Rock Garden
I have so much to write about. So very very many thoughts.
They fall around the usual recent themes, my constant search for my own identity, an evaluation of my current feelings, the way the world looks through my eyes, and of course what exactly is true love?
However, I am just not in the mood to write about any of these things. Most of them are sad and depressing stories.
Good thing or bad?
Usually I feel extreme emotion, and I can speak my heart with extreme clarity.
When I am completely happy I can sing beautiful melodies to all, sharing my joy.
When I am in love my words are so sweet they tend to be slightly intoxicating.
When I am angry I speak out in an explosive rage.
When I am sad I woe, wallow, and wail.
When I am numb only death is more unfeeling than the words that I speak.
Yet, what is my mood right now?
A pleasurable tranquility.
I have a general nice overall good feeling inside.
This is definitely nice.
However, it lacks the potent emotion that allows me to speak my heart.
Nothing really incites me enough to move me passionately.
I can't look to the past, because I am in the process of cleaning it out.
I don't let anything really bother me, even if it is important.
Good thing or bad?
Neither.
Emotions are a constant cycle. What we must do is enjoy the positives of each emotion, all while fighting off the negatives. Soon (soon can vary from a half hour to a half year) that emotion will pass, and another with very different challenges will come by.
I will enjoy my peace, for I know it will not last. I shall feed it with pleasant conversation, green tea, meditation, a good book, nature, hot baths, candle lights, walks, prayer, music with a soft melody and good lyrics, healthy foods, and non-aggresive exercise. For that mood is perfect for such things, revitalization. Peeling away the long term horrible effects of constant potent emotion, hopefully coming out renewed.
However, as good as I feel and as relaxed as I get I must keep my mind keen. I must still work very hard toward all of my goals. I must not let it keep me from being aware. I must not let it make me unprepared for whatever challenges may await me next.
They fall around the usual recent themes, my constant search for my own identity, an evaluation of my current feelings, the way the world looks through my eyes, and of course what exactly is true love?
However, I am just not in the mood to write about any of these things. Most of them are sad and depressing stories.
Good thing or bad?
Usually I feel extreme emotion, and I can speak my heart with extreme clarity.
When I am completely happy I can sing beautiful melodies to all, sharing my joy.
When I am in love my words are so sweet they tend to be slightly intoxicating.
When I am angry I speak out in an explosive rage.
When I am sad I woe, wallow, and wail.
When I am numb only death is more unfeeling than the words that I speak.
Yet, what is my mood right now?
A pleasurable tranquility.
I have a general nice overall good feeling inside.
This is definitely nice.
However, it lacks the potent emotion that allows me to speak my heart.
Nothing really incites me enough to move me passionately.
I can't look to the past, because I am in the process of cleaning it out.
I don't let anything really bother me, even if it is important.
Good thing or bad?
Neither.
Emotions are a constant cycle. What we must do is enjoy the positives of each emotion, all while fighting off the negatives. Soon (soon can vary from a half hour to a half year) that emotion will pass, and another with very different challenges will come by.
I will enjoy my peace, for I know it will not last. I shall feed it with pleasant conversation, green tea, meditation, a good book, nature, hot baths, candle lights, walks, prayer, music with a soft melody and good lyrics, healthy foods, and non-aggresive exercise. For that mood is perfect for such things, revitalization. Peeling away the long term horrible effects of constant potent emotion, hopefully coming out renewed.
However, as good as I feel and as relaxed as I get I must keep my mind keen. I must still work very hard toward all of my goals. I must not let it keep me from being aware. I must not let it make me unprepared for whatever challenges may await me next.