Name: Nerissa Nightmare
Age: 16, going on 17
Age started: believe it or not somewhere between 6 and 9, cause I wanted to be skinny like the Barbies.
Eating Disorder: Anorexia and a touch of bulimia
Diagnosed or Self Diagnosed: Diagnosed by my tharpist and mental hospital.
Height: 5'6"
Cw: 129lbs
Lw: 93lbs
Hw: 134lbs
Wg1: 125lbs (By the end of Apirl)
Wg2: ( Read more... )

 THE PROBLEM:
When your boyfriend looks like this:

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 I'm no longer pro ana.
I'm trying to recover and get fitter the healthy way.
yesterday I ate a good amount of food and worked out very hard,
and I lost a pound.
I'm very proud of myself,
it proves to me that I can eat and still lose weight.

I just made a new community,
Its http://community.livejournal.com/you_vs_ana/

Its for Girls and boys trying to ( Read more... )

 yay for losing weight!
Yesterday I lost 5 pounds.
I'm down to 115lbs now.
Yesterday I was 120lbs.
But, now I'm only five pounds away from my first goal!
yay!

So I'mma go burn calories!

THANK GOD I'M POOR!

NO FOOD IN THE HOUSE!
well barely any food! Tehe!

I'm not even hungry and all I ate today was 240 calories and its 2:45pm.
I'm not even hungry! yay!

Age: 16.
CW: 116lbs.
CH: 5'6ish.
LW: 94lbs.
HW: 120lbs.
GW1: 110lbs (by the end of March)
GW2: 100lbs (by the end of Apirl)
GW3: 95lbs (By the end of May)
Main goal weight: 75lbs or 80lbs (by ( Read more... )

( thoughts )

 My weight keeps going up and down. 11/13: i was 111, 11/14: I was 108, 11/15: I was 109, 11/16: 107, now (11/17) 108 again. Thats how its been going for the last 5 days, I want to be lighter so bad, I would do anything, I tried to fast yesterday, I made it for 8 hours then my parents talked me into eating but, I didn't have too much. I don't get ( Read more... )

Okay so I just threw up and I saw blood, that never happened to me before, other then a couple times, is that normal ( Read more... )

Alright, so I did really good for two days, even with my parents trying to force food down my throat.
for the last three days, all I had to eat was salad, tuna and light stuff like that, so I'm proud of myself...
Though today, I did eat a sub. =(

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Everyone always leaves me, no matter what I do, everyone always leaves.  I guess no one cares anymore.
The one person who promised he'd never leave hasn't talked to me in forever, maybe I'm just paranoid but, I'm pretty sure he's leaving like everyone else did!

I HATE LIFE!!