I loved you so very much, you just had no clue ( Read more... )

Well what can i say? My life hasn't gotten any better. I'm sorry Nelson for breaking your heart, I really didn't mean to. The letter you gave me was a little stalkerish and scarey, stop. Yeah, I'm sorry I made you cry. Please forgive me. Anyway, I'm at Cindy's house right now, she is THE COOLEST, eating a orange ice cream thingy and drinking orange ( Read more... )

It's thursday the 28th and it's josh's birthday. I had this entire day planed i was going to skip school and hang out with him all day and then i was going to cook him dinner and desert and give him his birthday gift. But that has all changed. I was thinking about everyone in my life and then it hit me. People are assholes to me. I try to be a nice ( Read more... )

my life is so fucked up fo me now. I'm so stressed out because of school, and josh and rotc, and band.I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown or sucide. I love josh so much more than i ever loved a guy. He has been the first guy i have fallin in love with. And he just might be the last. But they thing is me ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I miss josh so much. I never thought i wouldfall in love with him so much, but i did and i hope he is ok. Hopefully i will get to talk to him sometime today. last night i had a dream about spenser and my past, it was when spenser and i where going out. I had a dream where it was during lunch and i was eating ( Read more... )

I'm going to go insane! I havent seen or talk to josh in like a week! What do i do? I miss him so much! Well i moved back in with my mom. It's werid ut i guessi will have to get use to it. We passed our B.C.I I'm so happy!! And i'm on the drill team for our compotion april 23.Um yeah i really dont know what to say in fact that i miss josh so much! ( Read more... )

Well how is everyone today? Me i'm in the best mood ever! And i'm gonna tell ya'll why. Ok well last month on march 6th the best boyfriend in the whole world asked me out. And know we have been going out for a month today! HE's is the best. Well am still living at Gabby's, yeah.Life for me is being great ( Read more... )

I love you cindy your the best thank's for alway's being there for me. I love you so much your my bestest friend! And I'm really really sorry about the whole thing with ray. It will get better like i said ( Read more... )

Well this is the only time i can actually up-date so here I am.Let's see what has happend to me in like a month.....Well as you all should no my love of my life "my shining star" broke up with me Feb. 8 '05. I went to the military ball and i was beatiful.And even thow i cried my eye's out for hour's i had a ok time. And the reason why i was crying ( Read more... )

Well today is sunday!!! Which means a few thing's. Like one SUPER BOWL!!!!, church. This weekend was awesome..(could have been better if i saw my boyfriend)But yeah let's see friday was great saw my boyfriend(yay) went to anderson talked to Dana and Ray,and a few other people, went home, ate some food, b/c I was hungry.lol Then i was suppose to go ( Read more... )