entry for jonny 2
i havent updated in a few days, i know...
its been a long few days. i dont feel like writing about the bad stuff because thats not what i want to dwell on later. i hope things will start looking up again soon and talking with you tonight cleared some things up. i just want to know you care and are thinking about me and that your drinking with your army buddies will not always come first in life. especially when i am sitting around waiting to hear from you.
i didnt do much worth writing about this weekend... went over and kept elizabeth company while she was at her moms babysitting. her two kids (3 and 5) were there and she was watching another boy, who is 7. she was really frustrated with him but i thought he was alright. of course, i look at things differently since i dont have kids of my own and do not have to put up with them 24/7. i dont know if i will ever be able to have kids. someday i want to but i dont know how well i'll do. my mom is always saying i better never have kids because i cant even take care of the cat. i feed and care for the cat but i am a terrible awful person because i dont drop everything im doing to pet it (him) every time he meows. i love him but hes not the same as a baby. still, im getting kind of tired of hearing that from her. hopefully someday i can prove her wrong. you say you want kids but im afraid it wont be as easy as we think. i want kids too i just want us to get to have some time to enjoy each other too because i feel like i havent had nearly enough time with you so far.
as for the rest of the weekend, just did some things around the house, went shopping (but hardly even bought anything!!), and moped around. hopefully next weekend will be better. i bought black hawk down since you are always watching it on your psp and i never know what youre talking about. i want to watch movies you like and listen to music you like and just know more about you. sometimes i ask too many quesions of you i'm sure but i just want to know everything i can about you as silly as it sounds.
i dunno. i feel like im babbling and i just want to erase this but i dont feel like i should... we'll see later.
its been a long few days. i dont feel like writing about the bad stuff because thats not what i want to dwell on later. i hope things will start looking up again soon and talking with you tonight cleared some things up. i just want to know you care and are thinking about me and that your drinking with your army buddies will not always come first in life. especially when i am sitting around waiting to hear from you.
i didnt do much worth writing about this weekend... went over and kept elizabeth company while she was at her moms babysitting. her two kids (3 and 5) were there and she was watching another boy, who is 7. she was really frustrated with him but i thought he was alright. of course, i look at things differently since i dont have kids of my own and do not have to put up with them 24/7. i dont know if i will ever be able to have kids. someday i want to but i dont know how well i'll do. my mom is always saying i better never have kids because i cant even take care of the cat. i feed and care for the cat but i am a terrible awful person because i dont drop everything im doing to pet it (him) every time he meows. i love him but hes not the same as a baby. still, im getting kind of tired of hearing that from her. hopefully someday i can prove her wrong. you say you want kids but im afraid it wont be as easy as we think. i want kids too i just want us to get to have some time to enjoy each other too because i feel like i havent had nearly enough time with you so far.
as for the rest of the weekend, just did some things around the house, went shopping (but hardly even bought anything!!), and moped around. hopefully next weekend will be better. i bought black hawk down since you are always watching it on your psp and i never know what youre talking about. i want to watch movies you like and listen to music you like and just know more about you. sometimes i ask too many quesions of you i'm sure but i just want to know everything i can about you as silly as it sounds.
i dunno. i feel like im babbling and i just want to erase this but i dont feel like i should... we'll see later.