanting to punch myself so hard I would faint. Then comes this transitional phase where I still feel the same agony, but at the same time I feel like I´d finally go nuts and ( Read more... )

I´ll be leaving for towns now. I´m still waiting for my friend to call and I´m lacking an inspiration of going outside at all today. Anyhow I need to get something to eat and I don´t have any cigaretts here. Also do I have no milk here so I can´t get more coffee. There was a bit of milk left, but I used it to get my morning coffee ofcourse. I feel ( Read more... )

Once again  I stayed up too late and went to sleep when it was a morning (05:30) already. I watched Ore no Imoutou ga konnani kawaii wake ga nai. twelve episodes in a row and I only went for a smoke twice. I really can´t decide wichever I liked it or not. What could I say... It was kinda cute, but it really it the truth that these kind of things ( Read more... )

Everything has been off the track lately. I feel like I´m running away from something I shouldn´t. I´ve been at home like three weeks now, ofc I went for towns couple of times to have coffee with a friend and I also had to go to buy some food yo... I think I´m a lost case. Beatles - Hello AMV with Welcome to the NHK is good video/song ( Read more... )