posting once a year on the same date --------i blame my overactive brain waves that have come and gone and come and lain immovable, and now they are simply an accepted and even welcome blemish on my life, these rituals/schedules/ticks&tocks. i've gotten into college, i've experienced college, finished a semester, made friends, fallen and fallen ( Read more... )

i'm still waking up in the same groggy chokehold of dirty sheets and blankets and it's fucking disgusting because sometimes when i'm falling asleep at night i can still smell obscene remnants of food and pot. it's so gross. but i lie in it constantly ( Read more... )

I was going to go to bed really early last night to compensate for the previous night's AP history fiasco, but I got caught up in reading a book and couldn't contain myself, even though my body was screaming at me. And now it's screaming even more.

My poor internal clock is so confused. OYE

Oh, and here's to more nutritionist adventures today.

"Car bombing ends cease-fire in Spain ( Read more... )

This academic war just makes me want to curl up and sleep forever. i've never felt it this bad before, and it only makes me more nervous for senior year and college. i feel like I've been aloof for far too long, locked in my house with books and feverish notes, which make me want to do nothing more than sleep and gouge out my eyes in my spare ( Read more... )

I need to get myself back together
starting.....now

"It's a deception and the cause of much disappointment. One reads books and expects life to be just as full of interest and intensity. And, of course, it isn't so. There are many dull moments in between, and they, too, are natural." --Anais Nin

i just took the most relaxing shower
mmmmmm eucalyptus body wash
i've showered something near three times since finishing my spanish essay last night. it feels really good to be unwinding from school work

Oh honey sweet
So full of sleep
I'm backsliding

school weeks are very monotonous. i'm slightly wound up. i feel like i'm never relaxing, even though i'm spending a good majority of my time passed out on the couch and facedown in a pool of my own drool. attractive, yes ( Read more... )