today
so today i stayed home from school. I know what all happen now with Mike and the whore. Last night I went out with few people because I didnt want to stay home. Now that me and mike are broken up alot of people are trying to hang out.....I have 4 different goups of friends trying to get me to go with them. Rach wants me to go with her to go get trashed. Mer Liz and Kate want me to go to the june thing with them then go out clubing. Other people want me to go smoke up with them.
So many people want to kick Mikes ass right now too. my mom wants to cut off his dick. my brother wants to fucking kill him for hurting his baby sister. some of my friends want to shit on his car others want to spit in his face few ever want to kill him. dave wants to beat the crape out of him. Mike C doesnt like him very much right now and wants someone to beat him up.
I told mike me and him will just talk for now for few months or so then maybe if im ready hang out as friends and just friends and go from the step by step. at this time i do not know if i will ever get back with him. i dont know if i can ever be any thing but a friend with him now if even that but im will to try the whole friend thing right now. im too nice of a person alot of people have been saying because im even talking to him.I told him to stop saying I love you to me when we were on the phone or when we were saying good bye online. I also told him to stop calling me sweety bc he lost the right to that too. I feel so weak but at the some time i know i have to be strong... thing is the frist time ive ever had this much trouble getting over brakeing up with someone. most of the time I would of just got over it and get out that night and got someone elses number and not cry, not cry the color out of my eyes. i have so many things going threw my head i dont know what i really want here any more... i could of worked in nc with a chef over the summer but i turned it down for mike. i gave up smokeing and drinking and drugs for him. I gave him my heart and all my love (first man in my life i ever even said i love u too and most likely the last . he didnt gave me much other then hurt and pain i cant get over.
So many people want to kick Mikes ass right now too. my mom wants to cut off his dick. my brother wants to fucking kill him for hurting his baby sister. some of my friends want to shit on his car others want to spit in his face few ever want to kill him. dave wants to beat the crape out of him. Mike C doesnt like him very much right now and wants someone to beat him up.
I told mike me and him will just talk for now for few months or so then maybe if im ready hang out as friends and just friends and go from the step by step. at this time i do not know if i will ever get back with him. i dont know if i can ever be any thing but a friend with him now if even that but im will to try the whole friend thing right now. im too nice of a person alot of people have been saying because im even talking to him.I told him to stop saying I love you to me when we were on the phone or when we were saying good bye online. I also told him to stop calling me sweety bc he lost the right to that too. I feel so weak but at the some time i know i have to be strong... thing is the frist time ive ever had this much trouble getting over brakeing up with someone. most of the time I would of just got over it and get out that night and got someone elses number and not cry, not cry the color out of my eyes. i have so many things going threw my head i dont know what i really want here any more... i could of worked in nc with a chef over the summer but i turned it down for mike. i gave up smokeing and drinking and drugs for him. I gave him my heart and all my love (first man in my life i ever even said i love u too and most likely the last . he didnt gave me much other then hurt and pain i cant get over.