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/ mom divorces dad
/ dad finds a house
/ yoyo lives with dad
/ grandma won't go back to vegas
/ dad is seeing someone
/ mom is selling the house

/ obama wins?

i can't think of something positive
negativity prevails in winter months

i want to meet every other intelligent peer around me

my instructor was too old to even have a job. he can't hear me and criticized me for cracking my knuckles. he also had me driving in circles in a residential area for an hour ( Read more... )

in 3 hours i leave for grand lake, colorado. i'm not aure if excited is the word for me right now, but it is a positive feeling. i always say i want to leave and now im getting it. it may not be africa, but it is high up away from bullshit towns. im hoping on this trip i will somehow reinvent myself with reflection, expierences and appreciation. ( Read more... )

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i am so done with you and that plaaaacceee blah blah blah la la.

no tears here.
im happier sitting at home than enduring treatment i don't deserve.

i truly believe better things will come for me. if not this summer, soon.

sometimes i think it would be better if my life were a complete joke.

im scared of wasting my life

im scared of where its going
of what im losing

and im always scared of letting go

"jesus christ im alone again so what did you those 3 days you were dead?"