I have a headache today, and surgery planned for 3:00. There are days when I miss the musky basement and the dusty files ( Read more... )

I made it tonight, after Dana went to bed and didn't get up again for dinner ( Read more... )

... Sort of ( Read more... )

Well, I meant to update over a week ago but the world has exploded into bright lights and the migraine headaches that linger since I began my cancer treatments. Today is my first day at work this week and I don't think I will last the full day ( Read more... )

Oh! I am so sorry we've been absent. About a week and a half ago, Mulder and I threw the bags in the car and drove up to Maine. We found a bed and breakfast that took dogs and so Maggie had her first road trip with us! There was a moment in time of perfection - Mulder and I walking down the coastline and Maggie bounding ahead. It was like ( Read more... )

There are moments when I stare at myself in the mirror for so long that the shapes of my face seem to jump off of my body and float before me. The triangle of my nose. The ovals of my eyes. They float and I stare and stare and stare until I'm lost in something that is not me but is me and is a part of me ( Read more... )

I hurt today. Every bone, every joint, every hair follicle, every damned pore hurts. I don't know if it's the chemo or how much time I spent throwing up yesterday. And, of course, I can't keep the anti-nausea meds down ( Read more... )

The Women of Auschwitz ( Read more... )

I dreamed ( Read more... )

The reoccurring dream I've been having since before she was diagnosed?

I have a feeling it's about to come true.

( But I'll worry about that tomorrow. )