I see a nap in my near future

Jun 08, 2016 04:32

Ugh....

I got zero sleep last night. Zero.

It was hot out, which makes it hard to sleep even under normal circumstances. But it kept reminding me of the night before we had to leave, when it was so incredibly hot, and I couldn't sleep, and I kept smelling smoke even though the windows were closed. And then I kept thinking about the day we left. Not exactly conductive to anything, let alone sleep.

Tried to sleep a couple times, but I couldn't manage it, so I said "fuck it" and just... read an entire Mercedes Lackey novel all in one go. Magic's Promise. Fun stuff. Oh, Vanyel. <3 Oh, Savil. <3

...Anyway. By the time I finished, it was around 4 AM, and starting to get light out.

And then I started smelling smoke.

Fuck.

Most likely cause: blowing from the forest fire which is still burning, but mostly under control, like it always does in summer.

But that doesn't make me feel any better.

This weekend, my parents are going down to Athabasca for a while. My brother's going to be in Edmonton. I'm going to be up here looking after the dogs.

To be honest, even though it's very unlikely that we would have a second evacuation scenario, the thought of staying up here alone makes me kind of uncomfortable. I don't want to go to Athabasca, but I still feel kind of... scared of being alone up here, because what if. Enough that I find myself hoping that my parents will drive down with my father's truck, and leave my mother's car here, because I know how to drive her car. Well - okay. I can't legally drive without supervision. But I am capable of getting it from point A to point B in an emergency situation. I think. If I make sure to kennel the dogs in the back rather than letting them sit loose while I drive.

Jesus Christ, I can't believe I'm thinking about this.

...Well. My parents are leaving on Friday, I think. So, maybe I should look at the conditions on Thursday, and make my decisions then. Maybe I'll be less scared on a day when I haven't been up all night. :T

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