By the time I got back I was a mess -- cold, lonely, numb, this close to crying. It's a strange feeling, tethering between inebriated and sobriety; stranger still, to feel so sober while drunk. It's that hypersensitivity, the rational side that never quite goes to sleep, that observes every detail, every moment, every barrier drawn up ( Read more... )

There are fewer things to talk about these days. Life has fallen into the monotonous rhythm of sleep, wake, school, home, sleep. Term One was breathless -- I didn't have time to pause, to think. Now I come home to empty spaces of time and quiet uncertainty. I forget what I want to do -- or I remember and feel too lackadaisical to do anything about ( Read more... )

LOL HAI TADAIMA I AM BACK FROM NIHON LAND DESU

Or rather, I was back about a week ago but school came and blasted every bit of free time I had out of my hands and threw me into academia and commitments and crazy shit and I just had one of the most insane weeks I've had in a while, so now that it's the weekend (sort of) I can take some time to come ( Read more... )

more than i expected to

10pm on a Sunday night and I have lost all desire to study for promos

I just kind of want to run away and escape to some place far from here nothing but a film camera and a lot of dreams and write stories for children about cats and men who grow orange & lemon trees

o life I don't mean to be pessimistic but sometimes it's a little hard not to be

We are veering so very close to a period where everything we considered Beautiful & Content will have to take a backseat in favour of The Supposedly Important, otherwise known to us as examinations.

I know this is my Future and a Better Life ahead of me, all within my grasp, but sometimes I feel we lose track of what really makes us happy in the ( Read more... )

I fear it may have been too long since I last came on LJ, so I've forgotten how my blogging style used to be like. Oops? I'm just going to try leaping back into it and writing normally (or what I presume is normal ( Read more... )

O HAI GAIZ I revamped my fic journal!

...Not that I update that much nowadays anyway but I SEEK TO RECTIFY THAT. Eventually.

No really I have fic planned but my fingertips are just like NO BITCH I'M NOT GONNA TYPE THAT SHIT OUT FOR YOU. Though I was having quite a bit of fun writing it. It will be finished and posted someday? I dunno, I mean I've ( Read more... )

HAH I FINALLY GOT MY LJ RICH TEXT TO WORK. IN YOUR FACE ( Read more... )

Conversation between the Brother and the Mother about the upcoming marriage in my room just threw me entirely out of sorts, and now I can't concentrate on my Chemistry or yet-to-be-materialized study plan. Damn do I hate these sinking feelings that come without rhyme nor reason.

Gonna read Yaoi and feel better, don't wait up.