isn't melancholy one of Shakespears' moods or something
Hmm....I'm pretty sure it is that and blood and choler and phlegm. If i'm not mistaken. Hmm blood I almost forgot who dark of a red mine is. I mean when I saw my skin split like that I paniced. And then i saw this little sliver of blue. It was a very surreal experience then I thought about all the people who care about me thern I realized that no one really does. Anyhow everything seems really surreal like a big dream. LIke I'm in the middle of the Roman Colisium and the whole thing is crumbling down around me destroying everything I care about. I dunno why i feel the way I feel about everything I feel like I don't care anymore. I don't care if anyone likes me what happens to me what trouble i get into. I dunno what is to be held accountable for this awful feeling. Could it be the fact that my mom said I can't hang with talan until her and dad meet him, Or is it the fact i feel like i'm under so much pressure I might be crushed to death. If someone wrote a book about my life would anyone want to read it? Maybe it's getting called a slut by Zach. Guys don't seem to notice when girls take things to heart and feel it to be true. Like the time for instance that my brother pinched my fat. I refused to eat for while. WHat can I say life right now is royally sucking. But hey you're gonna have some of that. So i like talan he doesn't like me. Kyle keeps wanting to hang zach and eric are still trying to get with me. it's really tiresome actually with eric grabbing my breasts against my will and then zach calling me bad things which included slutty virgin on some many occasions and suicidal bitch. Yeah guys that's a real good way to get a girl. Plus it's not like the want a meaningful realtionship all they do is lust for me. Maybe what I need is a meaningful realationship but in my opinion who would want me I think I come with too much baggage. Who wants a girl with that? I dunno what to do at this point of my life. I dont' have any direction at all.