There With You: Part 10
Title: There With You - PART TEN
Pairing: AJ/Soohyun
Rating: Still NC-17.
Summary: The next morning.
A/N: Sorry for the delay, there was... life and stuff.
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PART TEN
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Kn... knock… nock…
Soohyun hummed softly in his sleep, readjusting his position against the warm body below him. He could feel the heat of skin all along his chest, arms, and legs, the soft brush of movement. His arm was hooked over AJ’s chest and their legs were twined together, one of his thighs resting on the top of AJ’s. He shifted closer, trying to fall back asleep, until he felt the press of bare skin somewhere he definitely was not expecting. His eyes shot open and he pushed himself back a bit, a blush immediately coloring his face as his mind returned to reality. He was naked… because he and AJ had had sex the night before.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
Soohyun’s head snapped towards the door, wondering who it could be. He glanced down at AJ and, seeing his still peacefully sleeping face, gently pulled away and slid off the bed. The cold air of the room immediately hit him and he searched frantically for something to cover up, willing the person at the door to stay quiet until he could come, so that AJ could continue to sleep. Finally finding a pair of boxers lying on the floor, he slipped them on and ran across the room, unlocking the door and opening it just an inch or two.
Taking in Soohyun’s appearance, Ronan grinned smugly for a bit before holding out a pair of plastic bags. “I figured you two wouldn’t want to get up this morning, so I brought you breakfast. And I have to say, I’m surprised you’re the one answering the door.” Ronan winked and nodded his head in Soohyun’s direction. “How’re you feeling?”
Soohyun squinted at Ronan’s lips, trying to make out even a bit of what he was saying. But it was early, and he was tired, and it was English. So really, he didn’t have a clue. He looked up at Ronan and just shook his head. “Ronan… early.”
Ronan laughed and reached out to ruffle Soohyun’s hair, shoving the bags into the other boy’s hands before giving him a smile. “Breakfast. For you and AJ.” He pointed to one of the bags and grinned. “Bacon. For Soohyun.”
“Oh.” Soohyun looked down at the bags then back up at Ronan. “Thank you. Ronan too?”
Ronan shook his head. “No. Just AJ and Soohyun. I’m giving you privacy.” He looked Soohyun up and down, chuckling softly when Soohyun saw his action and slithered behind the door. “Sorry, just admiring AJ’s handy work. That boy sure does know how to make a hickey.” Then he got serious, lowering his voice and pointing below Soohyun’s waist. “Soohyun OK?” He made the OK symbol with his fingers and pointed again. “OK?”
Soohyun turned bright red. “I am OK.” He stepped further into the room, covering his chest with the bags Ronan had brought. “Ronan go now.”
“Sure, yeah, I’ll go.” He smiled reassuringly at Soohyun, hoping he hadn’t scared the guy too much, and let out a sigh of relief when he received a smile in return.
“Bacon… Thank you.”
“Not a problem, I even made sure they put in a few ketchup packets.” He gave Soohyun a wink and then a mock salute. “See you later, Soohyun.” And with that, he was gone, shutting the door softly before Soohyun had time to step forward.
Soohyun sighed a bit before letting his shoulders slump, shuffling forward to relock the door before stuffing the bags into AJ’s small fridge. He really didn’t know what had just happened, other than that Ronan had brought food. He had a feeling that he didn’t really want to know either, judging by the look on Ronan’s face. He turned around and bit his lip, chewing on it as he made his way back over to the bed.
Had last night really happened? Or was it all just a dream? Judging by the small twinge he was feeling in his lower back, it definitely wasn’t his imagination. He blushed at the thought. So he and AJ… had really done it. His heart clenched and his lips turned up at the corners, drawing him towards the bed so he could run his fingers through AJ’s hair, let the course strands brush against his palm. “I love you,” he whispered, feeling the words fill him up with warmth as he said them. “I love you so much.”
Soohyun jumped back when AJ shifted against the covers, letting out a small hum before cracking open his eyes. “I love you too, Soohyun.” He stifled a yawn with the back of his hand. “But why are you up?” It came out as a whine but he couldn’t make himself care, even reaching a hand out from under the covers to grasp at Soohyun’s wrist. “Come back to bed.”
Easily persuaded by AJ’s words, Soohyun slid back beneath the covers. A contented smile crossed his face as AJ reached out to pull him against his chest and he chuckled softly as AJ hissed, realizing the difference in temperature between their skin.
AJ tucked Soohyun’s head beneath his chin and wrapped his arms more securely around Soohyun’s body, squishing him closer to his chest and tangling their legs together. “You’re freezing, Soohyun. How long were you standing there in the cold?”
“I don’t know… Ronan came by and dropped off breakfast for us.”
AJ’s eyebrows rose. “Oh really?”
Soohyun nodded and brushed his fingers against AJ’s chest, scratching his nails gently against the skin. “Yeah, he said there was bacon for me. But I don’t know what he brought for you.”
“Alright, well hopefully it’s not anything too scary. And if it is, I have a stash of granola bars that I can take from. But, is that really all he needed? Just to drop off food?”
Soohyun felt his face heat up and he swallowed softly, keeping up the steady motion of his fingers but staying silent.
Feeling Soohyun’s hesitation more than seeing it, AJ squeezed him lightly before pulling back and pushing back the bangs from Soohyun’s forehead, pressing a quick kiss to his lips before giving him a reassuring smile. “You can tell me. I won’t laugh at you or get mad or anything. Just want to know if I need to kill my friend or not.”
Soohyun bit his lip, averting his eyes as he quickly mumbled, “He asked me if I was okay… down there… and kept looking at me and smirking. He said a lot of things in English that I didn’t understand.”
AJ immediately frowned. Ronan shouldn’t have been looking at Soohyun, especially if it had been making him uncomfortable. And making those kind of comments… He sighed, shaking his head. “I’m sorry, he shouldn’t have done that.” He put his fingers beneath Soohyun’s chin and gently guided his face back, eyes serious. “But, are you okay? And not just… down there…”
Soohyun blushed and tried to turn away again but AJ held him in place. He chewed on his lip and settled for looking anywhere but AJ’s face. “Yeah, I’m… I’m fine.” Then he smiled. “Better than fine, actually.”
AJ hummed and Soohyun’s eyes flickered to his face, drawn to the movement of his mouth. He swallowed thickly as AJ’s tongue peeked out to wet his lips. Why was he always so damn attractive? AJ opened his mouth to say something but all Soohyun saw was an opportunity, lifting his hands to cup AJ’s face and crushing their lips together.
He felt AJ tense for just a moment before he relaxed, arms reaching up, fingers threading in his hair. He slid his tongue into AJ’s mouth, opening it wider before leaning forward so that their chests were flush together, no space in between, not even for air. A thigh slid between his legs and suddenly he was turning, back pressed into the mattress as AJ hovered above him. He groaned and pushed out one of his legs, urging AJ to settle between his thighs. Their bodies met and Soohyun couldn’t hold back the moan that left his lips.
Kissing AJ… had to be his new favorite hobby.
When they pulled back for air, AJ rested his forehead against Soohyun’s, taking deep breaths and trying to calm the frantic beating of his heart. He could feel Soohyun’s chest rising and falling rapidly beneath him. Their skin brushed with every inhale and AJ couldn’t help but lower his hands and rub them across smooth skin. Soohyun was beautiful. He lifted himself onto his elbows, creating a small tent with his body and the sheets, trapping Soohyun inside. Light filtered in from between their heads and created interesting shadows across Soohyun’s chest, accentuating the line of his boxers and the darkened spots on his otherwise clear skin. AJ’s mind ground to a halt. Soohyun was definitely wearing his boxers. The same ones he had worn yesterday. Quickly quieting the blood rushing in his ears, he realized Soohyun must’ve pulled them on in a hurry to meet Ronan, not realizing that they were AJ’s. Still, those were definitely his boxers. A pair which Ronan had given him as a joke, actually. They were navy blue and covered in little Korean flags. Ronan had thought it was hilarious. But it also meant that Ronan would’ve definitely recognized them. On Soohyun. In addition to all of the hickeys covering his chest.
He took Soohyun’s face in his hands and bent his head, kissing him fully on the lips, slowly and with purpose, before pulling up again. He bit his lip and prayed Soohyun wouldn’t be too upset. “Soohyun, baby?” He swallowed nervously. “You said Ronan was staring?”
Soohyun nodded in agreement, brows furrowed. “Yeah, he was probably just being perverted.”
“Oh, he definitely was. But, you do realize you didn’t give him much of a choice, right?”
What?” Soohyun’s eyes opened wider, completely confused.
“You’re wearing my boxers and…” You’re covered in hickeys. No, he couldn’t say that, it just didn’t sound right. “And… you’re not wearing a shirt.” Straightening his arms so Soohyun could see for himself, AJ took a deep breath, already feeling Soohyun tensing up.
Soohyun’s arms flew up to cover his chest, face turning a bright shade of red as realization dawned on him. Ronan had seen… He groaned and rolled onto his stomach, burying his face into the pillows. Ronan had seen some things he should’ve never seen. Why did he have to come so early?
Lowering himself carefully onto Soohyun’s back, AJ pressed gentle kisses into the creases of his neck, rubbing a hand along Soohyun’s side. “Don’t worry too much, okay? Ronan won’t say anything. He… already kind of knew everything anyway. Somehow. Besides,” he smirked, running his thumb along Soohyun’s waistband. “You look really sexy in my underwear.”
Soohyun felt heat rush up his neck and twisted around to say something in return but the words immediately died in his throat as he realized that he had just pushed his hips back into AJ’s. And now something warm and solid was pressed up against his backside and all of the thoughts from the night before were flooding into his mind and he could only stay frozen in place and stare up at AJ’s equally stunned expression. He took a deep shuddering breath and his fingers tightened in the sheets.
“Mmm, uhh…” AJ stammered, trying to keep his body from moving in response to Soohyun’s. Should he apologize? Was this something he should apologize for? Especially in this moment, when Soohyun was feeling embarrassed. “Sorry,” he mumbled. “You’re just… really…” He looked down at him, at the expanse of bare skin beneath him calling for him to touch it. He wanted him now and he had wanted him last night and he would want him forever. He wasn’t sorry for that. “Irresistible,” he finished.
Soohyun looked down at the bed, biting his lip before peering back over his shoulder. “I know what you mean…” He ground his hips slowly back against AJ’s growing erection, anxious fidgeting making him move even more. Was this okay? Should he be this forward? He caught his own lip again, glancing from AJ’s face, down his body, and back up again. Screw it. This was AJ, he could do what he wanted without being judged. He moved his right hand to the side, brushing his pinky against AJ’s thumb. AJ’s hand lifted and he slid his own hand underneath, repeating the process with his other hand and smiling when AJ threaded their fingers together. He arched his back, pushing up against AJ’s chest, and rocked slightly back against AJ’s hips. Even through the fabric of his -AJ’s-boxers he could feel the solid heat of AJ’s erection rubbing against his crease.
“Ah. Soohyun,” AJ gasped. This time he allowed himself to push his hips forward, Soohyun responding immediately, matching his movements and rubbing his cute little butt against him. AJ dared to push back more forcefully and Soohyun let out an encouraging moan. AJ brushed his lips softly against the back of his neck, unlinking one of his hands from Soohyun so he could stroke down his side. Soohyun had made him so hard so quickly, it really wasn’t fair. It was also unfair that from this position AJ couldn’t touch Soohyun the way he wanted to. He only longed to flip him over, so he could feel how hard Soohyun would be against him. AJ whispered in his ear, “Don’t worry Soohyun. I’m the only one who will ever see you like this.” He kissed his neck again, pressing harder than before, Soohyun arching against him in response. “Mmm, and now maybe we should get these boxers of mine off of you, huh?” he murmured.
Soohyun arched his back further, twisting his neck to give AJ more room, trying to bite back the small groans and whimpers that were escaping his lips. “Hnn, AJ,” he panted, letting out a moan as AJ thrust against him. “P-Please.” He didn’t want to wait any longer, he didn’t like having a barrier in between them-even if it was just a thin piece of fabric-and he wanted every single part of AJ to be against him. He wanted to touch everything. See everything. Last night had been passionate, heated, and incredible. But now he just wanted to take his time to explore every part of AJ that he could. He wanted to memorize every aspect of the man he loved. He pressed his hips back and ground them in a slow circle, feeling hot air blow across his neck as AJ moaned and responded with a whimper of his own.
AJ wasted no more time in grabbing the waistband of the boxers and tugging them down, revealing the smooth skin of Soohyun’s completely delicious ass. He curled his hands around it, kneading the muscles there before sliding the boxers down the rest of the way and over Soohyun’s ankles. He pressed his face close to Soohyun’s crack, feeling him shiver beneath him. “You sure you’re not too sore, baby?” he asked. “Though first…” He slid a hand under Soohyun’s side and gently turned him over to face him, letting out a moan when the other boy’s erection finally came into view. “I’m going to devour the other parts of you,” he finished, leaning in and trailing his tongue over Soohyun’s tight stomach before covering his mouth with his own.
Soohyun groaned against AJ’s lips, hips bucking upwards as he felt AJ settle on top of him, making him moan even louder as their erections brushed. His hands wound around AJ’s neck and his ankles crossed behind AJ’s thighs, crushing their bodies together as their mouths slid languidly together. Their tongues brushed softly and Soohyun let AJ take control, bringing the kiss inside of his mouth but grinding his hips up against AJ’s. He ran a hand down AJ’s spine and scraped his nails against the sensitive skin at the small of his back, drawing him impossibly closer. He could feel everything. And he loved it. How anything could be so perfect, he didn’t know.
Soohyun’s skin was back to its normal, pleasant warmth, the chill of the room replaced by the heat of their combined bodies. AJ touched him all over, his hands exploring everywhere, seeking out the raised nubs of Soohyun’s nipples and rubbing them with his thumbs, making Soohyun moan against AJ’s mouth and bend himself further upward. Then AJ’s hands slid downward, stroking down Soohyun’s sides and then inching along the inside of Soohyun’s widely spread thighs. Soohyun’s responding groan was once again swallowed by their kiss. AJ was going nice and slow, savoring every moment of Soohyun’s body pushing its need against him, of his never-ending noises of pleasure. They had lots of time. They had the whole rest of the day, after all, and then the whole night too, if need be…
AJ’s hands were warm against his skin, searing hot imprints into his muscles and making his entire body burn with a low heat. He spread his legs wider, unhooking them from behind AJ so that his heels were propped up on the bed, thighs trembling as AJ’s fingers ghosted across the sensitive skin that connected his hips to his legs. AJ was rubbing against him and all he could do was moan, head thrown back, body rocking slowly in tandem with AJ’s motions. It was almost like a dance, slow and sensual, wrapped up in each other and the music of their hearts. They were together, singing their pleasure with deep groans and whimpers. Even without practice, they knew the way, all of the steps and motions, each touch feeling perfectly right. AJ bent down and pressed their chests together, hands sliding back up Soohyun’s sides, fingers hooking around Soohyun’s biceps and bringing his arms back with a smooth motion, skin sliding against skin until AJ was pinning Soohyun’s wrists to the mattress. Soohyun bucked his hips and groaned, pushing himself up into AJ, unable to think through the pure heat that was consuming him.
Keeping his hold on Soohyun’s wrists, AJ moved his face downward, trailing his tongue over Soohyun’s nipples. He was starting to feel a little possessive, maybe just because Ronan had been checking out his lover without him knowing. Not that Ronan had meant anything by it, but this man was his, and he wanted to leave no doubt about that. He raised his head enough to see Soohyun’s face, the other boy’s lips parting as moans kept pouring from his throat. AJ hummed contentedly. Soohyun was his, and happily so. He looked the rest of him over, deciding he’d already left enough bruises on Soohyun’s poor skin. Today he’d claim him more gently. He planted soft kisses down Soohyun’s body, stopping around his belly button. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered against him. “Remember that. Even when…” He moved back up Soohyun’s body, covering him completely with his own to push him into the mattress. “… I’m not there to demonstrate it to you,” he finished, grinding against him harder than before.
Soohyun groaned, hips bucking up into AJ’s, wrists pushing against AJ’s palms. He panted heavily, looking up into AJ’s face. “I’m not b-beautiful,” he whimpered. He saw AJ start to frown and pouted a bit before squirming against the covers. “If anything, I’m handsome.”
“Oh yeah?” AJ murmured in reply. He rested his head in the crook of Soohyun’s shoulder, breathing into his ear. “Being tricky, are we? Well, I’m not sure you believe it yet. What do I have to do to convince you, mmm?”
He released Soohyun’s wrists at last, but before Soohyun had time to react, AJ’s hands were holding down his hips as his face lowered to Soohyun’s groin. Soohyun let out a strangled yelp as AJ’s tongue slid all the way down his erection and then back up to the tip. He writhed below him, high-pitched yells spilling from his throat as AJ’s hot breath teased his pulsing member before AJ finally took him in his mouth.
Soohyun laced his fingers in AJ’s hair and arched his back, hips pushing up into AJ’s hands. He tugged at AJ’s head a bit and waited for AJ to look up at him before panting, “I thought you were going to… convince me?” AJ lifted his eyebrows. “Right now… all I’m getting… is that you-ngg-you like my d-dick,” he breathed, stuttering as AJ continued to tease him with his tongue. He swallowed quickly and groaned as AJ pulled back, tightening his lips as he went and teasing his slit one last time before releasing Soohyun completely. Soohyun panted quietly for a few moments before sliding his hands down to AJ’s shoulders, using them to keep his balance as he sat up and pushed himself onto his knees. He darted forward to press a quick kiss to AJ’s lips. “Jaeseop,” he murmured, pushing at AJ’s shoulders, ignoring the confused frown curving his mouth. Then he quickly ducked down, pushing AJ down onto the bed and pinning him in place.
He smiled up at him sweetly. “My turn,” he said, lips curving into a small smile before opening to encompass AJ’s length, creating a circle of wet heat around it before running his tongue along the head. He hummed lowly in the back of his throat. He could feel AJ’s weight in his mouth, taste him against his tongue. He swallowed slowly and let his tongue take another pass across AJ’s slit, gathering the salty liquid there and smearing it around the tip. He felt AJ jerk and had to stop himself from gagging as something hit the back of his throat, taking a moment to calm himself before pulling back and taking a breath through his nose, encouraged by the sounds AJ had made to dip his head back down, not stopping until AJ once again hit the back of his throat.
AJ’s cock twitched against his tongue and Soohyun shivered, moaning lowly as AJ’s fingers tangled in his hair, letting out a string of unintelligible sounds as he writhed beneath Soohyun’s touch. Soohyun loved it. He was the one giving AJ so much pleasure, so many sensations that he couldn’t even control himself. He moaned again, rubbing his thumbs over the smooth skin of AJ’s hips, then began pulling back, dragging his lips tightly against AJ’s length. His mouth came free with a wet sound and he swallowed timidly before looking up into AJ’s hooded eyes, taking in his flushed chest and opened legs. He swallowed again, throat suddenly dry. “You’re beautiful,” he whispered.
AJ gave one last moan and then pulled Soohyun down on top of him. He took a second to gasp, “You. Are. Incredible,” before grasping Soohyun tighter and crushing their lips together.
Soohyun whimpered softly into the kiss, squirming so that his thighs were on either side of AJ’s hips, brushing their erections together and letting out a tiny, high-pitched whine. AJ’s hands snaked back to his waist, giving a small squeeze until moving further back and shaping around his backside. He moaned into AJ’s mouth, collapsing weakly on top of him, as strong fingers began to massage at his muscles. He felt completely boneless, immobile, as AJ continued to fill him with warmth, tongue caressing the inside of his mouth, hips grinding slowly together, hands still smoothing along his skin. He let his mind go black and gave into the sensations, groaning weakly against AJ’s lips.
AJ hoisted himself up, shifting their entwined bodies slowly and moving Soohyun backwards, letting Soohyun down gently onto the mattress and arranging himself on top. “Baby,” he whispered. He stroked the soft skin of Soohyun’s hips. “My sweet, beautiful Soohyun.”
Soohyun whimpered and wrapped his arms around AJ’s neck, curling his fingers against the warm skin of AJ’s back. “Jae-Jaeseop.” He arched his neck as AJ began to kiss up its side, thumbs still rubbing circles against his hips. He scraped his nails gently across AJ’s skin as a path was made from his shoulder to his jaw line, making a turn before ending at his lips. He groaned softly when AJ’s tongue slid over his bottom lip, letting out a soft whine when it was pulled between AJ’s teeth, sucked into his mouth for a brief moment before being released. He urged AJ down with weak pulls of his arms, small contractions of his otherwise jelly-like muscles. Their chests brushed and his eyes rolled back a bit, AJ’s tongue inside his mouth extracting another breathy sound from his throat. “J-Jaeseop,” he whimpered, hardly able to think. “I-I-…” He broke off with a keen, nails scraping small lines into AJ’s back.
AJ pulled away to murmur against Soohyun’s lips, “What do you want, Soohyun? Tell me what you want.” He licked the curl of Soohyun’s ear. “I want to hear you say it.”
Soohyun whined from the back of his throat, pressing against AJ’s body with his own. “I-I want…”
He broke off with a strangled groan when AJ took his earlobe into his mouth, sucking on it softly before once again whispering in his ear, What, Soohyun? What do you want?
Soohyun groaned and tilted his head closer to AJ’s touch. How could he expect an answer when he was making it so impossible for Soohyun to think? He scratched his fingers down AJ’s back, taking a shuddering breath before trying to gather his thoughts. “I-I want… I want you to make love to me.” He blushed and bit his lip, staring up at AJ with pleading eyes. “Please, Jaeseop?” He whimpered when their skin brushed again, eyes fluttering shut. “Please, Jaeseop. I-I want you. So much. Please.”
Soohyun’s words made the heat in AJ’s body, like slow-moving lava, surge and threaten to overflow. AJ kissed him solidly. “Don’t worry, baby,” he breathed. “No more need to beg.” He pushed himself up, glancing around for the lube, which luckily he had placed right back on the night stand the night before. He propped himself up to grab it, returning to Soohyun immediately and popping the cap open. He looked down at Soohyun’s still heaving chest, spreading Soohyun’s legs a little wider around him. He coated his fingers and lowered his hand to Soohyun’s crack, biting his lip. No matter how Soohyun had reassured him before, he would still be sore and AJ should be careful. He leaned down to connect their lips again. “Tell me if it hurts too much, babe,” he said, before pushing his first finger in, as slowly as he could.
Soohyun immediately let out a low hiss, back arching as a throb of pain shot up his spine. He bit down on AJ’s lip and crushed their mouths closer, trying to force himself to relax. He wanted this. And if he acted too uncomfortable, AJ would stop. So he pushed his chest closer to AJ’s, spread his legs wider, and bit back the little whimper of pain that threatened to bubble out of his throat when AJ added a second finger, sliding it in next to the first and twisting it around. His brow furrowed and his arms tightened around AJ’s shoulders. He knew he could get through it, just this first step, and then he would be with AJ again and they’d both feel good. Just a little longer…
“You don’t need to hide it,” AJ told him, stroking Soohyun’s face with his free hand. His tongue flicked over his lips, tasting a little blood there from when Soohyun had bit down. “I’m sorry,” he said, kissing Soohyun’s forehead. But he didn’t stop, pushing a third finger in as Soohyun tensed further against him. Soohyun had asked for this, and AJ wanted it too, so much, when he would erase everything except pleasure from Soohyun’s mind. “I’ll make up for it soon,” he whispered, returning to Soohyun’s lips. He reached around inside him for Soohyun’s prostate-he’d relieve Soohyun of a least a little pain immediately. He knew he’d been successful when Soohyun’s hips bucked against him. Maybe not as enthusiastic as last time, but it would do. He removed his fingers carefully, Soohyun letting out a sigh against his lips.
Relaxing a bit against the mattress, Soohyun tried to catch his breath, chest rising and falling at a heightened pace as he tried to recollect his thoughts. It had hurt, more than he was expecting. But AJ had been gentle, and caring, and had tried his best to make him feel good. And really, he still wanted it. He wanted to be connected to AJ again, to feel their bodies become one. No matter what, he wanted that. He could only hope that AJ knew that too, that he wouldn’t be too worried, or be afraid of putting him in pain. AJ once again reached for the lube and Soohyun’s breath caught in his throat, knowing what he could do. His fingers caught around AJ’s wrist, pushing it to the side so he could grab the lube himself, squeezing some onto his fingers before looking back up into AJ’s eyes. “Let me,” he murmured, hand already curling around AJ’s throbbing length.
AJ’s breath caught as Soohyun’s hand stroked him, coating him completely, the trapped air finally emerging as a low moan. He’d never wanted Soohyun more. His hands on him, his mouth on him, his warmth surrounding him, he wanted it all.
He moaned again when Soohyun released him. He pressed him back into the mattress, kissing him deeply. He gave Soohyun’s erection one last lingering touch, rubbing his thumb over the tip before asking, “Are you ready, baby?”
Soohyun whimpered loudly in response, bucking his hips up and clinging to AJ’s back. “Yes, yes, Jaeseop yes just please Jaeseop please.” He scrambled at AJ’s back as he felt something warm press against his entrance. He whined as it slid further in, AJ using small thrusts of his hips until he was fully seated. Soohyun’s legs were trembling, his back tightened up like a bow, unsure of whether to moan or scream. Because damnit, it hurt. But at the same time he was happy, warm, comfortable and reassured. AJ was inside of him, a part of him, and no matter what his body said, it was an amazing feeling. He groaned into AJ’s mouth and pulled him closer, urging him to move with small movements of his hips. AJ’s fingers curled around his length and stroked, hips pulling out before pushing back in, making him grit his teeth and his eyes flutter closed. The pain and the pleasure were mixed together, until he could hardly tell the difference. He let out a breathy moan as AJ began to move inside of him, thrusting at a slow pace, strong and steady movements of his hips making him writhe against the sheets.
AJ let the heat between their moving bodies build gradually, aware of every moan that fell from Soohyun’s lips and every responding pulse and tremor. His hand was still on Soohyun’s member, every now and then giving him a lingering stroke, but focusing his full energy on the meeting of their hips. This time, he wanted to feel Soohyun climb to the height of passion, every second of their journey there together, every moment of the sweet fire growing between them before they fell over the edge. Together. Slowly his measured pace gave way to a different rhythm, his thrusts deeper and longer, Soohyun’s cries even louder as AJ found the spot inside him that erased everything else, again and again.
Soohyun couldn’t believe what he was feeling. He felt almost like he was hovering, detached from his body and looking down, watching AJ move and groan against him, hearing his own sounds of pleasure. But at the same time he could feel everything, as if every nerve ending in his body was on overdrive. Each brush of skin, each meeting of lips, every movement that sent AJ deep inside of him, connecting them in a way he had never felt before. Arms looping under Soohyun’s body, one at his back and the other at his shoulders, AJ pulled them close. Soohyun’s legs spread wider and his mouth opened in a breathy gasp, entire body quivering as he felt the effects of their combined heat. A small whimper escaped his lips, hips twitching anxiously as AJ remained buried deep inside of him, unmoving, just holding Soohyun tight to his chest. Shifting forward, a jolt of pleasure shot up his spine, making him flex further into AJ’s body, kept in place by strong arms. And then he was a moaning mess, unable to think of anything but the way AJ was moving, filling him up, completing him and holding him in a way no one else could. All he could see was AJ’s face, eyes flickering and unfocused as the pressure on his prostrate continued, AJ rutting slowly inside of him. A low moan escaped his throat and he could feel the wetness of his lips when AJ kissed him, tongue sliding inside of his mouth and drawing him closer to the edge.
AJ traced the full cavern of Soohyun’s mouth before breaking away to say, “Soohyun, baby.” He was mostly incoherent himself, but the words sprang from his lips anyway. He needed Soohyun to know he was thinking of him, only of him, his undone form beneath him while he was still so deep inside him. Soohyun moaned in response and AJ kissed him again before whispering, “Come for me baby. Come for me.”
Soohyun’s eyes flew open, seeing nothing as an impossibly loud groan was ripped from his throat, climax rushing through him like as an unstoppable force. His hips jerked helplessly into AJ’s body, fingers digging into AJ’s back, chest freezing as his entire body arched, spilling between their stomachs while his toes curled in the sheets. Between the mess of moans and incoherencies, the only words that fell from his lips were AJ’s name, and how much he loved him. Whispered into the mouth of his lover, moaned into the bed they shared, screamed to fill the entire room. It was all he could think about it. In this moment, only AJ. Only him.
As his muscles went limp, legs falling open and head lilting to the side, AJ began to move again, strong thrusts of his hips that had Soohyun moaning weakly, unable to keep up. He felt AJ’s hands tighten on against his skin, felt him move faster, harder, searching for his own end. Their eyes met, dark and intense staring into hazy and unfocused, unable to look away as they held each other. Soohyun let out a low groan, legs shaking, still too sensitive and overwhelmed to do anything but writhe weakly against the sheets. His lips parted, eyes still partially shut, and he listened to the frantic moaning of his name, holding AJ closer to whisper in his ear. “Jaeseop, come for me. I want to feel it.”
Soohyun’s words shot straight into him, the heat inside him plunging over the edge. One more thrust and AJ released inside of him, uttering a long, final moan, until at last his body was still. For a moment he just listened to Soohyun’s breathing against his ear, still uneven, matching his own gradually slowing gasps. He lowered himself gently, settling as close as he could without crushing him. He didn’t want any separation between them. He kissed him gently, on the lips then on his cheeks, on his forehead, on his nose, then down his neck. “You’re amazing,” he whispered.
Soohyun hummed gently in the back of his throat, eyes still mostly closed as he tilted his head back, giving AJ more room. His entire body still felt fuzzy, detached, as if he was floating on air. Everything was warm and comfortable. “You too,” he murmured, finally opening his eyes all the way. His hands traced over AJ’s ears, drawing him back up, linking their mouths together. “You make me feel so good.” He pressed another kiss to AJ’s lips, breath ghosting warmly across moist skin. “Jaeseop, I-I want to stay like this. Can we?” He pulled back a bit, staring at AJ with pleading eyes. “Please?”
“Of course,” AJ said, a little surprised. He hadn’t known it would comfortable for Soohyun for him to stay inside him like this, but judging by the look in Soohyun’s eyes all the pain was gone. He smiled, running a hand through Soohyun’s hair. “I’m just glad you’re so happy, Soohyun,” he said, before reconnecting their lips. It was so nice, feeling so warm and connected. He didn’t want to change anything either.
“Mmm, of course I’m happy. I have you.” Soohyun smiled into the kiss and wrapped his arms around AJ’s neck, pulling him further down. The position was a little awkward, now that he thought about it. It would probably be easier if AJ had taken him from behind. But somehow, that just wouldn’t have been as perfect. He had wanted to see AJ, to memorize his every feature. Maybe in the future they could do more, but for now, he knew that it had been perfect. Even if he was a little crushed at the moment, he still didn’t want to let AJ go. He wanted to hold onto him, the feeling of him, the smell of him, the taste of him, until he was forced to leave it all behind. He tightened his arms, pressing harder into the kiss, eyes clenching shut as he tried to forget. AJ was finally his, but he was going to have to go back. Alone.
When Soohyun’s hold finally relaxed a little, AJ pulled back to look at him. He knew what that extra tightness had meant. He rested his hand on Soohyun’s cheek, rubbing his thumb against it. “And you’ll always have me,” he said, “No matter where I am, and no matter where you are. Okay? Not that…” AJ lowered his face, hiding it in Soohyun’s neck. “Not that I won’t miss you terribly. But…” He raised his head again. “I’ll be back with you before you know it. But for now…” He gave Soohyun a quick peck. “We don’t need to worry about any of that.”
Soohyun nodded slowly, fingers gently tracing over AJ’s lips. He wanted to believe him, he really did. But it was just so hard to imagine going back without AJ by his side. To have to get on that plane, knowing what he was leaving behind. He let out a sigh, nails scraping gently across AJ’s cheek. “AJ…” Soohyun knew his voice sounded weak, he knew it sounded pathetic, but he didn’t care anymore. He looked helplessly into AJ’s eyes, feeling wetness gathering behind his own. “AJ… make me forget. I-I don’t want to think about it anymore.” He shut his eyes and took a shuddering breath, fingers clenching a bit before releasing again. It felt like all of AJ’s carefully placed stitches were coming undone, and it wasn’t even time for him to go. Fear suddenly clenched his heart. What was going to happen, when he really had to leave? Was everything just going to go back to the way it was before?
AJ felt tears coming to his own eyes too. He couldn’t stand to see Soohyun like this. “No, baby, no,” he mumbled, wiping away the first drop that escaped from Soohyun’s eye. “Don’t…” He leaned in and kissed him harder, feeling Soohyun settle into the kiss. How could he make him forget? How could he chase away his fears? He’d already used the only way he knew how. Even that hadn’t been enough. There might never be enough to erase all the darkness from Soohyun’s heart. But AJ had to try anyway. He had to keep giving him everything, everything he had and everything he was.
Soohyun’s lips parted from his and AJ said against them, “Soohyun. You are already so strong. You’ve already done this much and now you can do anything. You are the sun that brings us to life and the ground that lifts us up. You are everything I want to be and everything I could ask for. And I love you. I love you so much.” He pulled one of Soohyun’s hands to him, intertwining their fingers. “And that will never leave you. There’s nowhere you can go where you won’t have my love. Nowhere.” He kissed Soohyun’s hand, feeling one of his own tears slide onto it as he did so. He wished he weren’t breaking down but he couldn’t help it. His heart was singing every word and his eyes reflected it. “It’ll always be there with you. I’ll always be there with you.” A smile tugged up the corner of his mouth. “Besides…” He traced some of the marks on Soohyun’s chest and neck with his other hand. “You already have these to take home with you.”
Soohyun sniffled, unable to help the smile that pulled at the corner of his lips. He wiped at his eyes before letting out a small laugh. “Yeah, I just hope the cordi-noonas don’t try to put me into something too scary. I can’t imagine what would happen if they saw.” He swallowed slowly before looking down, stroking a hand down AJ’s chest before looking up again, letting his fingers settle just above AJ’s heart. It beat steadily against his palm and he sighed, closing his eyes as he lay back against the sheets. Suddenly, he had an idea. He pushed himself up a bit then blushed when he felt AJ move inside of him, slipping out a bit at his sudden change in position. He pointed shyly at the nightstand. “Could you hand me my phone?”
“Yes?” AJ consented questioningly. He put a hand on Soohyun’s hip to keep them in position while he reached to get it. Then he placed it in Soohyun’s hand, though a little warily. Was Soohyun going to do what he thought he was going to do with it? Something that involved… storing naked pictures of him? Because he wasn’t sure that was a good idea. Then again, thinking about Soohyun looking at them later, and liking them… That sounded nice.
Soohyun took his phone and unlocked the screen, carefully scrolling through the icons until he reached the one he wanted. He clicked on it then pressed his phone to AJ’s chest, as tight to his skin as he could get it, before hitting the small button in the center of his screen. He caught AJ’s questioning eyes and smiled a bit, threading his free hand through AJ’s short hair before pulling him down, locking their mouths together. He traced the inside of AJ’s mouth with his tongue slowly, not to arouse but to make him feel. After what he thought was a satisfying amount of time, he pulled away, licking his lips slowly as he clicked the ‘end’ button on his app, saving the file before opening another. This time, he looked AJ carefully in the eyes before pulling him down, guiding his chin to his shoulder, urging him down onto the bed. He pressed a gentle kiss to his neck before pressing his phone there. He wrapped an arm around AJ’s shoulders and squeezed. “Just relax, please. I need this.” And then he hit the center button, watching the blinking red light on the screen as a minute passed, then two, then three, just holding AJ against his chest. He didn’t release his grip until he was satisfied, saving that file as well before letting AJ pull away. He smiled up at him, clutching his phone to his chest. “Thank you. I think-I think maybe I’ll be okay… if I have this…”
AJ smiled too, partially at Soohyun and partially at himself for assuming Soohyun was going to do something perverted, when Soohyun was just being his sweet vulnerable self and AJ was the one thinking naughty things. But those thoughts had had their time and now AJ just wanted to return Soohyun’s tenderness. “I guess it wouldn’t hurt to have some of me to carry around with you too,” he said, giving Soohyun a few pecks in a row. “Though you can’t keep my love on your phone,” he added, kissing Soohyun’s forehead. “The file size is way too big.”
“Mmmm…” Soohyun mumbled, smiling. “What if I get a 100 gigabyte phone?” he asked.
“Nope, still too small,” AJ said.
“What about… 100 terabytes?”
“Nope, still wouldn’t fit.”
“A million terabytes?”
“Nope.” AJ kissed him. “Still not big enough.”
“Then how big would it need to be?” Soohyun asked, letting his voice come out as childish as he could make it.
AJ answered, “Mmm… It would have to be… big enough to hold every drop of water in the ocean, and then all the water from every lake and river and all the rain from the clouds and snow from the mountain tops, and then…” AJ stroked Soohyun’s cheek. “Humans are made of water, so it’d have to hold every drop of sweat and every tear from every single person on the planet, and then after that it would still have to have room for all the light from every star in the sky…”
Soohyun let AJ go on, nuzzling his face against him. He already knew the answer to his question. The whole universe wasn't big
enough to hold his happiness.
AJ nuzzled him back. “So I guess,” he said, “until technology gets better, you’ll just have to carry it in here.” He placed a hand over Soohyun’s heart.
Soohyun covered the hand with his own, smiling. Even if he couldn’t carry AJ’s love on his phone, he could carry a bit of his comfort, a bit of his reassurance. He could carry the memories of what they had done and hang onto them when things got tough. His fingers tightened around AJ’s, praying that he would always remember those words and that his heart would be able to hold the feelings AJ had for him, that they wouldn’t be pushed away. Taking a deep breath, he lifted himself up, connecting their lips for only a moment before pulling back and looking up at AJ with a small smile. “I wouldn’t want to keep it anywhere else.”
Pairing: AJ/Soohyun
Rating: Still NC-17.
Summary: The next morning.
A/N: Sorry for the delay, there was... life and stuff.
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PART TEN
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Kn... knock… nock…
Soohyun hummed softly in his sleep, readjusting his position against the warm body below him. He could feel the heat of skin all along his chest, arms, and legs, the soft brush of movement. His arm was hooked over AJ’s chest and their legs were twined together, one of his thighs resting on the top of AJ’s. He shifted closer, trying to fall back asleep, until he felt the press of bare skin somewhere he definitely was not expecting. His eyes shot open and he pushed himself back a bit, a blush immediately coloring his face as his mind returned to reality. He was naked… because he and AJ had had sex the night before.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
Soohyun’s head snapped towards the door, wondering who it could be. He glanced down at AJ and, seeing his still peacefully sleeping face, gently pulled away and slid off the bed. The cold air of the room immediately hit him and he searched frantically for something to cover up, willing the person at the door to stay quiet until he could come, so that AJ could continue to sleep. Finally finding a pair of boxers lying on the floor, he slipped them on and ran across the room, unlocking the door and opening it just an inch or two.
Taking in Soohyun’s appearance, Ronan grinned smugly for a bit before holding out a pair of plastic bags. “I figured you two wouldn’t want to get up this morning, so I brought you breakfast. And I have to say, I’m surprised you’re the one answering the door.” Ronan winked and nodded his head in Soohyun’s direction. “How’re you feeling?”
Soohyun squinted at Ronan’s lips, trying to make out even a bit of what he was saying. But it was early, and he was tired, and it was English. So really, he didn’t have a clue. He looked up at Ronan and just shook his head. “Ronan… early.”
Ronan laughed and reached out to ruffle Soohyun’s hair, shoving the bags into the other boy’s hands before giving him a smile. “Breakfast. For you and AJ.” He pointed to one of the bags and grinned. “Bacon. For Soohyun.”
“Oh.” Soohyun looked down at the bags then back up at Ronan. “Thank you. Ronan too?”
Ronan shook his head. “No. Just AJ and Soohyun. I’m giving you privacy.” He looked Soohyun up and down, chuckling softly when Soohyun saw his action and slithered behind the door. “Sorry, just admiring AJ’s handy work. That boy sure does know how to make a hickey.” Then he got serious, lowering his voice and pointing below Soohyun’s waist. “Soohyun OK?” He made the OK symbol with his fingers and pointed again. “OK?”
Soohyun turned bright red. “I am OK.” He stepped further into the room, covering his chest with the bags Ronan had brought. “Ronan go now.”
“Sure, yeah, I’ll go.” He smiled reassuringly at Soohyun, hoping he hadn’t scared the guy too much, and let out a sigh of relief when he received a smile in return.
“Bacon… Thank you.”
“Not a problem, I even made sure they put in a few ketchup packets.” He gave Soohyun a wink and then a mock salute. “See you later, Soohyun.” And with that, he was gone, shutting the door softly before Soohyun had time to step forward.
Soohyun sighed a bit before letting his shoulders slump, shuffling forward to relock the door before stuffing the bags into AJ’s small fridge. He really didn’t know what had just happened, other than that Ronan had brought food. He had a feeling that he didn’t really want to know either, judging by the look on Ronan’s face. He turned around and bit his lip, chewing on it as he made his way back over to the bed.
Had last night really happened? Or was it all just a dream? Judging by the small twinge he was feeling in his lower back, it definitely wasn’t his imagination. He blushed at the thought. So he and AJ… had really done it. His heart clenched and his lips turned up at the corners, drawing him towards the bed so he could run his fingers through AJ’s hair, let the course strands brush against his palm. “I love you,” he whispered, feeling the words fill him up with warmth as he said them. “I love you so much.”
Soohyun jumped back when AJ shifted against the covers, letting out a small hum before cracking open his eyes. “I love you too, Soohyun.” He stifled a yawn with the back of his hand. “But why are you up?” It came out as a whine but he couldn’t make himself care, even reaching a hand out from under the covers to grasp at Soohyun’s wrist. “Come back to bed.”
Easily persuaded by AJ’s words, Soohyun slid back beneath the covers. A contented smile crossed his face as AJ reached out to pull him against his chest and he chuckled softly as AJ hissed, realizing the difference in temperature between their skin.
AJ tucked Soohyun’s head beneath his chin and wrapped his arms more securely around Soohyun’s body, squishing him closer to his chest and tangling their legs together. “You’re freezing, Soohyun. How long were you standing there in the cold?”
“I don’t know… Ronan came by and dropped off breakfast for us.”
AJ’s eyebrows rose. “Oh really?”
Soohyun nodded and brushed his fingers against AJ’s chest, scratching his nails gently against the skin. “Yeah, he said there was bacon for me. But I don’t know what he brought for you.”
“Alright, well hopefully it’s not anything too scary. And if it is, I have a stash of granola bars that I can take from. But, is that really all he needed? Just to drop off food?”
Soohyun felt his face heat up and he swallowed softly, keeping up the steady motion of his fingers but staying silent.
Feeling Soohyun’s hesitation more than seeing it, AJ squeezed him lightly before pulling back and pushing back the bangs from Soohyun’s forehead, pressing a quick kiss to his lips before giving him a reassuring smile. “You can tell me. I won’t laugh at you or get mad or anything. Just want to know if I need to kill my friend or not.”
Soohyun bit his lip, averting his eyes as he quickly mumbled, “He asked me if I was okay… down there… and kept looking at me and smirking. He said a lot of things in English that I didn’t understand.”
AJ immediately frowned. Ronan shouldn’t have been looking at Soohyun, especially if it had been making him uncomfortable. And making those kind of comments… He sighed, shaking his head. “I’m sorry, he shouldn’t have done that.” He put his fingers beneath Soohyun’s chin and gently guided his face back, eyes serious. “But, are you okay? And not just… down there…”
Soohyun blushed and tried to turn away again but AJ held him in place. He chewed on his lip and settled for looking anywhere but AJ’s face. “Yeah, I’m… I’m fine.” Then he smiled. “Better than fine, actually.”
AJ hummed and Soohyun’s eyes flickered to his face, drawn to the movement of his mouth. He swallowed thickly as AJ’s tongue peeked out to wet his lips. Why was he always so damn attractive? AJ opened his mouth to say something but all Soohyun saw was an opportunity, lifting his hands to cup AJ’s face and crushing their lips together.
He felt AJ tense for just a moment before he relaxed, arms reaching up, fingers threading in his hair. He slid his tongue into AJ’s mouth, opening it wider before leaning forward so that their chests were flush together, no space in between, not even for air. A thigh slid between his legs and suddenly he was turning, back pressed into the mattress as AJ hovered above him. He groaned and pushed out one of his legs, urging AJ to settle between his thighs. Their bodies met and Soohyun couldn’t hold back the moan that left his lips.
Kissing AJ… had to be his new favorite hobby.
When they pulled back for air, AJ rested his forehead against Soohyun’s, taking deep breaths and trying to calm the frantic beating of his heart. He could feel Soohyun’s chest rising and falling rapidly beneath him. Their skin brushed with every inhale and AJ couldn’t help but lower his hands and rub them across smooth skin. Soohyun was beautiful. He lifted himself onto his elbows, creating a small tent with his body and the sheets, trapping Soohyun inside. Light filtered in from between their heads and created interesting shadows across Soohyun’s chest, accentuating the line of his boxers and the darkened spots on his otherwise clear skin. AJ’s mind ground to a halt. Soohyun was definitely wearing his boxers. The same ones he had worn yesterday. Quickly quieting the blood rushing in his ears, he realized Soohyun must’ve pulled them on in a hurry to meet Ronan, not realizing that they were AJ’s. Still, those were definitely his boxers. A pair which Ronan had given him as a joke, actually. They were navy blue and covered in little Korean flags. Ronan had thought it was hilarious. But it also meant that Ronan would’ve definitely recognized them. On Soohyun. In addition to all of the hickeys covering his chest.
He took Soohyun’s face in his hands and bent his head, kissing him fully on the lips, slowly and with purpose, before pulling up again. He bit his lip and prayed Soohyun wouldn’t be too upset. “Soohyun, baby?” He swallowed nervously. “You said Ronan was staring?”
Soohyun nodded in agreement, brows furrowed. “Yeah, he was probably just being perverted.”
“Oh, he definitely was. But, you do realize you didn’t give him much of a choice, right?”
What?” Soohyun’s eyes opened wider, completely confused.
“You’re wearing my boxers and…” You’re covered in hickeys. No, he couldn’t say that, it just didn’t sound right. “And… you’re not wearing a shirt.” Straightening his arms so Soohyun could see for himself, AJ took a deep breath, already feeling Soohyun tensing up.
Soohyun’s arms flew up to cover his chest, face turning a bright shade of red as realization dawned on him. Ronan had seen… He groaned and rolled onto his stomach, burying his face into the pillows. Ronan had seen some things he should’ve never seen. Why did he have to come so early?
Lowering himself carefully onto Soohyun’s back, AJ pressed gentle kisses into the creases of his neck, rubbing a hand along Soohyun’s side. “Don’t worry too much, okay? Ronan won’t say anything. He… already kind of knew everything anyway. Somehow. Besides,” he smirked, running his thumb along Soohyun’s waistband. “You look really sexy in my underwear.”
Soohyun felt heat rush up his neck and twisted around to say something in return but the words immediately died in his throat as he realized that he had just pushed his hips back into AJ’s. And now something warm and solid was pressed up against his backside and all of the thoughts from the night before were flooding into his mind and he could only stay frozen in place and stare up at AJ’s equally stunned expression. He took a deep shuddering breath and his fingers tightened in the sheets.
“Mmm, uhh…” AJ stammered, trying to keep his body from moving in response to Soohyun’s. Should he apologize? Was this something he should apologize for? Especially in this moment, when Soohyun was feeling embarrassed. “Sorry,” he mumbled. “You’re just… really…” He looked down at him, at the expanse of bare skin beneath him calling for him to touch it. He wanted him now and he had wanted him last night and he would want him forever. He wasn’t sorry for that. “Irresistible,” he finished.
Soohyun looked down at the bed, biting his lip before peering back over his shoulder. “I know what you mean…” He ground his hips slowly back against AJ’s growing erection, anxious fidgeting making him move even more. Was this okay? Should he be this forward? He caught his own lip again, glancing from AJ’s face, down his body, and back up again. Screw it. This was AJ, he could do what he wanted without being judged. He moved his right hand to the side, brushing his pinky against AJ’s thumb. AJ’s hand lifted and he slid his own hand underneath, repeating the process with his other hand and smiling when AJ threaded their fingers together. He arched his back, pushing up against AJ’s chest, and rocked slightly back against AJ’s hips. Even through the fabric of his -AJ’s-boxers he could feel the solid heat of AJ’s erection rubbing against his crease.
“Ah. Soohyun,” AJ gasped. This time he allowed himself to push his hips forward, Soohyun responding immediately, matching his movements and rubbing his cute little butt against him. AJ dared to push back more forcefully and Soohyun let out an encouraging moan. AJ brushed his lips softly against the back of his neck, unlinking one of his hands from Soohyun so he could stroke down his side. Soohyun had made him so hard so quickly, it really wasn’t fair. It was also unfair that from this position AJ couldn’t touch Soohyun the way he wanted to. He only longed to flip him over, so he could feel how hard Soohyun would be against him. AJ whispered in his ear, “Don’t worry Soohyun. I’m the only one who will ever see you like this.” He kissed his neck again, pressing harder than before, Soohyun arching against him in response. “Mmm, and now maybe we should get these boxers of mine off of you, huh?” he murmured.
Soohyun arched his back further, twisting his neck to give AJ more room, trying to bite back the small groans and whimpers that were escaping his lips. “Hnn, AJ,” he panted, letting out a moan as AJ thrust against him. “P-Please.” He didn’t want to wait any longer, he didn’t like having a barrier in between them-even if it was just a thin piece of fabric-and he wanted every single part of AJ to be against him. He wanted to touch everything. See everything. Last night had been passionate, heated, and incredible. But now he just wanted to take his time to explore every part of AJ that he could. He wanted to memorize every aspect of the man he loved. He pressed his hips back and ground them in a slow circle, feeling hot air blow across his neck as AJ moaned and responded with a whimper of his own.
AJ wasted no more time in grabbing the waistband of the boxers and tugging them down, revealing the smooth skin of Soohyun’s completely delicious ass. He curled his hands around it, kneading the muscles there before sliding the boxers down the rest of the way and over Soohyun’s ankles. He pressed his face close to Soohyun’s crack, feeling him shiver beneath him. “You sure you’re not too sore, baby?” he asked. “Though first…” He slid a hand under Soohyun’s side and gently turned him over to face him, letting out a moan when the other boy’s erection finally came into view. “I’m going to devour the other parts of you,” he finished, leaning in and trailing his tongue over Soohyun’s tight stomach before covering his mouth with his own.
Soohyun groaned against AJ’s lips, hips bucking upwards as he felt AJ settle on top of him, making him moan even louder as their erections brushed. His hands wound around AJ’s neck and his ankles crossed behind AJ’s thighs, crushing their bodies together as their mouths slid languidly together. Their tongues brushed softly and Soohyun let AJ take control, bringing the kiss inside of his mouth but grinding his hips up against AJ’s. He ran a hand down AJ’s spine and scraped his nails against the sensitive skin at the small of his back, drawing him impossibly closer. He could feel everything. And he loved it. How anything could be so perfect, he didn’t know.
Soohyun’s skin was back to its normal, pleasant warmth, the chill of the room replaced by the heat of their combined bodies. AJ touched him all over, his hands exploring everywhere, seeking out the raised nubs of Soohyun’s nipples and rubbing them with his thumbs, making Soohyun moan against AJ’s mouth and bend himself further upward. Then AJ’s hands slid downward, stroking down Soohyun’s sides and then inching along the inside of Soohyun’s widely spread thighs. Soohyun’s responding groan was once again swallowed by their kiss. AJ was going nice and slow, savoring every moment of Soohyun’s body pushing its need against him, of his never-ending noises of pleasure. They had lots of time. They had the whole rest of the day, after all, and then the whole night too, if need be…
AJ’s hands were warm against his skin, searing hot imprints into his muscles and making his entire body burn with a low heat. He spread his legs wider, unhooking them from behind AJ so that his heels were propped up on the bed, thighs trembling as AJ’s fingers ghosted across the sensitive skin that connected his hips to his legs. AJ was rubbing against him and all he could do was moan, head thrown back, body rocking slowly in tandem with AJ’s motions. It was almost like a dance, slow and sensual, wrapped up in each other and the music of their hearts. They were together, singing their pleasure with deep groans and whimpers. Even without practice, they knew the way, all of the steps and motions, each touch feeling perfectly right. AJ bent down and pressed their chests together, hands sliding back up Soohyun’s sides, fingers hooking around Soohyun’s biceps and bringing his arms back with a smooth motion, skin sliding against skin until AJ was pinning Soohyun’s wrists to the mattress. Soohyun bucked his hips and groaned, pushing himself up into AJ, unable to think through the pure heat that was consuming him.
Keeping his hold on Soohyun’s wrists, AJ moved his face downward, trailing his tongue over Soohyun’s nipples. He was starting to feel a little possessive, maybe just because Ronan had been checking out his lover without him knowing. Not that Ronan had meant anything by it, but this man was his, and he wanted to leave no doubt about that. He raised his head enough to see Soohyun’s face, the other boy’s lips parting as moans kept pouring from his throat. AJ hummed contentedly. Soohyun was his, and happily so. He looked the rest of him over, deciding he’d already left enough bruises on Soohyun’s poor skin. Today he’d claim him more gently. He planted soft kisses down Soohyun’s body, stopping around his belly button. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered against him. “Remember that. Even when…” He moved back up Soohyun’s body, covering him completely with his own to push him into the mattress. “… I’m not there to demonstrate it to you,” he finished, grinding against him harder than before.
Soohyun groaned, hips bucking up into AJ’s, wrists pushing against AJ’s palms. He panted heavily, looking up into AJ’s face. “I’m not b-beautiful,” he whimpered. He saw AJ start to frown and pouted a bit before squirming against the covers. “If anything, I’m handsome.”
“Oh yeah?” AJ murmured in reply. He rested his head in the crook of Soohyun’s shoulder, breathing into his ear. “Being tricky, are we? Well, I’m not sure you believe it yet. What do I have to do to convince you, mmm?”
He released Soohyun’s wrists at last, but before Soohyun had time to react, AJ’s hands were holding down his hips as his face lowered to Soohyun’s groin. Soohyun let out a strangled yelp as AJ’s tongue slid all the way down his erection and then back up to the tip. He writhed below him, high-pitched yells spilling from his throat as AJ’s hot breath teased his pulsing member before AJ finally took him in his mouth.
Soohyun laced his fingers in AJ’s hair and arched his back, hips pushing up into AJ’s hands. He tugged at AJ’s head a bit and waited for AJ to look up at him before panting, “I thought you were going to… convince me?” AJ lifted his eyebrows. “Right now… all I’m getting… is that you-ngg-you like my d-dick,” he breathed, stuttering as AJ continued to tease him with his tongue. He swallowed quickly and groaned as AJ pulled back, tightening his lips as he went and teasing his slit one last time before releasing Soohyun completely. Soohyun panted quietly for a few moments before sliding his hands down to AJ’s shoulders, using them to keep his balance as he sat up and pushed himself onto his knees. He darted forward to press a quick kiss to AJ’s lips. “Jaeseop,” he murmured, pushing at AJ’s shoulders, ignoring the confused frown curving his mouth. Then he quickly ducked down, pushing AJ down onto the bed and pinning him in place.
He smiled up at him sweetly. “My turn,” he said, lips curving into a small smile before opening to encompass AJ’s length, creating a circle of wet heat around it before running his tongue along the head. He hummed lowly in the back of his throat. He could feel AJ’s weight in his mouth, taste him against his tongue. He swallowed slowly and let his tongue take another pass across AJ’s slit, gathering the salty liquid there and smearing it around the tip. He felt AJ jerk and had to stop himself from gagging as something hit the back of his throat, taking a moment to calm himself before pulling back and taking a breath through his nose, encouraged by the sounds AJ had made to dip his head back down, not stopping until AJ once again hit the back of his throat.
AJ’s cock twitched against his tongue and Soohyun shivered, moaning lowly as AJ’s fingers tangled in his hair, letting out a string of unintelligible sounds as he writhed beneath Soohyun’s touch. Soohyun loved it. He was the one giving AJ so much pleasure, so many sensations that he couldn’t even control himself. He moaned again, rubbing his thumbs over the smooth skin of AJ’s hips, then began pulling back, dragging his lips tightly against AJ’s length. His mouth came free with a wet sound and he swallowed timidly before looking up into AJ’s hooded eyes, taking in his flushed chest and opened legs. He swallowed again, throat suddenly dry. “You’re beautiful,” he whispered.
AJ gave one last moan and then pulled Soohyun down on top of him. He took a second to gasp, “You. Are. Incredible,” before grasping Soohyun tighter and crushing their lips together.
Soohyun whimpered softly into the kiss, squirming so that his thighs were on either side of AJ’s hips, brushing their erections together and letting out a tiny, high-pitched whine. AJ’s hands snaked back to his waist, giving a small squeeze until moving further back and shaping around his backside. He moaned into AJ’s mouth, collapsing weakly on top of him, as strong fingers began to massage at his muscles. He felt completely boneless, immobile, as AJ continued to fill him with warmth, tongue caressing the inside of his mouth, hips grinding slowly together, hands still smoothing along his skin. He let his mind go black and gave into the sensations, groaning weakly against AJ’s lips.
AJ hoisted himself up, shifting their entwined bodies slowly and moving Soohyun backwards, letting Soohyun down gently onto the mattress and arranging himself on top. “Baby,” he whispered. He stroked the soft skin of Soohyun’s hips. “My sweet, beautiful Soohyun.”
Soohyun whimpered and wrapped his arms around AJ’s neck, curling his fingers against the warm skin of AJ’s back. “Jae-Jaeseop.” He arched his neck as AJ began to kiss up its side, thumbs still rubbing circles against his hips. He scraped his nails gently across AJ’s skin as a path was made from his shoulder to his jaw line, making a turn before ending at his lips. He groaned softly when AJ’s tongue slid over his bottom lip, letting out a soft whine when it was pulled between AJ’s teeth, sucked into his mouth for a brief moment before being released. He urged AJ down with weak pulls of his arms, small contractions of his otherwise jelly-like muscles. Their chests brushed and his eyes rolled back a bit, AJ’s tongue inside his mouth extracting another breathy sound from his throat. “J-Jaeseop,” he whimpered, hardly able to think. “I-I-…” He broke off with a keen, nails scraping small lines into AJ’s back.
AJ pulled away to murmur against Soohyun’s lips, “What do you want, Soohyun? Tell me what you want.” He licked the curl of Soohyun’s ear. “I want to hear you say it.”
Soohyun whined from the back of his throat, pressing against AJ’s body with his own. “I-I want…”
He broke off with a strangled groan when AJ took his earlobe into his mouth, sucking on it softly before once again whispering in his ear, What, Soohyun? What do you want?
Soohyun groaned and tilted his head closer to AJ’s touch. How could he expect an answer when he was making it so impossible for Soohyun to think? He scratched his fingers down AJ’s back, taking a shuddering breath before trying to gather his thoughts. “I-I want… I want you to make love to me.” He blushed and bit his lip, staring up at AJ with pleading eyes. “Please, Jaeseop?” He whimpered when their skin brushed again, eyes fluttering shut. “Please, Jaeseop. I-I want you. So much. Please.”
Soohyun’s words made the heat in AJ’s body, like slow-moving lava, surge and threaten to overflow. AJ kissed him solidly. “Don’t worry, baby,” he breathed. “No more need to beg.” He pushed himself up, glancing around for the lube, which luckily he had placed right back on the night stand the night before. He propped himself up to grab it, returning to Soohyun immediately and popping the cap open. He looked down at Soohyun’s still heaving chest, spreading Soohyun’s legs a little wider around him. He coated his fingers and lowered his hand to Soohyun’s crack, biting his lip. No matter how Soohyun had reassured him before, he would still be sore and AJ should be careful. He leaned down to connect their lips again. “Tell me if it hurts too much, babe,” he said, before pushing his first finger in, as slowly as he could.
Soohyun immediately let out a low hiss, back arching as a throb of pain shot up his spine. He bit down on AJ’s lip and crushed their mouths closer, trying to force himself to relax. He wanted this. And if he acted too uncomfortable, AJ would stop. So he pushed his chest closer to AJ’s, spread his legs wider, and bit back the little whimper of pain that threatened to bubble out of his throat when AJ added a second finger, sliding it in next to the first and twisting it around. His brow furrowed and his arms tightened around AJ’s shoulders. He knew he could get through it, just this first step, and then he would be with AJ again and they’d both feel good. Just a little longer…
“You don’t need to hide it,” AJ told him, stroking Soohyun’s face with his free hand. His tongue flicked over his lips, tasting a little blood there from when Soohyun had bit down. “I’m sorry,” he said, kissing Soohyun’s forehead. But he didn’t stop, pushing a third finger in as Soohyun tensed further against him. Soohyun had asked for this, and AJ wanted it too, so much, when he would erase everything except pleasure from Soohyun’s mind. “I’ll make up for it soon,” he whispered, returning to Soohyun’s lips. He reached around inside him for Soohyun’s prostate-he’d relieve Soohyun of a least a little pain immediately. He knew he’d been successful when Soohyun’s hips bucked against him. Maybe not as enthusiastic as last time, but it would do. He removed his fingers carefully, Soohyun letting out a sigh against his lips.
Relaxing a bit against the mattress, Soohyun tried to catch his breath, chest rising and falling at a heightened pace as he tried to recollect his thoughts. It had hurt, more than he was expecting. But AJ had been gentle, and caring, and had tried his best to make him feel good. And really, he still wanted it. He wanted to be connected to AJ again, to feel their bodies become one. No matter what, he wanted that. He could only hope that AJ knew that too, that he wouldn’t be too worried, or be afraid of putting him in pain. AJ once again reached for the lube and Soohyun’s breath caught in his throat, knowing what he could do. His fingers caught around AJ’s wrist, pushing it to the side so he could grab the lube himself, squeezing some onto his fingers before looking back up into AJ’s eyes. “Let me,” he murmured, hand already curling around AJ’s throbbing length.
AJ’s breath caught as Soohyun’s hand stroked him, coating him completely, the trapped air finally emerging as a low moan. He’d never wanted Soohyun more. His hands on him, his mouth on him, his warmth surrounding him, he wanted it all.
He moaned again when Soohyun released him. He pressed him back into the mattress, kissing him deeply. He gave Soohyun’s erection one last lingering touch, rubbing his thumb over the tip before asking, “Are you ready, baby?”
Soohyun whimpered loudly in response, bucking his hips up and clinging to AJ’s back. “Yes, yes, Jaeseop yes just please Jaeseop please.” He scrambled at AJ’s back as he felt something warm press against his entrance. He whined as it slid further in, AJ using small thrusts of his hips until he was fully seated. Soohyun’s legs were trembling, his back tightened up like a bow, unsure of whether to moan or scream. Because damnit, it hurt. But at the same time he was happy, warm, comfortable and reassured. AJ was inside of him, a part of him, and no matter what his body said, it was an amazing feeling. He groaned into AJ’s mouth and pulled him closer, urging him to move with small movements of his hips. AJ’s fingers curled around his length and stroked, hips pulling out before pushing back in, making him grit his teeth and his eyes flutter closed. The pain and the pleasure were mixed together, until he could hardly tell the difference. He let out a breathy moan as AJ began to move inside of him, thrusting at a slow pace, strong and steady movements of his hips making him writhe against the sheets.
AJ let the heat between their moving bodies build gradually, aware of every moan that fell from Soohyun’s lips and every responding pulse and tremor. His hand was still on Soohyun’s member, every now and then giving him a lingering stroke, but focusing his full energy on the meeting of their hips. This time, he wanted to feel Soohyun climb to the height of passion, every second of their journey there together, every moment of the sweet fire growing between them before they fell over the edge. Together. Slowly his measured pace gave way to a different rhythm, his thrusts deeper and longer, Soohyun’s cries even louder as AJ found the spot inside him that erased everything else, again and again.
Soohyun couldn’t believe what he was feeling. He felt almost like he was hovering, detached from his body and looking down, watching AJ move and groan against him, hearing his own sounds of pleasure. But at the same time he could feel everything, as if every nerve ending in his body was on overdrive. Each brush of skin, each meeting of lips, every movement that sent AJ deep inside of him, connecting them in a way he had never felt before. Arms looping under Soohyun’s body, one at his back and the other at his shoulders, AJ pulled them close. Soohyun’s legs spread wider and his mouth opened in a breathy gasp, entire body quivering as he felt the effects of their combined heat. A small whimper escaped his lips, hips twitching anxiously as AJ remained buried deep inside of him, unmoving, just holding Soohyun tight to his chest. Shifting forward, a jolt of pleasure shot up his spine, making him flex further into AJ’s body, kept in place by strong arms. And then he was a moaning mess, unable to think of anything but the way AJ was moving, filling him up, completing him and holding him in a way no one else could. All he could see was AJ’s face, eyes flickering and unfocused as the pressure on his prostrate continued, AJ rutting slowly inside of him. A low moan escaped his throat and he could feel the wetness of his lips when AJ kissed him, tongue sliding inside of his mouth and drawing him closer to the edge.
AJ traced the full cavern of Soohyun’s mouth before breaking away to say, “Soohyun, baby.” He was mostly incoherent himself, but the words sprang from his lips anyway. He needed Soohyun to know he was thinking of him, only of him, his undone form beneath him while he was still so deep inside him. Soohyun moaned in response and AJ kissed him again before whispering, “Come for me baby. Come for me.”
Soohyun’s eyes flew open, seeing nothing as an impossibly loud groan was ripped from his throat, climax rushing through him like as an unstoppable force. His hips jerked helplessly into AJ’s body, fingers digging into AJ’s back, chest freezing as his entire body arched, spilling between their stomachs while his toes curled in the sheets. Between the mess of moans and incoherencies, the only words that fell from his lips were AJ’s name, and how much he loved him. Whispered into the mouth of his lover, moaned into the bed they shared, screamed to fill the entire room. It was all he could think about it. In this moment, only AJ. Only him.
As his muscles went limp, legs falling open and head lilting to the side, AJ began to move again, strong thrusts of his hips that had Soohyun moaning weakly, unable to keep up. He felt AJ’s hands tighten on against his skin, felt him move faster, harder, searching for his own end. Their eyes met, dark and intense staring into hazy and unfocused, unable to look away as they held each other. Soohyun let out a low groan, legs shaking, still too sensitive and overwhelmed to do anything but writhe weakly against the sheets. His lips parted, eyes still partially shut, and he listened to the frantic moaning of his name, holding AJ closer to whisper in his ear. “Jaeseop, come for me. I want to feel it.”
Soohyun’s words shot straight into him, the heat inside him plunging over the edge. One more thrust and AJ released inside of him, uttering a long, final moan, until at last his body was still. For a moment he just listened to Soohyun’s breathing against his ear, still uneven, matching his own gradually slowing gasps. He lowered himself gently, settling as close as he could without crushing him. He didn’t want any separation between them. He kissed him gently, on the lips then on his cheeks, on his forehead, on his nose, then down his neck. “You’re amazing,” he whispered.
Soohyun hummed gently in the back of his throat, eyes still mostly closed as he tilted his head back, giving AJ more room. His entire body still felt fuzzy, detached, as if he was floating on air. Everything was warm and comfortable. “You too,” he murmured, finally opening his eyes all the way. His hands traced over AJ’s ears, drawing him back up, linking their mouths together. “You make me feel so good.” He pressed another kiss to AJ’s lips, breath ghosting warmly across moist skin. “Jaeseop, I-I want to stay like this. Can we?” He pulled back a bit, staring at AJ with pleading eyes. “Please?”
“Of course,” AJ said, a little surprised. He hadn’t known it would comfortable for Soohyun for him to stay inside him like this, but judging by the look in Soohyun’s eyes all the pain was gone. He smiled, running a hand through Soohyun’s hair. “I’m just glad you’re so happy, Soohyun,” he said, before reconnecting their lips. It was so nice, feeling so warm and connected. He didn’t want to change anything either.
“Mmm, of course I’m happy. I have you.” Soohyun smiled into the kiss and wrapped his arms around AJ’s neck, pulling him further down. The position was a little awkward, now that he thought about it. It would probably be easier if AJ had taken him from behind. But somehow, that just wouldn’t have been as perfect. He had wanted to see AJ, to memorize his every feature. Maybe in the future they could do more, but for now, he knew that it had been perfect. Even if he was a little crushed at the moment, he still didn’t want to let AJ go. He wanted to hold onto him, the feeling of him, the smell of him, the taste of him, until he was forced to leave it all behind. He tightened his arms, pressing harder into the kiss, eyes clenching shut as he tried to forget. AJ was finally his, but he was going to have to go back. Alone.
When Soohyun’s hold finally relaxed a little, AJ pulled back to look at him. He knew what that extra tightness had meant. He rested his hand on Soohyun’s cheek, rubbing his thumb against it. “And you’ll always have me,” he said, “No matter where I am, and no matter where you are. Okay? Not that…” AJ lowered his face, hiding it in Soohyun’s neck. “Not that I won’t miss you terribly. But…” He raised his head again. “I’ll be back with you before you know it. But for now…” He gave Soohyun a quick peck. “We don’t need to worry about any of that.”
Soohyun nodded slowly, fingers gently tracing over AJ’s lips. He wanted to believe him, he really did. But it was just so hard to imagine going back without AJ by his side. To have to get on that plane, knowing what he was leaving behind. He let out a sigh, nails scraping gently across AJ’s cheek. “AJ…” Soohyun knew his voice sounded weak, he knew it sounded pathetic, but he didn’t care anymore. He looked helplessly into AJ’s eyes, feeling wetness gathering behind his own. “AJ… make me forget. I-I don’t want to think about it anymore.” He shut his eyes and took a shuddering breath, fingers clenching a bit before releasing again. It felt like all of AJ’s carefully placed stitches were coming undone, and it wasn’t even time for him to go. Fear suddenly clenched his heart. What was going to happen, when he really had to leave? Was everything just going to go back to the way it was before?
AJ felt tears coming to his own eyes too. He couldn’t stand to see Soohyun like this. “No, baby, no,” he mumbled, wiping away the first drop that escaped from Soohyun’s eye. “Don’t…” He leaned in and kissed him harder, feeling Soohyun settle into the kiss. How could he make him forget? How could he chase away his fears? He’d already used the only way he knew how. Even that hadn’t been enough. There might never be enough to erase all the darkness from Soohyun’s heart. But AJ had to try anyway. He had to keep giving him everything, everything he had and everything he was.
Soohyun’s lips parted from his and AJ said against them, “Soohyun. You are already so strong. You’ve already done this much and now you can do anything. You are the sun that brings us to life and the ground that lifts us up. You are everything I want to be and everything I could ask for. And I love you. I love you so much.” He pulled one of Soohyun’s hands to him, intertwining their fingers. “And that will never leave you. There’s nowhere you can go where you won’t have my love. Nowhere.” He kissed Soohyun’s hand, feeling one of his own tears slide onto it as he did so. He wished he weren’t breaking down but he couldn’t help it. His heart was singing every word and his eyes reflected it. “It’ll always be there with you. I’ll always be there with you.” A smile tugged up the corner of his mouth. “Besides…” He traced some of the marks on Soohyun’s chest and neck with his other hand. “You already have these to take home with you.”
Soohyun sniffled, unable to help the smile that pulled at the corner of his lips. He wiped at his eyes before letting out a small laugh. “Yeah, I just hope the cordi-noonas don’t try to put me into something too scary. I can’t imagine what would happen if they saw.” He swallowed slowly before looking down, stroking a hand down AJ’s chest before looking up again, letting his fingers settle just above AJ’s heart. It beat steadily against his palm and he sighed, closing his eyes as he lay back against the sheets. Suddenly, he had an idea. He pushed himself up a bit then blushed when he felt AJ move inside of him, slipping out a bit at his sudden change in position. He pointed shyly at the nightstand. “Could you hand me my phone?”
“Yes?” AJ consented questioningly. He put a hand on Soohyun’s hip to keep them in position while he reached to get it. Then he placed it in Soohyun’s hand, though a little warily. Was Soohyun going to do what he thought he was going to do with it? Something that involved… storing naked pictures of him? Because he wasn’t sure that was a good idea. Then again, thinking about Soohyun looking at them later, and liking them… That sounded nice.
Soohyun took his phone and unlocked the screen, carefully scrolling through the icons until he reached the one he wanted. He clicked on it then pressed his phone to AJ’s chest, as tight to his skin as he could get it, before hitting the small button in the center of his screen. He caught AJ’s questioning eyes and smiled a bit, threading his free hand through AJ’s short hair before pulling him down, locking their mouths together. He traced the inside of AJ’s mouth with his tongue slowly, not to arouse but to make him feel. After what he thought was a satisfying amount of time, he pulled away, licking his lips slowly as he clicked the ‘end’ button on his app, saving the file before opening another. This time, he looked AJ carefully in the eyes before pulling him down, guiding his chin to his shoulder, urging him down onto the bed. He pressed a gentle kiss to his neck before pressing his phone there. He wrapped an arm around AJ’s shoulders and squeezed. “Just relax, please. I need this.” And then he hit the center button, watching the blinking red light on the screen as a minute passed, then two, then three, just holding AJ against his chest. He didn’t release his grip until he was satisfied, saving that file as well before letting AJ pull away. He smiled up at him, clutching his phone to his chest. “Thank you. I think-I think maybe I’ll be okay… if I have this…”
AJ smiled too, partially at Soohyun and partially at himself for assuming Soohyun was going to do something perverted, when Soohyun was just being his sweet vulnerable self and AJ was the one thinking naughty things. But those thoughts had had their time and now AJ just wanted to return Soohyun’s tenderness. “I guess it wouldn’t hurt to have some of me to carry around with you too,” he said, giving Soohyun a few pecks in a row. “Though you can’t keep my love on your phone,” he added, kissing Soohyun’s forehead. “The file size is way too big.”
“Mmmm…” Soohyun mumbled, smiling. “What if I get a 100 gigabyte phone?” he asked.
“Nope, still too small,” AJ said.
“What about… 100 terabytes?”
“Nope, still wouldn’t fit.”
“A million terabytes?”
“Nope.” AJ kissed him. “Still not big enough.”
“Then how big would it need to be?” Soohyun asked, letting his voice come out as childish as he could make it.
AJ answered, “Mmm… It would have to be… big enough to hold every drop of water in the ocean, and then all the water from every lake and river and all the rain from the clouds and snow from the mountain tops, and then…” AJ stroked Soohyun’s cheek. “Humans are made of water, so it’d have to hold every drop of sweat and every tear from every single person on the planet, and then after that it would still have to have room for all the light from every star in the sky…”
Soohyun let AJ go on, nuzzling his face against him. He already knew the answer to his question. The whole universe wasn't big
enough to hold his happiness.
AJ nuzzled him back. “So I guess,” he said, “until technology gets better, you’ll just have to carry it in here.” He placed a hand over Soohyun’s heart.
Soohyun covered the hand with his own, smiling. Even if he couldn’t carry AJ’s love on his phone, he could carry a bit of his comfort, a bit of his reassurance. He could carry the memories of what they had done and hang onto them when things got tough. His fingers tightened around AJ’s, praying that he would always remember those words and that his heart would be able to hold the feelings AJ had for him, that they wouldn’t be pushed away. Taking a deep breath, he lifted himself up, connecting their lips for only a moment before pulling back and looking up at AJ with a small smile. “I wouldn’t want to keep it anywhere else.”