Shattered Love (Chapter 2)
Title: Shattered Love
Pairings: Yunjae & Yoosu
Genre: Angst, romance, drama
Rating: From PG to NC-17
Length 2/8
Summary: Things become slightly unstable in DBSK when Jaejoong asks for one night from Yunho.
Warnings: Mild cursing and a few rated scenes.
Chapters: ||1||
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The time slid by slowly for Jaejoong. He couldn’t stop staring at Yunho, wondering if tonight would be the night he experienced the thing he’d only dreamed of.
Shudders kept racing down his spine every time he passed the guest bedroom, or saw that yet another hour had passed on the clock. Slowly, ever so slowly, the time for Yunho to make a decision was drawing closer.
The younger boy hadn’t said a word to Jaejoong since he’d last seen him in the stairwell; in fact, he had yet to even acknowledge Jaejoong’s presence within the room.
“I’m going to bed.” Yunho called, as he put the last dish into the cabinet, threw his towel onto the table-top and made his way from the room, never even sparing a glance in Jaejoong’s direction.
‘Good nights’ echoed around the room for a moment before every one turned their attention back onto the television screen.
Jaejoong was the only one who was off by himself in a corner, flipping through the pages of a book, acting as if he were reading. Ever since the other members had come back to the apartment, they had looked at him strangely, like he wasn’t Jaejoong anymore. None of them had tried to say anything, but Jae could feel that they wanted to. Yunho had probably told them to leave the it alone.
Three hours later, at 11:30, the other three members went to bed, leaving Jaejoong sitting in the living room, still flipping through his book, even though he only took-in and understood every-other word.
“Okay.” He breathed, shutting his book as he heard the bedroom door close, signaling that he was clear to make his way to the guest bedroom.
Once there, nerves began to creep up on him, causing his hands to turn ice cold and shake slightly. He was wondering what he was going to do if Yunho showed up. It was obvious that the band leader wasn’t going to rush into his arms and make passionate love to the older boy. So it was going to up to Jaejoong to entice his straight leader.
Jaejoong jumped and nearly yelled when he felt a warm hand tap him gentle on the shoulder.
Spinning around, almond shaped eyes large, he saw Yunho standing behind him, he couldn’t think of anything to say but, “y-yes?”
“Alright, you have one night, then this will all be forgotten. You won’t cling to me or beg me ever again.” It wasn’t a question, it was a command that left no other option but for Jaejoong to nod his head in silent shock.
He couldn’t believe that Yunho was actually going to have sex with him. The very realization made him dizzy, thankfully he was sitting down.
“Well?” Yunho questioned, raising an eyebrow, “Are you just going to sit there?”
Jaejoong flinched and stood from the bed before reaching over and turning off the light so the room was hidden in shadows. He was too nervous to look Yunho in the face, too scared to see the cold look he knew was lurking there.
“Relax.” Jaejoong breathed as he smoothed his hands over Yunho’s shoulders, stepping closer to breathe in the others scent. The very smell of Yunho was like an aphrodisiac for Jaejoong.
Yunho pulled in a deep breath and forced himself to relax under Jaejoong’s small hands. He had planned on not coming; he just wanted to avoid the whole situation. Yet he knew that it had to be dealt with or the band would suffer. So he was going to give Jaejoong what he wanted so this could all be put behind them.
“What do you want me to do?”
“I don’t want you to act like a mindless drone. Touch me…kiss me…make me remember this night forever.” Jaejoong whispered against Yunho’s ear as he plastered himself against the younger boy.
“Dominate me.”
A shiver shot down Yunho’s spine at Jaejoong’s words. That breathy plea was enough to excite his body.
“I’ve never done this with a guy.” Yunho breathed, trying to keep from taking a step back from Jaejoong. It felt so odd having his friend of six years rubbing up against him like that.
“It’s okay, it’s not that different.” Jaejoong breathed, his lips whispering over Yunho’s jaw, placing feather light kisses along the unshaven stubble of Yunho’s face.
“I think it is.” Yunho breathed his body tensing as Jaejoong became more comfortable with touching him. He almost felt anxiety, like he had no other choice but to indulge Jaejoong.
“Don’t just stand there, return my attention.” Jaejoong instructed, grabbing Yunho’s hand and placing it on his waist. “Don’t be afraid of me.” He whispered against the other’s lips before leaning forward slightly to deepen the kiss.
Yunho flinched slightly, his first reaction was to move away from the kiss; however he knew what was required of him, so he slowly parted his lips and returned the attention timidly.
Jaejoong, feeling Yunho respond slightly, took the opportunity and slid his tongue between the other boys lips, savoring the taste of mint tooth-paste and something else…something that was exclusively Yunho.
His body burned with pure desire, but he held himself back, incase Yunho was still on the edge of running from the room.
How a simple kiss had gone into an exploration of the inside of his mouth, Yunho didn’t know, but he did know that Jaejoong was extremely good at kissing. Apparently the boy had gotten more practice then he let on.
Lifting his tongue slightly, Yunho let it brush against Jaejoong’s, an odd sensation shooting through his body at the simple touch. Intrigued, he made the move again, this time taking a bolder step by slipping his tongue into Jaejoong’s mouth. He felt the silky inside of Jaejoong’s mouth, his entire face tingling from the odd sensation of being in Jaejoong’s mouth.
He pulled back quickly when he heard Jaejoong moan deeply, like his simple touch was a taste of heaven.
“Don’t stop.” Jaejoong panted, pulling back and licking his lips to remove Yunho’s masculine taste.
“I want you to kiss me like that.” He growled as he tangled his hands in Yunho’s hair and returned to the kiss.
Twisting slightly, Jaejoong sank onto the bed, trying not to break the impassioned kiss. He wanted to feel Yunho’s bare skin, wanted to devour every inch of his body and then have the favor returned.
“What?” Jaejoong questioned with a slight pout as Yunho pulled away from his touch, refusing to get onto the bed.
“Jae,” Yunho paused and licked his swollen lips, “I’m not sure I can do this. It’s too weird.”
“We’ve just gotten started Yunho, let me show you how good it can be.” Jaejoong enticed, afraid that Yunho would leave him highly aroused and wanting much more.
He couldn’t back out now, that he knew, he also knew that there was no way he was going to be able to have a normal relationship with Jaejoong after this night.
“Alright.” Yunho finally sighed, sinking slowly onto the bed. “Just don’t move so fast.”
“We couldn’t be moving any slower.” Jae pointed out with a small arch of his eyebrows.
“It feels fast to me. I’ve never kissed another guy and I’ve never had sex with one. This is all kind of strange…don’t you think?”
Jaejoong sat up on his knees and slowly pressed closer to Yunho, “Nothing has ever felt more natural to me, then to kiss you.” He whispered before letting his lips feather over Yunho’s.
“Why do you like me?” Yunho sighed, turning his face away so Jaejoong couldn’t kiss him.
Jaejoong sat back and flipped on the light, a look of slight annoyance on his face, “I love you because you’re my rock when I’m down, you’re the one who picks me up out of the mud and helps me, even if it means you get dirty yourself. I love you because whenever I’m around you I feel safe because I know that you’ll take care of me, you won’t judge me, but try to help me. You know me better than anyone else in this world and I trust you more than anyone else. This is why I love you, Jung Yunho.”
“You’re serious…” Yunho breathed, watching as a look of love and devotion spread across Jaejoong’s face, giving him a beautiful glow in the dimly lit room.
“I’m not anything like what you described…you make me sound perfect…”
“You are my perfection, Yunho!” Jaejoong breathed, pulling closer and tangling his fingers in Yunho’s hair, an intense look of desire lurking within his eyes, but in those deep eyes was also a look that showed he spoke nothing but truth.
“Jae, I’m so sorry. I think I’ve been insensitive to you. I knew you liked me, but I was afraid what would happen to the band, so I never mentioned it. I just let you suffer while I enjoyed my life.” Yunho breathed, dark eyes filled with sorrow for what he had done.
“Then make-up for it tonight. Don’t hold anything back.” Jaejoong whispered lightly, his lips running along Yunho’s jaw, punctuating ever word with a kiss.
Yunho turned his head slightly, catching Jaejoong’s soft lips with his own, trying to enjoy the gentle way Jaejoong’s tongue danced across his bottom lip, seeking entrance into his mouth.
Two bodies fell back onto the bed, hands tangled within silky hair at one moment then running along the smooth planes of well-muscled bodies, slowly lifting into the highs of passion.
Doubts, fears and questions faded from their minds as they slowly drifted into Nirvana, nothing mattering but their time together.
Yunho, having been under Jaejoong, rolled over easily, pinning the smaller boy beneath him. Hungry lips sought the boy’s neck, sucking and nipping a trail down his throat to the collar of the Jaejoong’s shirt.
Despite himself, Yunho wanted to feel more of that silk-soft skin beneath his fingers, wanted to taste every inch of the boy.
“Are you just going to sit there and look at my shirt or take it off of me?” Jaejoong panted, flushed face staring up at Yunho with a soft smile.
“You’re always in such a rush.” Yunho growled as he hooked his fingers under Jaejoong’s shirt and pulled it towards the older boy’s head, eyes raking over golden skin as the fabric slowly slid away.
Jaejoong sat up slightly and quickly threw off his shirt before doing the same for Yunho.
The man was absolutely incredible. Not a flaw upon the golden skin that was pulled taught across a strong abdomen and smooth chest.
“Whoa.” Jae breathed lightly, coming up to let his fingers trail along Yunho’s torso, surprised at how soft his skin was.
“That tickles.” Yunho laughed, brushing away Jaejoong’s hand and pushing him back onto the bed. “You’re less like a girl then I’d thought.” He commented as he slid down Jaejoong’s body, stopping when he was hovering over the other boys’ stomach.
“Thank you…?”
Yunho opted to place sloppy kisses all over Jaejoong’s body rather than further his conversation with the boy.
Jaejoong moaned loudly, his eyes fluttering shut as Yunho sucked lightly on one of his nipples then bit it lightly before drawing back and blowing cool air across the hypersensitive skin.
“Yunho!” Jae groaned, lifting his hips off the bed and grinding against the younger boy, seeking some kind of release from his painful erection.
Yunho moaned deep within his throat when Jaejoong rose off the bed, pure desire shooting through his body at the feel of the older boy’s arousal.
“Your pants, take them off.” Yunho commanded, moving so Jaejoong could have more room to maneuver.
Jaejoong didn’t waste any time before sliding off his flannel “house-pants” and then quickly removing his boxers.
“Now you’re turn.” He growled at Yunho, turning expectant eyes upon him.
Yunho let his eyes slide over Jaejoong’s body, an awkward feeling drifting over him, “You’ve done this before, right?”
“Yes!” Jaejoong growled sitting up and jerking at Yunho’s pants, “Now stop stalling or I’ll tear your pants off!” He threatened, dark eyes intense with arousal.
Yunho swallowed the lump in his throat before slowly divesting himself of both pants and boxers.
Seeing Jaejoong looking at him like a hungry animal was a little embarrassing and rather un-nerving. “So…”
“So we go back to what we were doing.” Jaejoong breathed as he pulled Yunho down on top of him and lifted his hips off the bed, groaning deeply as his erection met Yunho’s.
Yunho moaned lightly, once again feeling uneasy with the whole situation.
“I feel like I’m humping a post. Do something other than moan.” Jaejoong growled, slowing his pace to an insanely slow grind.
“Sorry.” Yunho managed to whisper before the air left his lungs in a strangled yell. “W-What are you doing?” He breathed as he felt Jaejoong’s hand encircle his erection and stroke down its length slowly.
“Just making sure you are as excited as I am.” He laughed as he stroked the length of Yunho’s arousal slowly, a playful smirk twitching his lips upwards.
Yunho moaned, his eyes fluttering shut as he dropped to his elbows, no longer able to support himself on his hands.
“More.” He found himself repeating in a breathless voice as he pressed against Jaejoong’s hand.
“You like this? I can do much better.” Jaejoong laughed as he sat up and pushed Yunho onto his back, his eyes traveling the length of the younger boy’s trembling and sweating form, before he slid down Yunho’s body until he was hovering over his band leaders erection.
“J-Jaejoong…D-don’t, I can’t last that long!” Yunho warned in a breathless whisper.
“Has anyone ever given you head before?”
“N-no.”
“So just admit that you’re nervous instead of telling me that you won’t last.” Jaejoong stated easily before lowering his head and letting his tongue flick across the tip of Yunho’s erection.
“Ah!” Yunho gasped, his hands clenching the bed sheets as he thrust his hips upwards almost on instinct.
“I knew you’d like it.” Jaejoong laughed before slowly taking Yunho’s length into his mouth, his tongue working slow patterns across the hot skin as he bobbed his head slightly.
“Oh my g-g- Ah!” He whimpered, his head thrashing on the pillow as he lifted his hips off the bed with force, trying to get deeper into Jaejoong’s warm mouth.
Unprepared for Yunho’s thrust, Jaejoong gagged slightly and quickly drew back, licking his lips of Yunho’s salty taste.
“I’m fine.” He assured Yunho gentle as he moved up the younger boy’s trembling body to plant a firm kiss on dry lips.
Yunho responded instantly to Jaejoong’s kiss, drawing back sharply at the salty taste within his band mate's mouth. “That’s disgusting! How can you do that?” He asked, a look of disgust whispering across his face.
“When it’s you, it tastes wonderful to me.” Jaejoong laughed before reaching over and grabbing his pants from the floor. “Are you ready to get serious?” He questioned as he pulled out a small tube of lubricant and held it out to Yunho.
“What’s that for?” Yunho questioned, eyeing the tube with a raised eyebrow.
“Do you not know anything about sex between guys?” Jaejoong asked incredulously, his eyebrows arching slightly.
Yunho blushed slightly and turned his eyes away from Jaejoong, “I never thought I'd need to know…”
“Alright, I’ll prepare myself. You spread this over your dick.” Jaejoong sighed before popping the cap and putting some of the liquid within Yunho’s hand.
“P-prepare?” Yunho stuttered, looking utterly confused and slightly horrified.
“Just watch.” Jaejoong laughed slightly as he sank onto the bed, letting out a long breath and relaxing his body before slathering his fingers in the lubricant and pressing one against inside of his body.
Yunho’s jaw dropped and he quickly looked somewhere else, an awkward feeling coming over him.
That didn’t last long. He quickly turned his eyes back when he heard Jaejoong let out a deep moan and shift on the bed slightly. Seeing Jaejoong thrust against the three fingers in his body made Yunho lose his breath for a moment. It was so erotic to watch the older boy’s lithe form writhing on the bed as he pleasured himself slowly. It almost appeared as if he’d forgotten about Yunho altogether.
“Your turn.” He growled as he let his fingers slide from his body slowly.
“I don’t know, Jaejoong.” Yunho hesitated, teeth coming out to grip at his bottom lip.
“Just act like I’m a girl.” He suggested as he pulled Yunho closer, placing a feather light kiss on his lips, “I’ve dreamed of you doing this to me so many times. I’ve imagined what it would be like to feel you inside of me, to have you mark me in such a deep way.”
An electric jolt shot through Yunho at Jaejoong’s words. He had dreamed about sex with him, had longed after him, had become aroused by the very sight of him. These facts placed a new kind of desire in Yunho’s body as he slowly tipped Jaejoong back onto the bed, his lips seeking those of his band mate’s for a quick kiss before he leaned back on his knees and angled himself against Jaejoong’s entrance.
“Take it slow until I give word that I’m alright.” Jaejoong cautioned as he lifted his legs and wrapped them around Yunho’s waist, fully exposing himself to the younger boy.
“Okay.” Yunho breathed lightly as he pressed slowly into Jaejoong, shoots of pleasure already racing through his body.
Jaejoong winced slightly as his body stretched to accommodate Yunho’s erection. He never did like the pain in the beginning, but coming from Yunho, he didn’t mind it as much.
Finally, Yunho sank fully into Jaejoong, his eyes glazed over and his body trembling with the power it took to keep himself from moving inside the older boy. “Jae!” He moaned, his head lolling forward slightly as his legs began to tremble madly with suppressed desire.
Jaejoong pulled in a deep breath and relaxed his body before glancing up at Yunho and letting out a loud moan at the sight of the person he loved trembling with the urge to resist thrusting madly within him.
“More, Yunho!” Jaejoong moaned, grabbing the edge of the mattress as he waited for the explosion that was sure to come.
At Jaejoong’s words, Yunho released his hold on his body and let pure, animal instinct take over.
He pulled almost completely out before slamming back into Jaejoong, a strangled yell pushing past his lips.
“Yes!” Jaejoong groaned as Yunho’s angle changed and he brushed against his prostate. “Harder!” He nearly yelled, arching off the bed to meet Yunho mid-thrust. Explosions of pleasure were shooting through Jaejoong’s body at Yunho’s every thrust. Making love with his band leader was twice as good as any sex Jaejoong had ever experienced during his twenty-two years of life.
Yunho slowly found his rhythm as he continued to thrust urgently within Jaejoong, his head tipping back to let out streams of incoherent words and grunts of pleasure.
“F-faster.” Jae breathed, hardly able to from the words as his body focused solely on finding its completion.
He could feel a tight sensation running through his body as Yunho plunged into him again, sending Jaejoong diving off a cliff into pure sensation and pleasure.
“Yunho!” Jaejoong groaned as he raked his nails down Yunho’s arms, trying to hold onto the waves of pleasure washing over him.
Yunho nearly yelled as he watched Jaejoong climax harshly, causing the older boy’s muscles to tighten around Yunho’s erection. It was too much, he couldn’t hold on any longer, he had to give out and let the pure pleasure take over his body.
When his climax hit he saw stars with the force of the pleasure running through his body. The only thing he could think of while being buffeted by waves of pleasure was Jaejoong’s name. So he repeated in a breathy voice, thrusting into Jaejoong one last time before he collapsed on the older boy, his body trembling and sweating from the pure effort of remaining upright while thrusting into Jaejoong.
“Yunho.” Jaejoong breathed lightly, slowly coming down from nirvana and becoming aware of his surroundings once again.
The feeling of Yunho’s chest pressing against his own as they both sought to fill their lungs with air, was something Jaejoong had never imagined he would enjoy so much. The two of them fit together like puzzle pieces, the curves and planes of their bodies fitting perfectly together, like they were made for each other.
Jaejoong wished he could stop time and remain with Yunho like that forever, because he knew that tomorrow he wasn’t going to wake-up and find Yunho curled behind him, he wouldn’t get any smiles or gentle touches from the band leader. Everything had to go back to normal after this and he was expected to move on and stop loving Yunho just because the older boy had indulged him for a night. But wasn’t that what he had promised to do? Jaejoong cursed himself for ever enticing Yunho to do this with him. How was he going to let go when his love for the man had only deepened through their night together?
Unwelcomed tears pooled in Jaejoong’s eyes before spilling over and running down his face. He hated himself for loving Yunho, hated Yunho for saying yes to such a stupid request.
“Jae, I’m going to go get cleaned up.” Yunho stated softly, pushing himself off of Jaejoong, making sure his eyes never strayed to the tear-stained face of Kim Jaejoong.
JaeJoong didn’t say anything, just laid there and watched as Yunho crawled off the bed, slipped on his clothes and padded from the room.
“So this is how it ends?” He whispered, his voice quivering as deep sobs began to shake his body. He had never imagined that his one night of bliss would end with his heart slowly shattering within his chest.
“Yunho.” He cried into a pillow, sobs shaking his entire frame as he cried out his heartache and suffering.
In the bathroom down the hall, Yunho was looking at his flushed face in the mirror, a troubled look sitting within his eyes. “What have I done?”
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A/N: Yep, first smut scene. I still feel so weird when I read it. One thing that bugs me is that it's Yunjae and not Jaeho. I'm becoming a huge Jaeho fan nowdays...so yeah.
Pairings: Yunjae & Yoosu
Genre: Angst, romance, drama
Rating: From PG to NC-17
Length 2/8
Summary: Things become slightly unstable in DBSK when Jaejoong asks for one night from Yunho.
Warnings: Mild cursing and a few rated scenes.
Chapters: ||1||
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The time slid by slowly for Jaejoong. He couldn’t stop staring at Yunho, wondering if tonight would be the night he experienced the thing he’d only dreamed of.
Shudders kept racing down his spine every time he passed the guest bedroom, or saw that yet another hour had passed on the clock. Slowly, ever so slowly, the time for Yunho to make a decision was drawing closer.
The younger boy hadn’t said a word to Jaejoong since he’d last seen him in the stairwell; in fact, he had yet to even acknowledge Jaejoong’s presence within the room.
“I’m going to bed.” Yunho called, as he put the last dish into the cabinet, threw his towel onto the table-top and made his way from the room, never even sparing a glance in Jaejoong’s direction.
‘Good nights’ echoed around the room for a moment before every one turned their attention back onto the television screen.
Jaejoong was the only one who was off by himself in a corner, flipping through the pages of a book, acting as if he were reading. Ever since the other members had come back to the apartment, they had looked at him strangely, like he wasn’t Jaejoong anymore. None of them had tried to say anything, but Jae could feel that they wanted to. Yunho had probably told them to leave the it alone.
Three hours later, at 11:30, the other three members went to bed, leaving Jaejoong sitting in the living room, still flipping through his book, even though he only took-in and understood every-other word.
“Okay.” He breathed, shutting his book as he heard the bedroom door close, signaling that he was clear to make his way to the guest bedroom.
Once there, nerves began to creep up on him, causing his hands to turn ice cold and shake slightly. He was wondering what he was going to do if Yunho showed up. It was obvious that the band leader wasn’t going to rush into his arms and make passionate love to the older boy. So it was going to up to Jaejoong to entice his straight leader.
Jaejoong jumped and nearly yelled when he felt a warm hand tap him gentle on the shoulder.
Spinning around, almond shaped eyes large, he saw Yunho standing behind him, he couldn’t think of anything to say but, “y-yes?”
“Alright, you have one night, then this will all be forgotten. You won’t cling to me or beg me ever again.” It wasn’t a question, it was a command that left no other option but for Jaejoong to nod his head in silent shock.
He couldn’t believe that Yunho was actually going to have sex with him. The very realization made him dizzy, thankfully he was sitting down.
“Well?” Yunho questioned, raising an eyebrow, “Are you just going to sit there?”
Jaejoong flinched and stood from the bed before reaching over and turning off the light so the room was hidden in shadows. He was too nervous to look Yunho in the face, too scared to see the cold look he knew was lurking there.
“Relax.” Jaejoong breathed as he smoothed his hands over Yunho’s shoulders, stepping closer to breathe in the others scent. The very smell of Yunho was like an aphrodisiac for Jaejoong.
Yunho pulled in a deep breath and forced himself to relax under Jaejoong’s small hands. He had planned on not coming; he just wanted to avoid the whole situation. Yet he knew that it had to be dealt with or the band would suffer. So he was going to give Jaejoong what he wanted so this could all be put behind them.
“What do you want me to do?”
“I don’t want you to act like a mindless drone. Touch me…kiss me…make me remember this night forever.” Jaejoong whispered against Yunho’s ear as he plastered himself against the younger boy.
“Dominate me.”
A shiver shot down Yunho’s spine at Jaejoong’s words. That breathy plea was enough to excite his body.
“I’ve never done this with a guy.” Yunho breathed, trying to keep from taking a step back from Jaejoong. It felt so odd having his friend of six years rubbing up against him like that.
“It’s okay, it’s not that different.” Jaejoong breathed, his lips whispering over Yunho’s jaw, placing feather light kisses along the unshaven stubble of Yunho’s face.
“I think it is.” Yunho breathed his body tensing as Jaejoong became more comfortable with touching him. He almost felt anxiety, like he had no other choice but to indulge Jaejoong.
“Don’t just stand there, return my attention.” Jaejoong instructed, grabbing Yunho’s hand and placing it on his waist. “Don’t be afraid of me.” He whispered against the other’s lips before leaning forward slightly to deepen the kiss.
Yunho flinched slightly, his first reaction was to move away from the kiss; however he knew what was required of him, so he slowly parted his lips and returned the attention timidly.
Jaejoong, feeling Yunho respond slightly, took the opportunity and slid his tongue between the other boys lips, savoring the taste of mint tooth-paste and something else…something that was exclusively Yunho.
His body burned with pure desire, but he held himself back, incase Yunho was still on the edge of running from the room.
How a simple kiss had gone into an exploration of the inside of his mouth, Yunho didn’t know, but he did know that Jaejoong was extremely good at kissing. Apparently the boy had gotten more practice then he let on.
Lifting his tongue slightly, Yunho let it brush against Jaejoong’s, an odd sensation shooting through his body at the simple touch. Intrigued, he made the move again, this time taking a bolder step by slipping his tongue into Jaejoong’s mouth. He felt the silky inside of Jaejoong’s mouth, his entire face tingling from the odd sensation of being in Jaejoong’s mouth.
He pulled back quickly when he heard Jaejoong moan deeply, like his simple touch was a taste of heaven.
“Don’t stop.” Jaejoong panted, pulling back and licking his lips to remove Yunho’s masculine taste.
“I want you to kiss me like that.” He growled as he tangled his hands in Yunho’s hair and returned to the kiss.
Twisting slightly, Jaejoong sank onto the bed, trying not to break the impassioned kiss. He wanted to feel Yunho’s bare skin, wanted to devour every inch of his body and then have the favor returned.
“What?” Jaejoong questioned with a slight pout as Yunho pulled away from his touch, refusing to get onto the bed.
“Jae,” Yunho paused and licked his swollen lips, “I’m not sure I can do this. It’s too weird.”
“We’ve just gotten started Yunho, let me show you how good it can be.” Jaejoong enticed, afraid that Yunho would leave him highly aroused and wanting much more.
He couldn’t back out now, that he knew, he also knew that there was no way he was going to be able to have a normal relationship with Jaejoong after this night.
“Alright.” Yunho finally sighed, sinking slowly onto the bed. “Just don’t move so fast.”
“We couldn’t be moving any slower.” Jae pointed out with a small arch of his eyebrows.
“It feels fast to me. I’ve never kissed another guy and I’ve never had sex with one. This is all kind of strange…don’t you think?”
Jaejoong sat up on his knees and slowly pressed closer to Yunho, “Nothing has ever felt more natural to me, then to kiss you.” He whispered before letting his lips feather over Yunho’s.
“Why do you like me?” Yunho sighed, turning his face away so Jaejoong couldn’t kiss him.
Jaejoong sat back and flipped on the light, a look of slight annoyance on his face, “I love you because you’re my rock when I’m down, you’re the one who picks me up out of the mud and helps me, even if it means you get dirty yourself. I love you because whenever I’m around you I feel safe because I know that you’ll take care of me, you won’t judge me, but try to help me. You know me better than anyone else in this world and I trust you more than anyone else. This is why I love you, Jung Yunho.”
“You’re serious…” Yunho breathed, watching as a look of love and devotion spread across Jaejoong’s face, giving him a beautiful glow in the dimly lit room.
“I’m not anything like what you described…you make me sound perfect…”
“You are my perfection, Yunho!” Jaejoong breathed, pulling closer and tangling his fingers in Yunho’s hair, an intense look of desire lurking within his eyes, but in those deep eyes was also a look that showed he spoke nothing but truth.
“Jae, I’m so sorry. I think I’ve been insensitive to you. I knew you liked me, but I was afraid what would happen to the band, so I never mentioned it. I just let you suffer while I enjoyed my life.” Yunho breathed, dark eyes filled with sorrow for what he had done.
“Then make-up for it tonight. Don’t hold anything back.” Jaejoong whispered lightly, his lips running along Yunho’s jaw, punctuating ever word with a kiss.
Yunho turned his head slightly, catching Jaejoong’s soft lips with his own, trying to enjoy the gentle way Jaejoong’s tongue danced across his bottom lip, seeking entrance into his mouth.
Two bodies fell back onto the bed, hands tangled within silky hair at one moment then running along the smooth planes of well-muscled bodies, slowly lifting into the highs of passion.
Doubts, fears and questions faded from their minds as they slowly drifted into Nirvana, nothing mattering but their time together.
Yunho, having been under Jaejoong, rolled over easily, pinning the smaller boy beneath him. Hungry lips sought the boy’s neck, sucking and nipping a trail down his throat to the collar of the Jaejoong’s shirt.
Despite himself, Yunho wanted to feel more of that silk-soft skin beneath his fingers, wanted to taste every inch of the boy.
“Are you just going to sit there and look at my shirt or take it off of me?” Jaejoong panted, flushed face staring up at Yunho with a soft smile.
“You’re always in such a rush.” Yunho growled as he hooked his fingers under Jaejoong’s shirt and pulled it towards the older boy’s head, eyes raking over golden skin as the fabric slowly slid away.
Jaejoong sat up slightly and quickly threw off his shirt before doing the same for Yunho.
The man was absolutely incredible. Not a flaw upon the golden skin that was pulled taught across a strong abdomen and smooth chest.
“Whoa.” Jae breathed lightly, coming up to let his fingers trail along Yunho’s torso, surprised at how soft his skin was.
“That tickles.” Yunho laughed, brushing away Jaejoong’s hand and pushing him back onto the bed. “You’re less like a girl then I’d thought.” He commented as he slid down Jaejoong’s body, stopping when he was hovering over the other boys’ stomach.
“Thank you…?”
Yunho opted to place sloppy kisses all over Jaejoong’s body rather than further his conversation with the boy.
Jaejoong moaned loudly, his eyes fluttering shut as Yunho sucked lightly on one of his nipples then bit it lightly before drawing back and blowing cool air across the hypersensitive skin.
“Yunho!” Jae groaned, lifting his hips off the bed and grinding against the younger boy, seeking some kind of release from his painful erection.
Yunho moaned deep within his throat when Jaejoong rose off the bed, pure desire shooting through his body at the feel of the older boy’s arousal.
“Your pants, take them off.” Yunho commanded, moving so Jaejoong could have more room to maneuver.
Jaejoong didn’t waste any time before sliding off his flannel “house-pants” and then quickly removing his boxers.
“Now you’re turn.” He growled at Yunho, turning expectant eyes upon him.
Yunho let his eyes slide over Jaejoong’s body, an awkward feeling drifting over him, “You’ve done this before, right?”
“Yes!” Jaejoong growled sitting up and jerking at Yunho’s pants, “Now stop stalling or I’ll tear your pants off!” He threatened, dark eyes intense with arousal.
Yunho swallowed the lump in his throat before slowly divesting himself of both pants and boxers.
Seeing Jaejoong looking at him like a hungry animal was a little embarrassing and rather un-nerving. “So…”
“So we go back to what we were doing.” Jaejoong breathed as he pulled Yunho down on top of him and lifted his hips off the bed, groaning deeply as his erection met Yunho’s.
Yunho moaned lightly, once again feeling uneasy with the whole situation.
“I feel like I’m humping a post. Do something other than moan.” Jaejoong growled, slowing his pace to an insanely slow grind.
“Sorry.” Yunho managed to whisper before the air left his lungs in a strangled yell. “W-What are you doing?” He breathed as he felt Jaejoong’s hand encircle his erection and stroke down its length slowly.
“Just making sure you are as excited as I am.” He laughed as he stroked the length of Yunho’s arousal slowly, a playful smirk twitching his lips upwards.
Yunho moaned, his eyes fluttering shut as he dropped to his elbows, no longer able to support himself on his hands.
“More.” He found himself repeating in a breathless voice as he pressed against Jaejoong’s hand.
“You like this? I can do much better.” Jaejoong laughed as he sat up and pushed Yunho onto his back, his eyes traveling the length of the younger boy’s trembling and sweating form, before he slid down Yunho’s body until he was hovering over his band leaders erection.
“J-Jaejoong…D-don’t, I can’t last that long!” Yunho warned in a breathless whisper.
“Has anyone ever given you head before?”
“N-no.”
“So just admit that you’re nervous instead of telling me that you won’t last.” Jaejoong stated easily before lowering his head and letting his tongue flick across the tip of Yunho’s erection.
“Ah!” Yunho gasped, his hands clenching the bed sheets as he thrust his hips upwards almost on instinct.
“I knew you’d like it.” Jaejoong laughed before slowly taking Yunho’s length into his mouth, his tongue working slow patterns across the hot skin as he bobbed his head slightly.
“Oh my g-g- Ah!” He whimpered, his head thrashing on the pillow as he lifted his hips off the bed with force, trying to get deeper into Jaejoong’s warm mouth.
Unprepared for Yunho’s thrust, Jaejoong gagged slightly and quickly drew back, licking his lips of Yunho’s salty taste.
“I’m fine.” He assured Yunho gentle as he moved up the younger boy’s trembling body to plant a firm kiss on dry lips.
Yunho responded instantly to Jaejoong’s kiss, drawing back sharply at the salty taste within his band mate's mouth. “That’s disgusting! How can you do that?” He asked, a look of disgust whispering across his face.
“When it’s you, it tastes wonderful to me.” Jaejoong laughed before reaching over and grabbing his pants from the floor. “Are you ready to get serious?” He questioned as he pulled out a small tube of lubricant and held it out to Yunho.
“What’s that for?” Yunho questioned, eyeing the tube with a raised eyebrow.
“Do you not know anything about sex between guys?” Jaejoong asked incredulously, his eyebrows arching slightly.
Yunho blushed slightly and turned his eyes away from Jaejoong, “I never thought I'd need to know…”
“Alright, I’ll prepare myself. You spread this over your dick.” Jaejoong sighed before popping the cap and putting some of the liquid within Yunho’s hand.
“P-prepare?” Yunho stuttered, looking utterly confused and slightly horrified.
“Just watch.” Jaejoong laughed slightly as he sank onto the bed, letting out a long breath and relaxing his body before slathering his fingers in the lubricant and pressing one against inside of his body.
Yunho’s jaw dropped and he quickly looked somewhere else, an awkward feeling coming over him.
That didn’t last long. He quickly turned his eyes back when he heard Jaejoong let out a deep moan and shift on the bed slightly. Seeing Jaejoong thrust against the three fingers in his body made Yunho lose his breath for a moment. It was so erotic to watch the older boy’s lithe form writhing on the bed as he pleasured himself slowly. It almost appeared as if he’d forgotten about Yunho altogether.
“Your turn.” He growled as he let his fingers slide from his body slowly.
“I don’t know, Jaejoong.” Yunho hesitated, teeth coming out to grip at his bottom lip.
“Just act like I’m a girl.” He suggested as he pulled Yunho closer, placing a feather light kiss on his lips, “I’ve dreamed of you doing this to me so many times. I’ve imagined what it would be like to feel you inside of me, to have you mark me in such a deep way.”
An electric jolt shot through Yunho at Jaejoong’s words. He had dreamed about sex with him, had longed after him, had become aroused by the very sight of him. These facts placed a new kind of desire in Yunho’s body as he slowly tipped Jaejoong back onto the bed, his lips seeking those of his band mate’s for a quick kiss before he leaned back on his knees and angled himself against Jaejoong’s entrance.
“Take it slow until I give word that I’m alright.” Jaejoong cautioned as he lifted his legs and wrapped them around Yunho’s waist, fully exposing himself to the younger boy.
“Okay.” Yunho breathed lightly as he pressed slowly into Jaejoong, shoots of pleasure already racing through his body.
Jaejoong winced slightly as his body stretched to accommodate Yunho’s erection. He never did like the pain in the beginning, but coming from Yunho, he didn’t mind it as much.
Finally, Yunho sank fully into Jaejoong, his eyes glazed over and his body trembling with the power it took to keep himself from moving inside the older boy. “Jae!” He moaned, his head lolling forward slightly as his legs began to tremble madly with suppressed desire.
Jaejoong pulled in a deep breath and relaxed his body before glancing up at Yunho and letting out a loud moan at the sight of the person he loved trembling with the urge to resist thrusting madly within him.
“More, Yunho!” Jaejoong moaned, grabbing the edge of the mattress as he waited for the explosion that was sure to come.
At Jaejoong’s words, Yunho released his hold on his body and let pure, animal instinct take over.
He pulled almost completely out before slamming back into Jaejoong, a strangled yell pushing past his lips.
“Yes!” Jaejoong groaned as Yunho’s angle changed and he brushed against his prostate. “Harder!” He nearly yelled, arching off the bed to meet Yunho mid-thrust. Explosions of pleasure were shooting through Jaejoong’s body at Yunho’s every thrust. Making love with his band leader was twice as good as any sex Jaejoong had ever experienced during his twenty-two years of life.
Yunho slowly found his rhythm as he continued to thrust urgently within Jaejoong, his head tipping back to let out streams of incoherent words and grunts of pleasure.
“F-faster.” Jae breathed, hardly able to from the words as his body focused solely on finding its completion.
He could feel a tight sensation running through his body as Yunho plunged into him again, sending Jaejoong diving off a cliff into pure sensation and pleasure.
“Yunho!” Jaejoong groaned as he raked his nails down Yunho’s arms, trying to hold onto the waves of pleasure washing over him.
Yunho nearly yelled as he watched Jaejoong climax harshly, causing the older boy’s muscles to tighten around Yunho’s erection. It was too much, he couldn’t hold on any longer, he had to give out and let the pure pleasure take over his body.
When his climax hit he saw stars with the force of the pleasure running through his body. The only thing he could think of while being buffeted by waves of pleasure was Jaejoong’s name. So he repeated in a breathy voice, thrusting into Jaejoong one last time before he collapsed on the older boy, his body trembling and sweating from the pure effort of remaining upright while thrusting into Jaejoong.
“Yunho.” Jaejoong breathed lightly, slowly coming down from nirvana and becoming aware of his surroundings once again.
The feeling of Yunho’s chest pressing against his own as they both sought to fill their lungs with air, was something Jaejoong had never imagined he would enjoy so much. The two of them fit together like puzzle pieces, the curves and planes of their bodies fitting perfectly together, like they were made for each other.
Jaejoong wished he could stop time and remain with Yunho like that forever, because he knew that tomorrow he wasn’t going to wake-up and find Yunho curled behind him, he wouldn’t get any smiles or gentle touches from the band leader. Everything had to go back to normal after this and he was expected to move on and stop loving Yunho just because the older boy had indulged him for a night. But wasn’t that what he had promised to do? Jaejoong cursed himself for ever enticing Yunho to do this with him. How was he going to let go when his love for the man had only deepened through their night together?
Unwelcomed tears pooled in Jaejoong’s eyes before spilling over and running down his face. He hated himself for loving Yunho, hated Yunho for saying yes to such a stupid request.
“Jae, I’m going to go get cleaned up.” Yunho stated softly, pushing himself off of Jaejoong, making sure his eyes never strayed to the tear-stained face of Kim Jaejoong.
JaeJoong didn’t say anything, just laid there and watched as Yunho crawled off the bed, slipped on his clothes and padded from the room.
“So this is how it ends?” He whispered, his voice quivering as deep sobs began to shake his body. He had never imagined that his one night of bliss would end with his heart slowly shattering within his chest.
“Yunho.” He cried into a pillow, sobs shaking his entire frame as he cried out his heartache and suffering.
In the bathroom down the hall, Yunho was looking at his flushed face in the mirror, a troubled look sitting within his eyes. “What have I done?”
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A/N: Yep, first smut scene. I still feel so weird when I read it. One thing that bugs me is that it's Yunjae and not Jaeho. I'm becoming a huge Jaeho fan nowdays...so yeah.