Son of a monkey's uncle....
I do not know what to do. So confused and lost. I keep getting pushed away sometimes and I do not know how to handle that. Every relatioship prior to this one has been so close and intamite, this one has its moments but there is still this distance. What the fuck.....I don't know. I liiike here a lot. Hell, fuck, we said it but we have even expressed out love. Yeah, Yeah I know what all you fuckers think out there, but fuck you all. I am a very strong headed person, I know how I feel and I am not afraid to express that. I just want to know what to think. The yo-yo game is no fun. If I am not needed then why am I here. Apparently she likes/loves me a lot she states. Yet, I know a need for space as I need mine but I still like to do a lot of things together. I suppose I am just bitching like a woman......yes take it as a sexist remark if you will, but I still love that feeling of being wanted. She sometimes, more than most times, does not express that feeling, and that bothers me. Should I worry? Should I not care at all? Am I over reacting? Oh well. I maybe I should just chill and relax, but the feeling and intensity that I have when in a relationship is outstanding. I love to love and be loved. I put my entire being and soul into someone if I feel inclined that they deserve it. And chelsea, I feel deserves. I hope she feels special because she is too me. I know she hates the outpouring of emotions and tends to be a bit introverted but, I need a release it somehow. and here it is. So yeah, anyways i might post again tonight when i get even more drunk. later yall